I too didn't understand. Your situation is also one I have travelled. I, like Tracey chose to throw myself into a new life. 

 

While we draw breath Mike we should not settle. What stirs my passions.... finding things I am actually passionate about! Not what I "think" I should be passionate about, but things that actually make my heart happy and my day light up for a short while. Walking, exercise, the woods, dancing, being near water, climbing big hills and seeing the views...

 

Stay strong, it's just one part of a bigger journey and every path has some bumps hey. xx

Shove off that dark cloak Mike and get your Sun hat on life is an adventure... Go play :)

 

 

What stirs my passions.... finding things I am actually passionate about! Not what I "think" I should be passionate about,

 

When I first was in trouble with this my first ever depression, it was very confusing to everyone around me. I have always been the one, that anyone could turn to for help. No one "worried" about me. I could handle anything. My greater family depended on me, hugely.

 

After a couple months of counselling, I asked my counsellor, what happened to me? The response was (paraphrase), "Burn out Mike, Burn out; Look what you have taken on over these last 6 years". (longish story of it all, encompasses 25 years), which was conceptualized throughout the rest of the session.

 

After months of digging into "my past", I asked then, "So, what now?". He, (the PHD doc and Director for Clinical Health Psychology offices), said to me in his blunt fashion, "Mike, I give you permission to say the F*ck with them all". As I started doing that, it has really confused my greater family, and there has been some "push back", as I have been relentless in not involving myself in attending to their needs. They have tried to "up the ante", by trying unsuccessfully to, "push old buttons". It hasn't worked.

 

So, here I am, and ready to move on.

 

I am beginning to feel the strength returning again, (slowly). I intend to do as you say guys, and use what remains, for my altruisms and passions. Not, for what "they" think, I should use it for.

 

Thanks, guys.

When I first was in trouble with this my first ever depression, it was very confusing to everyone around me. I have always been the one, that anyone could turn to for help. No one "worried" about me. I could handle anything. My greater family depended on me, hugely.

 

After a couple months of counselling, I asked my counsellor, what happened to me? The response was (paraphrase), "Burn out Mike, Burn out; Look what you have taken on over these last 6 years". (longish story of it all, encompasses 25 years), which was conceptualized throughout the rest of the session.

 

After months of digging into "my past", I asked then, "So, what now?". He, (the PHD doc and Director for Clinical Health Psychology offices), said to me in his blunt fashion, "Mike, I give you permission to say the F*ck with them all". As I started doing that, it has really confused my greater family, and there has been some "push back", as I have been relentless in not involving myself in attending to their needs. They have tried to "up the ante", by trying unsuccessfully to, "push old buttons". It hasn't worked.

 

So, here I am, and ready to move on.

 

I am beginning to feel the strength returning again, (slowly). I intend to do as you say guys, and use what remains, for my altruisms and passions. Not, for what "they" think, I should use it for.

 

Thanks, guys.

It might feel tough, but Mike I give both of us permission to move the hell on!!  Ex's, sometimes it ain't what it should've been. No one's fault..it just isn't.

 

I can sympathise/empathise...none of it matters a jot...move the hell on. Be fair, make sure you answer to yourself and no one else. Much love!! And honestly, if you ever wanna PM re family crapola...I'm ya chick!!

 

x

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXy93iEe2co

 

 

Sounds to me Mike that you are actually in a good place ready to move on, although logistically there is still stuff to do and finish and will cause some stress but these are the bumps in the road I was talking about in an earlier post

 

I wish for both you and Marti happy times ahead

 

Go from strength to strength and make yourself happy, let go of all guilt and the ones that really love you will come around and be happy for you eventually

 

The ones that dont, great! dead branches lobbed off for new buds to bloom

 

Keep marching forward x

Thanks again, guys! That includes all of you. Doreen, RunFree, Petra, et alia ...

 

Here, we use the generic term of guys, for both sexes.

 

No offence intended.

 

Blessings!

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