Rough Day

[Toni]

I thought about posting several times today and decided not to hoping that my mind would calm down a bit. I have been very frustrated because I am almost 6 weeks in and today I am having one of the worst days of my quit. Smoking is not an option ever. I do not have cigarettes here and I will not go in to town to get them. So I come here and see a post from someone that is having a bad day 10 months in :(  It really makes me angry that I have to deal with this addiction that started when I was young and dumb. I have been more stressed than normal this week and I know that smoking will not help the stress. I read the other post and realize that I will have more days like this even after a year. I will always fight these feelings. I DO NOT want to withdraw again or smoke..NOPE Thanks for reading!

[BAT]

Hang tough Toni. Try to stay positive and post as much as you like or need. We be here for ya T  :)

[bakon]

you are ahead of the game. quiting sucks and is hard. otherwise everyone would quit tomorrow. Realize every day you get stronger and move further away for it. Good job.

[babs609]

Toni please keep in mind that just because someone is having a bad day or even bad moments in the day doesn't mean that their entire quick journey has been bad . Sometimes we feel that that's the case but in reality, a bad day doesn't mean a bad life. When you were a smoker you were literally living a bad life so just remember that and every time you have horrible days--the worst days of your life-- it always is followed up by great days and empowering days-strong days! tougher than you ever been. so these moments, these Times that are difficult only make you stronger

 

You are a warrior in training and you're doing fantastic

[Markus]

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[DCCXXVII]

You are doing great Toni and so glad you posted here... you have done well :)

 

It is true that it does get better... each time you get stronger... I'll refer to Markus' other post to Dentalfloss

 

 

You're guarding your quit = good, your war is still on-going.

 

All of us are different. You have an association all of a sudden where you're triggered for some reason to crave a cigarette.

 

Why now? Good question. What is the trigger? You know so I expect you will tell us.

 

Maybe you are romancing the cigarette, remembering the "good times"  when you smell cig smoke? Junkie thinking creeping in, if you allow it to.

 

You miss the partying, drinking and smoking as you pleased so you've stayed away from it and now you  went to a bar or a party or some function where there is smoking?

 

You have exercised strict control and suddenly have relaxed for some reason?

 

You forgot that cigarettes will kill you, you know this but they haven't hurt you personally?

 

It takes more than 10 months to process all triggers, you are still at war.

 

Eventually they all disappear.

 

I havent had a trigger/crave in years....last one was at about 3 years quit. Long time ago and frequency was a couple times that year.

 

All gone for the last 4 years.

 

Tell us what you think it is? :)

 

:)

[El Bandito]

Hey Toni

 

Tough times. So Hang tough.

 

A little perspective.

 

Every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day as a non smoker has been better for me than when I smoked. Do I sometimes think "ummm...I really fancy a smoke"?

 

Yes, I do. But thinking it doesn't hurt. It doesn't cost. It doesn't stink. It doesn't enslave and it doesn't kill. I dismiss the thought and move on.

 

You are doing great Toni. Keep on keeping on!

[Ramona]

I like what Babs said.  Yes, you'll deal with bad days.  But you already have a better overall life.

[Pippa]

Hi Toni- so sorry you were having a hard time and hope you are feeling better. Quitting is tough at first but it does get better and take comfort - although some of us still had bad days along the way - a bad day doesn't make a bad quit ! Hang tough - you can do this - and remember we are here for support xx

[Nancy]

Toni, quitting is a real roller coaster, that is for sure.  Just hang in there, knowing you are going to have more and more good days.  You just have to tough it out through the bad ones.  You are doing great!

[Still winning]

Sorry you're having a bad day. 6 weeks is a common "wobble time" I think. I hear you on the 10 month stuff but if you really read that message, the shock is that she's been trigger free and is surprised any have come back. That's the real story here. In only 10 short months, after literally years of smoking a trigger has taken someone by surprise.

 

Hang in there Toni. A bad day is not a bad quit...all quits are good and I see your commitment is not in question anyway. I just wanted to say don't assume you will feel like you do today because there will me more highs than lows for sure. 

 

x

[Toni]

Thanks Everyone! It does help to vent. I admire every single one of you that are here for support. It does not go unnoticed by me that most of you don't need anymore support and that you are just here to help others, so thank you to all of you! I did weather the storm yesterday and it is much better today. I do have more good days than bad, that is for sure. Smoking is not an option and I am going to keep on keeping on thanks to all of you!

[Petra]

Great to hear you weathered the storm.  :)

 

Know that it will keep getting better and that even down the road, at 10 months or a year, we may have those moments of wanting to smoke, but it is mental and different.  It's not the raw painful physical withdrawal.  It's more whiny, like "Awww, I wanna smoke. Why can't I smoke."  And while those feelings are real, they are easier to overcome.  And don't worry about that - not everyone experiences it.  So maybe your hard time is at 6 weeks, maybe 3 months, maybe 10 months, maybe 4 years.  Maybe a craving will hit you randomly when you are driving down the street 7 years from now. 

 

Focus on staying quit today.  You're doing GREAT!!! 

[Petra]

Today is 6 weeks, right? 

 

YAY GO TONI!!

[Nicole Diver]

Toni, I'm late but just wanted to say well done for posting and sticking with it.

I rarely make any kind of promises in life, but I promise that one day when you least expect it, you will have no thoughts or desires of smoking.  We have been brainwashed for so long that it's just too hard, and no one gets away.  But that is all phooey.

Keep hanging onto that rope, you will be so glad you did.

No one EVER regretted quitting smoking.

:friends:

[Dentalfloss]

Sorry you're having a bad day. 6 weeks is a common "wobble time" I think. I hear you on the 10 month stuff but if you really read that message, the shock is that she's been trigger free and is surprised any have come back. That's the real story here. In only 10 short months, after literally years of smoking a trigger has taken someone by surprise.

 

Hang in there Toni. A bad day is not a bad quit...all quits are good and I see your commitment is not in question anyway. I just wanted to say don't assume you will feel like you do today because there will me more highs than lows for sure.

 

x

Exactly what marti said. And just because I had a rough time doesn't mean you will too. Every quit is different.

Also it may worry you that you could still struggle later in your quit but knowing that it's a possibility can prepare you for anything and also leaving you knowing its normal to feel that way.

I would rather know it's normal anytime in a quit than be blind sided and think something's wrong with me.

[Tink]

Well done Toni, venting and not having smoking as an option no matter what will give you your freedom, it's worth fighting for congratulations on 6 weeks!

[Doreensfree]

Toni...I'm late also....

The nico monster is still trying to suck you back in....but you are the stronger one....

Keep winning the battles....one day you will win the war....

Congrats...and so glad your here...xx