Soberjulie

Your brain is taking those few comments and magnifying them to lure you into smoking. Don’t give people’s words that kind of power.

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I’m so sorry to hear that life has handed you some bad times too. xoxo

It passed. I definately won’t smoke. Not sure when I’ll go home....but I definitely won’t smoke. Truth: I can’t imagine being chained to those godforsaken things again!

Awww Bandit. You rock. You all do.

Thanks folks. Gahhhhh! i DO like my self-preservation trick of driving to the country and sitting in my car...... The eff-its are passing. I’m usually pretty good at keeping myself together, but today just felt like WAY too much. Gave that dastardly hubby an ultimatum: call the Dr, address this mental health issue....or I’m making plans to live elsewhere until you do. I won’t be held hostage by someone’s refusal to deal with their illness.

It was 5yrs in January.... this is the closest I’ve come to smoking in years. I’m sitting at the side of a dirt road....drove myself to the country where there aren’t any cigarettes and it would take some time/effort/awareness to get some. I have a serious case of ‘the **** its’ My mom was diagnosed with stage 3 esophageal cancer in December. My dad is struggling with early stage dementia. My husband was diagnosed with an adult Autoimmune type 1 diabetes last year.....and it appears (no, that’s not accurate...he HAS) undiagnosed mental illness. Depression? Anxiety? Bipolar? Who knows...it mostly masks as angry-asshole, so he’s really no support while I try to support my sweet momma. I KNOW smoking won’t make anything better. I just don’t care. Probably the most dangerous of all feelings for a quit-smoker: apathy. My Well has run dry and I just don’t care.

I don’t post often, but I’m checking in today. Who is it that says “Don’t put things in your mouth and light them on fire”?

Bakon, I seriously think of you often! Your attitude is one I’m working hard to cultivate. I called one of my grown kids a window-licker the other day. They weren’t amused. I was ??? Your brother is taking me to Jamaica in 3 weeks. He bought earplugs and claimed they were for the plane. I don’t buy it.

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4 years smoke free. I would have forgotten....but my Facebook timeline reminded me. I would have forgotten because a long time ago I quit thinking “I’m quitting smoking” and simply transitioned into a non-smoker. My new grandson was my motivation; I didn’t want to be ‘stinky grandma’. When my motivation would feel shaky, so many folks here provided me with reminders. I will be eternally grateful

Happy Anniversary you lovely soul! You were such a kind and gentle inspiration to me on these boards! Big hugs to you!!

Doreen, would you believe it? I have TWO little men now. Mav was three in Jan (just ahead of my quit date) and Daxton will be one next month