I relapsed

[IndigoChilde]

Unfortunately, after three months of not smoking, I relapsed today. I know, it was my choice to take a puff, and the puffs after that one. I've had a cig and a half today so I'm thinking this is a complete relapse. I'm going to start over again Saturday with a new quit date, and in the meanwhile rethink my strategy, watch videos over again, and go back to reading Easy Way to Stop Smoking. Find out where I went wrong, aside from taking that puff.

[PorkandPancakes]

Indigo. I'm sorry you relapsed but I beg you not to 'wait until Saturday'. You know that is the addict in you talking. So you relapsed. You smoked 1 and a half. Stop it now. Get rid of the tobacco. Be honest with yourself. Acknowledge where the desire to smoke started. Learn from it and move on. There is absolutely no need to smoke until Saturday. It's the addict in you. Please stay with us.

[Still winning]

No waiting. No creating "relapse stories". You don't smoke, so don't smoke love. Simple. x

[Sunnyside]

Indigo, don't wait! The more you smoke the harder it will be again. I done near enough the same as you. I smoked one an a half fags after two months. Believe me it wasn't easy to get back on that horse. But you have already got through so much, the triggers you have already done are still done. Don't ruin all that good work, just for one and a half fags.

 

Watch videos, read post and re-read Allen Carr but you can do that without smoking.

 

Come on Indigo. Keep going and it isn't a fail!!

[PorkandPancakes]

No waiting. No creating "relapse stories". You don't smoke, so don't smoke love. Simple. x

Much more succinct!

[IndigoChilde]

Alright. Should I still change my quit date to today? Or should I keep my Feb quit date?

[Doreensfree]

I'm with the good folks here....why wait?

No time like....right now....don't clog your lungs up any further...

Read my posts here today...this is what smoking does....x

[Sunnyside]

Indigo, in my opinion you do what is right for you. But it can't happen again or you should definitely go back to the start.

 

Good for you :) Come on, back on the train!!

[PorkandPancakes]

Agreed. Do what is right for you. Just don't let a blip turn into a lost quit. You can do this. Come back to the quit train and post regularly. Take advantage of the support you can find here.

[Nancy]

Oh, I am so happy you listened to the advice of others.  It would just be that much harder on Saturday.  I gave up a quit after 8 months, and it was 15 years until I was ready to try again.  You know how to do this...so let's get it done.  If it is not too personal...why did you smoke?  You were doing so well!

[IndigoChilde]

Back on the train it is!

I kept getting heavier and heavier cravings. I was feeling tormented. I couldn't understand why after three months I was suddenly having such strong cravings. It was like I never quit. Then I just thought I could handle one puff, and stupid me listened to that junkie thought. Then it was okay, I had a few puffs, a few more wouldn't hurt. And my impulse control tends to be s*** so that turned into a cig and a half before I even realized what I was doing.

[BAT]

NOPE

[PorkandPancakes]

Oh Indigo. It's so hard. Come here instead. Talk. Post. Read. Rant. Just don't smoke.

 

Ar you uk based?

[IndigoChilde]

US based.

 

I got this from a quit buddy on another forum:

Aww Indie, can you jump right back on and not wait? I'm afraid you won't come back! I'll let you keep your stars!!!

 

Stars being the way we track months of our quit.

 

Maybe she's right. Maybe if I didn't decide to just continue my quit I wouldn't have come back Saturday. I probably would have procrastinated the way I did when I first thought about quitting. I kept trying programs to cut down on smoking and reset it every two weeks. Then I decided to follow dad's suggestion and go to quit smoking classes offered by my HMO, which were free. And that "forced" me into a quit date. I think without that class I wouldn't have looked for support and found so much on my quit forums.

[TAC]

_{Wish I could help, my motivation is that I do not want to be sleeping on cardboard, on the street. A very powerful force!}

 

_{I had no choice, be a bag man or quit smoking.}

[Still winning]

3 months can give you a shake up. Don't be frightened of it though, just addictions way of sucking you back in with thoughts of "just one", "too hard" thought I'd be over it" etc etc. Just keep plodding through all those treacle thoughts.

 

So so pleased you jumped back on. My relapse story lasted 14 years!! It's more common then you'd think. The excuses seem so plausible!!  But they are all lies. It hurts you and it's simply addiction, no more and no less - YOU deserve better. Post, talk, don't smoke sweetie. We'll help talk you down if you SOS too, give yourself every chance you can to get this done and dusted. 

 

Much love. x

[Boo]

Back on the train it is!

 

Good choice.  You hit a bump in the road, but you corrected it and are back on the path now.  Forward is the way.

[ChRiSpY]

Relapsing sucks

 

Don't suck anymore.

[bakon]

Want to describe what a let down it was? Bad taste, dizzy lightheaded feeling, woozy stomach and stink. Maybe you didn't have enough for that but it had to burn your throat and force a cough.

 

As for quit day. You pick. I see no reason to start over if it was only 1 1/2. Get more than that on a smokey bar for a half hour.

 

Pick up your no smoking banner and start marching away from that mistake

[PorkandPancakes]

Loved seeing your 'NOPE' today Indie. Are you back on the train? How is it going? Still getting those cravings?

[Cristóbal]

Hello Indigo,

 

How are you doing ??? It has been some days since you posted.

 

Let us know, because even if you are still smoking, your support group cares about you. That is why members continue to post to your thread.

 

It can be so easy to just continue to smoke and think that you will quit again in the future, but the problem now is that if you are smoking, that you may not find the strength and motivation to start another quit for a very long time. Internet quit smoking forums are full of posts from smokers who throw their quits away, then start them only years later.

 

And if this happens - continuing to smoke for a long time - you may be coming back here to announce that you now have a smoking related disease to go with your new quit. Smoking kills 50% of  smokers, average of 13 years early - the probabilities are not in your favor if you continue to smoke.

 

If you are not smoking, then let us know too, these are the moments when support can really help in the early days of a new quit.

 

It is important to realize that quitting smoking permanently is possible for every smoker. The key to growing a permanent quit, can be found in education about nicotine addiction and the process of separation from this addiction, and that is what the members of this forum do so well, they provide both to those starting their quits.

 

Let us know how you are doing, please check in.

 

 

Cristóbal

[IndigoChilde]

I'm doing good. I posted an update on another thread. But I decided you guys were right and stuck with my quit. It's not been easy, since first thing in the morning I already want a smoke all over again, but I'm making it through the day.

 

Bakon, I don't know if it was the smoke or what, but I felt nauseous and dizzy for a few days afterward. And my throat felt dry and grainy. I did not miss that at all.

[Cristóbal]

Indigo, 

 

I am very glad that you responded to my last post.

 

Keep going !!!

 

Realize that everything that is uncomfortable about quitting smoking is only temporary....but the long term benefits and peace of mind, emotions and spirit are permanent.

 

With time, you will reach a place in your quit and your life where you will not deal with in any way challenges that are related to smoking. Believe those who have quit before you. They know !!!

 

 

The addiction goes to sleep, and you are left with just *YOU*.

 

 

The only people who crave smoking, are those that continue to feed the addiction, and those that recently left the addiction behind.

 

Those people who continue forward in their quits, find their complete mental, emotional, and spiritual freedom. This includes craves of all types. This is not just a promise....this is a fact.

 

 

Keep posting, do not let this quit ever go away hold on to it as if it was the last breath of your life....because it is.

 

Let us know what your challenges are, and we will help you find your way, because we have been where you are now.

 

 

Cristóbal

[bakon]

Good...people need reminded it is NOT a good experience firing up a shit stick after a period of time. Those days when it was "good tasting" are long gone and the taste is like kissing that old queen of Scotland BURITTO.

[Jenny]

Indy, I'm glad you're still with us. :) If I had any advice to give you it would be to remember how you felt after relapsing.   Use what you've learned from this experience to make you rock solid in your quit moving forward.  I'm so proud of you for getting right back on track.  Make a commitment to not smoke no matter what.  

 

The monster will die if you don't feed it.  it's the only way.