Mental Balloons

[gonfishn21]

For Nancy

 

Mental Balloons

Posted by gonfishn21 on 16 January 2015 - 06:17 PM

As I'm now chasing the tweenie label, and have been thinking a lot about the concerns I have had regading No Man's Land, its got me thinking again.
As most of you know, that means I'm going to ramble.

Although I am not one that needs a lot of kudos, it seems that it is a necessary part of this process for a while.
We make it through day 1 HURRAH!!!!!!!!!!
We make it through hell week HURRAY!!!!
Heck week over, " I feel better" HURRAy!!
Two weeks, wow, learning to get through the craves, HURRay!
Three weeks, can be around my friends and family without committing a felony, HURray
Four weeks, nerves under control, waistband a little tight, not bad, HUrray
Five weeks, walking, eating right, digestion shut down, but not smoking, Hurray
Six weeks, no craves, no moods, no smoking, digestion shut down, HUH?
Seven to eight weeks, no one wants to know but you, how you are doing. By the way, my digestion is shut down!
They really stopped wanting to hear weeks ago, you just kept talking about it. You can see it in their eyes when you walk up. They probably have a pool about how long it will take you to bring it up. Or even worse, the day your digestion works!
Yeah, wow woot woot yippee, big deal.
Hello No Man's Land'
How am i going to keep going with this?
I need to bring my own ballons to the party. I know my friends and family care, but they dont get it.
Even as firm as I have been since day one, this is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I know it, thats all that matters.
As i reach the little milestones ahead, I need to be the one who says HURRAY!!!!!.
I need to be the one who acknowledges the accomplishments. Afterall, in the end, I made the decision to quit, I made it through hell week, heck week, and i am the one who may never digest food again.
I need to remind myself everyday, how much I have accomplished, BEFORE I have a chance to get weak. In that way, I can stay ahead, be ready to face any challenge with a strong defense.
Smoking is no longer an option for me. Smoking is just something I used to do. I control my actions, and smoking is a choice. I choose not to smoke, even if I never digest food again.
I found a website the other day, that actually teaches you HOW TO SMOKE. I couldn't believe it. It takes you through lighting it, drawing on it, how it feels.......Holy Crap I was feeling it!!!!! Two flipping months into this, and I was feeling it, and then I knew. I had to make mental ballons and carry them with me at all times.
Everyday is a celebration, everyday needs reminders, and everyday has its challenges. There is no one here, that can not do it. I'm not special. I'm just going to carry my own balloons.
Just sayin,

Gon

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[Wee fluffy me]

OMG.. I remember this post so well.. it was just what I needed to hear in the early days of my quit.. I have treasured your words ever since gonfishn.

 

And yes, 1 year 8 months down the line I am still carrying my mental balloons because I am proud of me

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[QueenB]

Oh yeah, that's exactly what I'm talking about!!

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[gonfishn21]

Wow, this seems so long ago. How cool someone thinks something I wrote helps! As I roll up on 6 years , I think it is,  I hope it helps anyone feeling a little weak on their commitment to their selves to quit. You are quitting for you. Be proud for you. Be strong for you. And know I am no special snowflake. Anyone can quit. When it seems tough, and no one is tooting your horn, grab your balloons and and march in your own marching band with your head held high. I'm 50 pounds lighter, much happier and healthier!

I never say good luck. Luck has nothing to do with it, IMO. It's all you. Your party, your parade.

Just sayin

Gon

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On 3/1/2018 at 2:26 PM, gonfishn21 said:

, even if I never digest food again.

 

Good to see you gon, REALLY hoping you can digest food now Tell Stacey Hi for me

[Nancy]

10 hours ago, gonfishn21 said:

Wow, this seems so long ago. How cool someone thinks something I wrote helps! As I roll up on 6 years , I think it is,  I hope it helps anyone feeling a little weak on their commitment to their selves to quit. You are quitting for you. Be proud for you. Be strong for you. And know I am no special snowflake. Anyone can quit. When it seems tough, and no one is tooting your horn, grab your balloons and and march in your own marching band with your head held high. I'm 50 pounds lighter, much happier and healthier!

I never say good luck. Luck has nothing to do with it, IMO. It's all you. Your party, your parade.

Just sayin

Gon

So happy to see you!  You are missed!  Your balloon post is one of the most inspirational posts ever!

Edited October 30, 2020 by Nancy

[gonfishn21]

Awwwwww, thanks. I was sure feeling it that's for sure!. I pop in now and again to see how the peeps are doing!!!