where were we?

[Tink]

Rewind 4 weeks! If only I could...

 

I can honestly say I have been through the wringer, chewed up and spat out, I have gone through every emotion possible since my sister's death, we cremated her on Thursday and there is still a way to go to sort out the family and heal but a corner has been turned.

 

Did I think about lighting up... hell yes of course I did every single day! I'm a nicotine addict, in fact I even contemplated having some of my uncle's whacky backy and puffing on a vape thing at one point but I didn't.

 

It's a moment in time isn't it, your decision in that split second that will define you.

 

I can honestly say it's not strength that pulled me through as I was on my ass

 

it was organisation, determination, walks, smashing stones, my religious beliefs, writing down my feelings and thoughts, youtube videos, lurking here and the number one sentence "it's not going to change a thing!" and NOPE

 

Life will always throw us addicts a curve ball, we cannot change or prevent it, we can only push through it and when the storm passes life will continue, maybe not the same but it will continue.....

 

On that note I'm off to the pub my niece is back to work tonight so I'm going for a few shandys and show some moral support ;)

[El Bandito]

Cheers.

 

Thinking of you T.

[DCCXXVII]

Thank you Tracey for sharing your thoughts with us at a very difficult time... we are all in this quit together hail rain sunshine... nope no matter what

 

hugs xxx

[Doreensfree]

((((( hugs ))))) sweetheart.....xxxx

[BAT]

Stay strong T ..... Cheers  :)

[Ria]

Awww (((Tracey))) xox

 

Such an inspirational post!! and yes... "nothing will change"... I remember that from Allen Carr's words... if anything, it would have made you feel worse! IYKWIM?

 

Your strength and resolve are outstanding!  Kudos to you, my friend!

 

I can't IMAGINE 'losing' my sister.... :( 

 

Remember also that we quitters will "mourn" at times.... losing anything we thought "precious", even an abusive husband, causes us to mourn... 

[SanDar]

(((Tracey)))    

[babs609]

hugs and kisses tracey!!

 

Thinking of you...and never doubted you would protect that precious quit

 

xoxoxo

[Petra]

Way to keep the quit, Tracey!  We're all so very proud of you for hanging in there during your difficulties.  

[action]

I'm very sorry for your loss Tracey, I am only just reading about it for the first time now...

 

I'm so very glad you found a way to stay smoke free, and I'm hereof you need me. Big hug to you my friend xx

[Devil Doll]

Thinking of you lady. Hugs.

[Nicole Diver]

Tracey, thinking of you! I am proud of you.

[Ramona]

You are an awesome example to us all.

[Pippa]

Thinking of you and sending hugs your way xx

[Still winning]

Sending gentle hugs and healing Tracey.

 

You are still awesome!

 

Much love. xx

[Markus]

Hi Tracey,

 

Inspirational.

 

Thank you for taking the time to share this.  

 

Best to you and family in this difficult time. 

[Toni]

Tracey, I am so sorry for your loss.

[MarylandQuitter]

Your a strong woman and an inspiration, Tracey.  I can't even begin to imagine what you've been through and what you're going through but I can take a piece of your experience and wisdom to carry with me throughout my life.  Keep your chin up.

[Runfree]

Thank you for putting this into words and sharing it.  I loved how you said "of course, I'm an addict".  There's the key, huh.  Warm hugs Tracey, you are enduring one massive blow and my thoughts are with you.