Aaaaaarrrrrgh!

[Jclarke241]

What is going on? I'm past the two week mark and I thought things would be getting better but I swear they are not. I seem to be thinking about smoking almost every minute of every day! It starts out in the morning when I first wake up wanting a smoke, and then the thoughts just permeate every thing going through my mind for the rest of the day. I try to keep busy with iPad games, reading, walking, cooking, and keeping an eye on this site but there's still a lot of time that I'm not really doing anything. I'm trying though! (In case you didn't know I live rurally without a car so getting away is impossible).

 

It doesn't help the environment I'm living is pretty negative. I'm in my parents' house and when they're talking I swear they're fighting. You can cut the tension around here with a knife. My relationship has also changed with my mother since I quit smoking. We used to hang out and talk together while we were smoking and now that's gone. I've tried to make special time with her but she always has an excuse for not having the time (which is crap, she's retired and has plenty of time). I've even brought up my concerns about our relationship with her and I just get an eye roll. 

 

My life will change in the Spring when I'll hopefully get a car and can begin my own life again but until then, I'm stuck in this stressful living environment, constantly wanting a smoke and so far I've been good but I don't how long I can sustain this non smoking thing! I don't even just want a puff, I just straight up think about giving up completely and going back to a pack a day. 

 

Ugh! 

 

 

 

  

[Chrysalis]

I'm sorry that you are struggling so much these days. I have had those obsessive smoking thoughts and they drive me crazy when they're happening. Can you come chat for a few minutes?

[Nancy]

Oh, I am so sorry your life is difficult right now....but smoking won't fix anything...it will make you disappointed in yourself...and why throw away 16 days?  I promise you it will get better, but quitting is a roller coaster, and you just have to hang on.  It is no harder for you than the rest of us, and if we can do it ...you can, too!!

[Chrysalis]

FYI-- Jen and Nancy and I had a nice chat. Jen is feeling a little better now and she is determined keep her quit (one day at a time, like all of us).

[BAT]

Positive sent your way Jc  :)

[Pippa]

So glad you made it through JC - great job asking for support - you have got this :-)

[Colleen]

Jen...You are doing great!  We all have unique moments that push us a bit, but you will soon notice it gets easier as you go on and sooner than you think.  Glad you posted about it.  Honestly, smoking causes anxiety and stress, it doesn't relieve it.  I rolled my eyes at that the first couple of times I heard it, but it's true.  Don't ever be afraid to post about what's bugging you, that's what we are here for :)

[Tink]

Jen the relationship with your mum is going a bit south because you quit and she feels bad for herself, your relationship will get back as it was when she accepts the new YOU and she will this is just a time of adjustment, all those years, it takes a little patience on everyone's part, Jen hold on all will be well xx

[sherry]

Morn'n Jen!!,

 

 glad you posted and then held tough yesterday, good job keeping your beautiful quit (you get cookies for that :) )- thats the kind of determination that will see you to a 6 month celebration ! 

 

I hope today is starting out better ?

[action]

Jen, day 16 was really hard for me. That was the day that I had to reach out and I found these wonderful people online - the third week of my quit was probably the single hardest period of time I had to go through, but I promise that it got better after that!

 

I know life sucks sometimes, but honestly, if you can get though it smoke free (which you will), you will be so much better off because of it!

 

I'm sorry that you are having a hard time with your mum, but she's probably just jealous that you were able to quit smoking.

 

Hopefully you are feeling a little better after a chat with Chrys and Nancy :d

[SanDar]

So glad you are hanging in there Jen!

My quit has been easier this time and I believe it's because I finally got it through my thick skull that smoking

has nothing to offer us!

 I also realize that any stress I am experiencing has nothing at all to do with smoking.

I just decided that no matter what happens, I will not smoke.

Smoking just isn't an option anymore, because we are non-smokers :)

It's great that you posted here. Keep going Jen, you are doing it! 

[Doreensfree]

Well done Jen...for reaching out and talking this through....this is the way it done....one day at a time....

In our early quits...our emotions are all over the place...our body is going through some big changes....

Your mum sees the change too....she has lost her smoking partner,and deep down would love to be in your place....

It will calm down....stay strong...your doing brilliant.....

Keep marchin....upwards and onwards....

[MarylandQuitter]

Glad things got better after your chat, Jen.  How are you today?  Hopefully this finds you aware and committed.  Just out of curiosity, where are you with the reading and watching the videos here on the forum about nicotine addiction?  As you read and watch the materials, you'll train your mind and get a fresh perspective on the drug we're all addicted to and even start to see changes in your own quit. 

 

Difference between physical and psychological urges

Video discusses how while the intensity between the psychological thoughts for cigarettes weeks or months into your quit may feel very much like the physical urges you may have encountered in the beginning of your quit, that there is an important difference in the two states.
http://youtu.be/_A8s7Pw7jA0

Fixating on a cigarette

Video discusses how people often fixate on the desire to have "a good" cigarette.
http://youtu.be/OZLJ_nlkUCQ

[jess]

Hey Jen..glad to hear you're hanging in there. Remember life stresses continue whether you are a smoker or not. Nope one day at a time stay close to your QT family, together we will do this. I hope things get better at home for you. Please don't smoke it will only add more stress.

[El Bandito]

Hey JC.

 

Crappy day. Sorry.

 

The crappy days don't disappear entirely I'm afraid. Crap is still crap!

 

Well done for posting, it's good to read, post and get it all out there. You are doing great.