Day 2 just thoughts and thank yous

[Evelyn]

Went pretty good, some thoughts about thinking, old triggers, new fears nothing i couldn't handle things are different this time then in december. I know nicomonster is Always lurking ALWAYS there to jump on your shoulder.

Reflecting your smoking thoughts - is no treat just know the path is there to relapse so don't walk it.

 

I quit on the 13, in a house full of smokers right after a crisis and I'm kicking some ass and I'm proud of myself for just 'cutting the crap' and not my arm (okay cynical) it healed well btw don't worry but my mood has stabalised since my new meds and even though I'm also kicking of a high dose meds (replaced with other one) I can say I AM strong. I AM a survivor. I am no victim, not of my past not of my addiction. CUT THE CRAP (sends triggers from past and junkiethinking outta Ypenburg)

 

I WANT to be free and I needed to know I can be FREE if I WANT to.

 

Bakon porky you saw it in me, way before i saw it myself, you kicked my ass but many here watch me grow and do i fall I dust off and get up.

 

Life has knocked me down way too many times and I admit good medication does support me but my spirit was never broken

 

I only saw the damaged cracks in the mirror and curled up as bowl.

 

Afraid of crowds - cycling to a center,

Scared to visit someone i never met - i just DO it

I am no ragdoll, not any more.

 

This post is everyone who believed in me, Bakon, Doreen, Runfree -- so many but also for BABS who listene the 12th without judging and I AM SO HAPPY

 

That I am alive,

That I have a crowd of friends here

And that you guys didn't gave up on me.

 

THANK YOU

[babs609]

we love ya Evelyn!!  Keep hanging in there....

 

and

 

 

You are welcome!

 

:)

[Doreensfree]

Your one of us Evelyn.... One of the team...

We all here want to see you succeed...and will help you any way we can...

You should feel very proud...your fighting that nico monster....

And we know you can do it...you know you can do it..

Let's get the job done....together...?

Hugs xx

[Evelyn]

Job accepted and embrassed :)

[bakon]

Pull you ass out of the bucket. The ice is all melted and you are going to wrinkle.

 

Good job.

[Evelyn]

Yeah yeah, oh is that the reason I can't leave a big messege at the toilet :P

[Sunnyside]

Evelyn you sound like one tough cookie. The saying goes the best things in life you have to fight for, I believe you will experience them with that attitude.

 

Some people are just inspiring and i can honestly say you are one of those people.

 

Keep on keeping on x

[MichelleDoesntSmoke]

Wahoo!!!!! Evelyn you are a WARRIOR PRINCESS

[Nancy]

Good for you, Evelyn!

[Evelyn]

Thanks friends for the support :)and compliments i start blushing

[Tyme2B]

So happy you beat this Evelyn! You are awesome! XX

[Evelyn]

Yup back on track

[Kendra]

Glad you are still here and free.

 

 

You are an inspiration    & reminder.....    nope ,    nope,    nope