Everytime I leave the house....

[MichelleDoesntSmoke]

Its a challenge. I dont have a vehicle so when I am home its easier to abstain. I went out a few times since starting this quit and made it home smoke free. Yay!

 

I had a meeting with a recruiter this morning at Starbucks and as we were talking, my brain was going crazy saying things like "When the interview ia over I can go smoke!" Lol. I am on my way to my next appointment, happy to be smoke free. The longer I abstain, I can sense a separation forming between the URGE to smoke and the DESIRE to smoke. I keep getting the urge but I dont really have the desire to smoke, really. Sound familiar to anyone?

 

At the bus stop a guy asked me if I smoke (probably wanted to bum one) I got to say "No, I don't smoke. I quit four days ago". That felt REALLY good.

[babs609]

yep....your automatic pilot is still trying to go through the motions as usual but Michelle isn't having any of that!  The stronger you become thanks to your knowledge and determination to see thru this smoke free.....the weaker that inner voice becomes.

 

Bravo Michelle!!

[Still winning]

Urge but no desire...already??  Wow, this quit is more than looking good on you already :)

 

It feels awesome to say I don't smoke, good work!!

 

x

[Tink]

all those trigger moments :( the brain will try and trick you, but the more we face them the less power and familiarity it has

 

Having no desire is very powerful! You are doing great, hope you treated yourself at Starbucks :)

[MichelleDoesntSmoke]

Thank you all! Yep the recruiter I met with bouggt me the coffee :) Then I had an appointment with my counselor and I told her I quit....and while we were talking about it my brain was telling me it would be a dandy idea to go up the street to the am/pm and buy a single cigar. After all, my brain said, u know that stabbing headache youve been having? Maybe its part of the nicotine withdrawal. If you smoke and it goes away, then you'll know. How funny is that? Then when she said to remember that relapse doesnt mean total failure, its a setback that can be overcome, my brain said see? Go smoke one. Just dont tell anyone. As if the gazillion times I tried that with my drug relapses actually work. It doesnt. So I will keep fighting and when I lay my head on my pillow tonight, day four will be over and I will be looking forward to day five starting tomorrow.

 

Thank you guys for 4.5 days!

[larklibby]

You are kicking its arse Michelle!!

 

The great thing to remember is that those strong urges WILL go away. Look at me, 6 weeks or so ago I was where you are - stay with it - IT GETS BETTER - WAY BETTER each day. 

[JackiMac]

You are doing amazing and each step forward is one you no longer have to repeat and makes you stronger in your quit.  the addiction will keep talking to you,  I have these conversations all the time, but I just make sure that my voice is louder than the addiction itself, it will gradually fade away.  Just never allow the addiction to take over. xx

[BAT]

MichelleDoesntSmoke because Michelle Doesn't Smoke! ....... Take That !!!!

[Pippa]

You are doing great Michelle - just keep,reminding yourself why younface doing this and remember how good it feels to say " I don't smoke " and you will rock this :-)

[Still winning]

Woke thinking of this. The easiest way around a trigger is to create a new trigger! All that is really happening is your brain is reminding you to check you have cigs and a lighter cause you smoke when you leave the house...but you don't want to do that so now we need a "new thing". Maybe you take bottled water and take sips. I used cough candy in the car when I quit which was my triger point. Others used gum, mints. Or maybe putting your fave song on an i pod or something. What about a pedometer to measure your steps? Any new pattern to wipe out the old one more quickly. xx

[starrynite]

Love reading your post..new freedoms are empowering..loved this..and fabulous job sticking to it..oh yeah..high five to you