S.O.S crisis

[Evelyn]

SORRY to post again. For the last 3 hours I've been caught in relivings and flashbacks. I've tried an icepack beneath my feed. Can't reach ANYONE. The option of smoking starts to pop up. 
I'm desperate. I'm stuck behind my desk. Trying to survive. This is so hard, I'm putting myself with tape with tape around myself my desk chair. I'm so scared. Please Lord, I've cried out all afternoon. Let this stop. STOP!

NOPE. NOT going to loose my quit now.

[El Bandito]

Deep breath Evelyn

[El Bandito]

I'm here. Try to relax. Slow deep breat in

 

Slow breath out

 

And again

 

And again

[Evelyn]

I try. A cigarette sounds a really nice escape, accept when this is over I will want to stop again.

[Evelyn]

*crying*

[Evelyn]

I'm holding on. NEED too

[El Bandito]

Evelyn

 

Just breathe.

 

Cigarettes are part of the past for me and you.

 

We do Not smoke.

[Evelyn]

NO I won't NOPE

[Doreensfree]

Aww ev....I'm sorry you are having to deal with this......

Sit still for a few minutes and take big deep breaths.....in.....out.....

Close your eyes and breath......

Well get you through this......

[Still winning]

I'm so sorry it's so hard right now...but Evelyn, this too will pass. All things, good or bad pass in time, give it some time.

 

Breath...deep breath in and literally blow the breath and all the bad stuff out with it. Imagine with every out breath all the nasty bits are leaving your body. Crying is healthy, body's way of releasing emotions...let it happen, get tissues.

 

Smoking would still be a terrible plan cause my lovely, you're a non smoker now. Non smokers don't smoke! 

 

x

[El Bandito]

A cigarette is not an escape.

 

It is just a nasty burning tube of leaves. It does not make us feel better, it makes us feel worse.

 

Keep the deep breaths going.

 

Get some water and sip that

[Evelyn]

Going to get some tea

[El Bandito]

Great SOS post Evelyn. That's the right thing. We are all here to support you.

 

You are not alone Evelyn.

 

We are all quitters together.

[beacon]

No way Evelyn, you are ok and safe.  Smoking is not going to be even good after three months.  Deep breathing, deep breathing, Think about how you felt at your Baptism, what a joy, how connected you must have felt. 

[Doreensfree]

Good girl....nice cuppa....keep those deep breaths going.....

[Evelyn]

I want one so BAD. This is the first time, the FIRST time I'm THIS close to givg bloody in. 

[Still winning]

Tea is good!!

 

Smoking will make you feel lousy honey.

 

Sorry you feel so bad but smoking will no longer fix it - you're past that now Evelyn, you know too much and have come too far. 

 

You deserve this quit Evelyn, you've owned it and you are proud of it. Hold onto the good in that.

 

x

[Evelyn]

It hurts so bad %^&*(#$ and I wish someone would just hold me, my mom. SOMEONE. Jesus hold me and protect me in my pain. I've shouten out to You so many times this afternoon

[Evelyn]

i DO NOTE WANT TO SMOKE. N.O.P.E.

I just don't want to hurt like this anymor

[Doreensfree]

Smoking fixes nothing....you would be so upset with yourself....

My god...look how amazing you are....you have a great quit....

You know...you can over come this....we need you to be strong....

[Evelyn]

Sorry. Sorry I'm a mess and that I need you friends sooo bad right now. Sorry I can't reach anyone on phone that I need you guys to show up for me..

[Evelyn]

Sniffing my nose,

You're all right, I'd just want to make myself feel in the here and now again. 

It's a mentak mindfuck

[Doreensfree]

Ev....do want to go into chat with me sweetheart...I'll wait for you...

[Evelyn]

There now!

[El Bandito]

Doing great Evelyn. Sip some tea. Breathe deep. Read, post chat

 

But slow yourself down...slow yourself down.

 

You are in control not the crave.

 

A cigarette will do nothing for you

 

A cigarette will fix nothing

 

A cigarette will just make you feel bad

 

Love the avatar by the way!