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MichelleDoesntSmoke

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babs609 Apprentice

babs609

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I feel like I'm being a thorn in your side...but you need a reality check...just like many of us did too when we first quit

 

want to know what's hard?

 

Lung Cancer

Emphysema

Heart disease

Stroke

Blood clots to your lungs

Pancreatic cancer

Liver cancer

Bladder cancer

gallbladder cancer

mouth cancer

Losing a loved one too damn early because of smoking

losing your teeth

living with oxygen 24/7

 

 

hmmmm...did I miss anything??

 

Michelle...everything associated with quitting is temporary...but the results of quitting last a lifetime  :)

 

Hang in there!

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Nancy Mentor

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There is no such thing as posting too much, imho.  I'm sure that is not what Babs meant.

 

Just remember it is okay to want one...you are an addict.  As long as you don't smoke, the craves and urges will come farther and farther apart....and you will feel better and better.  You are doing great!

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Sunnyside Rising Star

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I posted this awhile a go, I thought it might help you

I always remember this sentence " Choose your pain" the choice between the pain of going through your quit for awhile or the pain of what could be waiting for you if you keep smoking. I read something recently that had me feeling this again. Quitting is hard, but smoking is even harder. Having to go through that daily ritual of smoking, when most of the time you didn't enjoy it. Having to try and smoke while you were ill and finding it hard to get out of bed or even breathe, your chest is that tight. But still you have to smoke. All those times when you had to stand in all weathers to smoke that cigarette that you did even want to have. To be skint all the time, to take you away from your family and family at every opportunity and to never feel like you have smoked enough. Quitting is hard but smoking is harder.

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Runfree Collaborator

Runfree

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want to know what's hard?

 

Lung Cancer

Emphysema

Heart disease

Stroke

Blood clots to your lungs

Pancreatic cancer

Liver cancer

Bladder cancer

gallbladder cancer

mouth cancer

Losing a loved one too damn early because of smoking

losing your teeth

living with oxygen 24/7

 

 

hmmmm...did I miss anything??

 

Voicebox

Heart disease

etc, etc, etc

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Doreensfree Grand Master

Doreensfree

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When you first arrived on the train...you had very strong reasons to why...you wanted to quit...

Those reasons are still there...if you smoke ...you will be back to square one....

After smoking for a lot of years ..your body is going through some hefty changes...

I'm a life long smoker...oh boy my body went berserk...but I understood why ,and knew I would just have to ride out ,whatever I was feeling...its all temporary...

Smoking is not on the table...never...no matter what....

Repeating this a million times a day sometimes....

Keepm reading all the info....educate yourself....this is how you win the war...I promise...

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babs609 Apprentice

babs609

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You aren't a thorn in my side...this is why I post, to get a reality check. Or am I posting too much or something? By saying I need a reality check are you saying "I keep telling you this!!!!" lol

Oh gosh no!! Post 10000 times a day if you need to!! No I meant lately I've been doing the tough love thing. Usually i mix up nice nice with tough...But it's necessary in your case to tough love it. Lol.

 

My goddaughter/niece has a sister who is in her early 40s and dying from gallbladder cancer and its all I can think about. That's hard. Dying.

 

Refraining from sticking nasty sticks in your mouth and lighting them on fire isn't hard. We thought it was. You still do. But it's a lie. A damn lie.

 

Nope. One day at a time.

 

And post post post!! Just don't smoke. Ever.

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MichelleDoesntSmoke Newbie

MichelleDoesntSmoke

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TY Babs. Tough love is awesome...at least the kind where you say "You need a reality check" is. The kind I can't handle is when someone says something like "you freaking dork, whats wrong with you? You stupid or something?" and calls it 'tough love' LOLOLOL. I didn't THINK you meant it to hit wrong, as I have had no other reason to think you are anything other than loving and supportive.

 

Plus, I'm cranky. Go figure. LOL. Almost time to go home. I think I'll just curl up in bed and sleep the clock around. Cant smoke if you're sleeping. If there was a way, I'd have found it, trust me.

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MichelleDoesntSmoke Newbie

MichelleDoesntSmoke

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and I'm so sorry to hear about the loved one dying from gallbladder cancer. Wow that's terrible. She's younger than me. And here I am scared I have cancer of another part of the body and I was seriously considering lighting up because what....because I had a rough day at my new job and am trying to handle a health scare at the same time? Please. I'm tougher than that. I know I am.

 

If I light up, I will have to tell DH. I can't lie to him and if I don't fess up its lying by omission.

If I light up, I will have to tell you. I can't lie to you and if I don't fess up its also lying by omission.

If I light up, I will instantly wish I hadn't.

If I light up, I will instantly find out that it wasn't what I wanted, and on top of that I have all the above to deal with.

If I light up, I may never stop again.

If I never stop again I may have to someday tell my husband, kids and sister that I am dying.

 

Again, so sorry to hear about your loved one. I can't even imagine....

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Runfree Collaborator

Runfree

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MDS, I slept a lot in the early days.  Partly because I was tired and partly because I would pull the covers over my head.  I also took a lot of epsom salt baths.

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babs609 Apprentice

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and I'm so sorry to hear about the loved one dying from gallbladder cancer. Wow that's terrible. She's younger than me. And here I am scared I have cancer of another part of the body and I was seriously considering lighting up because what....because I had a rough day at my new job and am trying to handle a health scare at the same time? Please. I'm tougher than that. I know I am.

 

If I light up, I will have to tell DH. I can't lie to him and if I don't fess up its lying by omission.

If I light up, I will have to tell you. I can't lie to you and if I don't fess up its also lying by omission.

If I light up, I will instantly wish I hadn't.

If I light up, I will instantly find out that it wasn't what I wanted, and on top of that I have all the above to deal with.

If I light up, I may never stop again.

If I never stop again I may have to someday tell my husband, kids and sister that I am dying.

 

Again, so sorry to hear about your loved one. I can't even imagine....

Thank you Michelle.

 

I love this!!  Print this..make copies..carry it around with you...memorize them.  Great stuff right there....yes!!

 

I slept all the time in the beginning of my quit.  Once my head hit the pillow I knew I got through another day.  You are doing so well!  sleep good and seep you tomorrow in the NOPE thread for tomorrows pledge.  :)

babs609 Apprentice

babs609

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wait.....i see you are still up!  I was going to put him in eye candy thread but this thread needs it more  :)

 

yes....he is young enough to be my.....son...probably....dammit..don't judge me.

 

he's a lovely distraction

 

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MichelleDoesntSmoke Newbie

MichelleDoesntSmoke

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Judge you? Honey Im right there with you. Hes delicious. I love eye candy! Will post some for you tomorrow!!

 

Still on the bus. Almost home. I may stay up an hour or so and revel in my non smokeyness.

 

Tytytyty

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Petra Newbie

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No smoking, Michelle!  Get though those moments. 

 

Look again.  I think he may have tatoos??? 

 

For the record, I'm pretty sure I'm not old enough for him to be my son.  ;)  (not sure what that "denial" word means??)

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MichelleDoesntSmoke Newbie

MichelleDoesntSmoke

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MDS, I slept a lot in the early days. Partly because I was tired and partly because I would pull the covers over my head. I also took a lot of epsom salt baths.

I fell asleep at 8:30pm. Now its 12:35am and I am awake and cant go back to sleep. Have to be up incfive hours!!!! Argh!

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