2 days, getting worse really not better

[cprofits]

I"m nearing the end of day two, 43 hours smoke free, and I'm starting to cry.  I've quit cold turkey.  Two days ago I smoked 2+ packs of cigarettes.  I'm seriously reconsidering. Should I have tried nrt?  Should I put on a patch after I've sat here for two days nicotine free?  I'm a mess and when I read posts from others that are two weeks, two months, two years quit and they all say how much they're suffering and asking when will it get better, when will it go away...it's depressing as hell.  I think I can suffer through what I'm feeling right now for a while but I don't know if anyone can go through this for weeks/months, etc.  It has to get better, it has to go away completely.

 

If I was going to do it, I just wanted to do it.  Not suffer through it initially and then need to wean myself off nrt later on.  But It was a lot to do, to go from 2 packs a day to nothing and I also stopped my all day hot tea caffeine habit because they were so intertwined, drinking tea and smoking cigarettes.  

 

I'm longing for a cigarette so badly, I'm eating and drinking and chewing and breathing...this is so stressful and hard and I"m so angry.

[El Bandito]

Angry is great.

 

You are doing great.

[El Bandito]

Quitting Cold turkey was the way that I quit. I understand where you are. The cravings seem endless, like wave after wave crashing on the beach.

 

It seems like it will never end.

[El Bandito]

It does end. End it right now.

 

All day you have wanted a cigarette - and you have survived. I know you feel stressed - tired - angry and that is normal. 

 

What you are feeling is the double whammy - physical withdrawal and your mental addiction double-teaming you.

 

The physical addiction is 72 hours. So in 24 hours all of the nicotine will have left your body.

[El Bandito]

Take a real big breath and then do it again.

 

Send me an abusive post - tell me to go screw myself.

 

Laugh like a crazy person.

 

You are winning!

 

You are really doing this!

 

Not some NRT slowly slowly thing for you - You have looked this addiction straight in the eye and said NO! Enough. 

 

You are winning.

[Becca]

ah but you see, it does get better.  I'm sitting here as an ex smoker and I don't get cravings any more.  I occasionally think about a smoke, or more like, I used to smoke, but that is about it.  IT will get better.  It will get easier.  Just hang tuff and don't smoke.  Go do something/anything else to take your mind off of it. 

[El Bandito]

Crying is a release. Crying is how we get tension out. Crying is good.

 

Work with me cprofits - check in.

 

You can do this, you absolutely can. the 72 hours is pretty intense - for me actually Day 2 was the worst - but its a very personal thing.

[Sazerac]

Please hang tough.  Remind yourself why you are quitting smoking.

Write your response to an SOS HERE

 

 

                       cry cry cry cry

                  yell yell yell yell

            stomp stomp stomp

 

(^^^^Long Hot Showers are good for this ^^^)

 

Your Craves as horrible as they are WILL NOT KILL YOU.

SMOKING KILLS YOU

 

Be Kind to yourself and reward yourself, every hour every few minutes...you are living through the worst of it.

[El Bandito]

Becca is right - just do something else for a bit. Take a walk? Make some tea?

 

The only thing that makes you crave another cigarette is the last cigarette. Never smokers don't walk around craving cigarettes.

 

Hell I don't crave cigarettes any more - and I could put away 60 a day. I smoked 30 years - 2 packs a day for many of them. Just like you.

 

Look at my ticker.

 

And guess what? I even had fun getting there.

 

You can do this

[Devil Doll]

I"m nearing the end of day two, 43 hours smoke free, and I'm starting to cry.  I've quit cold turkey.  Two days ago I smoked 2+ packs of cigarettes.  I'm seriously reconsidering. Should I have tried nrt?  Should I put on a patch after I've sat here for two days nicotine free?  I'm a mess and when I read posts from others that are two weeks, two months, two years quit and they all say how much they're suffering and asking when will it get better, when will it go away...it's depressing as hell.  I think I can suffer through what I'm feeling right now for a while but I don't know if anyone can go through this for weeks/months, etc.  It has to get better, it has to go away completely.

 

If I was going to do it, I just wanted to do it.  Not suffer through it initially and then need to wean myself off nrt later on.  But It was a lot to do, to go from 2 packs a day to nothing and I also stopped my all day hot tea caffeine habit because they were so intertwined, drinking tea and smoking cigarettes.  

 

I'm longing for a cigarette so badly, I'm eating and drinking and chewing and breathing...this is so stressful and hard and I"m so angry.

Geri. If you are 43 hours nicotine free then go for the full 72... that is when it is out of your body. All you would do now is reintroduce nicotine into your system to go off of at a later date. 

 

I wish that a definite date or time frame could be given to you, but it can't. I know that you probably want to reach through the computer every time you read this but ... you are right where you should be. I wish that it was an overnight process but it isn't.

 

Come here, post, get your mind off of it and I do promise that with time as your body heals, it gets better. There will come days where you don't even think of it at all but sadly that is not in the beginning of a quit. 

 

I had a hell of a time my first month. I would grab a pillow put it over my face and scream it out. At the top of my lungs with all of the strength in my body. Did I look like a lunatic? Yup. But guess what it helped... Sarge said that he got out or got on his treadmill and ran... Marti danced... Stu talked to himself... Colleen counted... All nuts? Yup. But it helped... You need to find something that helps you and cling to it for dear life.

 

Most of all we are here for you! Share your feelings with us, that helps too.

[Sazerac]

Where are you ?  want to go to chat ?

I'll go hang out there for a while.

NOPE hard.  NOPE NOPE

[Jenny]

I cried for months.  Truth is, quitting can suck especially the first week.  They call this week hell week.  You could try a patch or some other quit aid, but eventually you have to get off the nicotine and you will feel like you do now when you do.  Since you already have 2 days done I would advise that you not turn back now.  I promise the pain and suffering you experience now will end and you will wonder why you didn't do this sooner.  Someone with more quit experience once told me to embrace the suck.  That's what I'll advise you too.  Stare the monster down.  I sometimes would cut a straw to size and suck on that when things got really bad.  No nicotine and the action of it helped me to calm down.  Walk, jog, have some ice cream.  Whatever it takes to get past the moment.  We'll walk this road with you.

[El Bandito]

"Stu talked to himself"

 

I resemble that statement!! :D 

 

If the Almighty is not listening, then in order to find his equal, a Scotsman is forced to talk to himself....

 

Geri - say Hi sweetheart....

[cprofits]

Thank you.  It's nice to know I can send out a cry for help and there are people here right away to talk me away from the ledge.  I haven't had a smoke but I want to so badly.  I can really imagine it.  I feel better now, I cried, really for the first time, like uncontrollably and I'm usually a very controlled person who is not a crier.

 

I've been doing 712 different things since yesterday morning to keep myself sane and alive and smoke free but I haven't typed them because that would be annoying as heck to type a little update every time I want to smoke a cigarette so bad...this is my first time posting in the S.O.S. area at hour 44, my near breaking point.

 

Thank you very much for your sincere support.  I can't imagine you're all right there waiting to rescue someone.  What time is it in the UK?  Thanks for the 72 hour encouragement Bandito.  So I have one more day and when I wake up on Thursday morning, I will be nicotine free. :)

[Devil Doll]

Thank you.  It's nice to know I can send out a cry for help and there are people here right away to talk me away from the ledge.  I haven't had a smoke but I want to so badly.  I can really imagine it.  I feel better now, I cried, really for the first time, like uncontrollably and I'm usually a very controlled person who is not a crier.

 

I've been doing 712 different things since yesterday morning to keep myself sane and alive and smoke free but I haven't typed them because that would be annoying as heck to type a little update every time I want to smoke a cigarette so bad...this is my first time posting in the S.O.S. area at hour 44, my near breaking point.

 

Thank you very much for your sincere support.  I can't imagine you're all right there waiting to rescue someone.  What time is it in the UK?  Thanks for the 72 hour encouragement Bandito.  So I have one more day and when I wake up on Thursday morning, I will be nicotine free. :)

Post... please post... That is what MQ created this site for, that is what we are here for. Post, post, post. 

[Jenny]

Yes, please post.  The site is for that purpose and there is no number of posts that could be annoying, ever.  xx

 

You got this kid!  Whether you know it or not, you got this.

[El Bandito]

Geri!

 

WELL DONE!

 

Its a rollercoaster I know. These first few days are one hell of a ride!

 

Annoy away! Thats exactly what the counting games are for, the social threads - anything to keep the mind away from smoking (although beware, several of us are now addicted to numbers games :D )

 

As a member here - you can choose to get an email alert whenever there is a post in the SOS thread.

 

Some folk helped me in the early days - so only fair I do my little bit.

 

Bedtime for me soon!

 

Every minute is a victory. Every hour is a victory.

 

Dont quit for ever Geri. That's scary.

 

Just quit for today.

 

Then - when you wake up with another victory won - Just Quit for Today...

 

That's all there is to it ;)

 

You will become slightly crazy for a while - but most return to normal...excepting Bakon, me and a few others who just stay crazy

[cprofits]

Thank you all.  I hope I can be the kind of person one day to get emails when someone posts in the SOS forum.  This is a great community service you're all doing.  Immediate interaction and feedback have really helped me.  I'm mad at everyone and everything right now but I can't really be mad at all of you.  :)

[Sazerac]

Well, we  could piss you off  no problem  !  There would be no repercussions in your 'real' life either !

 

You might want to look at some of Joel's vids HERE 

 

Education

is a BIG component of 

a successful quit

so read and watch

during your

'retreat'

[El Bandito]

Thank you all.  I hope I can be the kind of person one day to get emails when someone posts in the SOS forum.  This is a great community service you're all doing.  Immediate interaction and feedback have really helped me.  I'm mad at everyone and everything right now but I can't really be mad at all of you.   :)

 

Ain't nobody here but us addicts... :P

 

You are doing great Geri. Maybe get yourself a little treat tomorrow for two days quit. A magazine, a book, an ice cream - or how about some fresh flowers? You deserve them.

 

'Atta Girl!

 

Bandit - Beddy-byes...

[Nancy]

Thank you all.  I hope I can be the kind of person one day to get emails when someone posts in the SOS forum.  This is a great community service you're all doing.  Immediate interaction and feedback have really helped me.  I'm mad at everyone and everything right now but I can't really be mad at all of you.   :)

Geri, you are doing great.  Cry, scream, rant, rave, sing, dance, beat up your pillow, stay in the shower crying till the hot water runs out, run up and down stairs until you can't go any further (thanks for that one goes to the Sarge)  do anything but smoke.  You are not going to feel like this forever...it does get better!!  But it is a process, not an event, so be patient with yourself!

[Chrysalis]

Geri, hang in there! You're doin' it! You ain't diggin' it, but you're doin' it! You're more than half way through 72 hours-- for Pete's sake don't stop now!!

 

Breathe deeply. Go for a walk if you can. Read your list of reasons why you decided to quit smoking. Remind  yourself that you want to quit more than you want to smoke. Educate yourself by coming here to read old posts and watch Joel's videos.  Distract yourself from your craves and get a few laughs by reading the "Nonsmoking Cats" thread and the "Nonsmoking Dogs" thread. 

 

You are not "a special snowflake". In other words, you do NOT have it worse than the rest of us. We have ALL been through what you are going through. And we're here to tell you that it really does get better and easier every day. Despite what your Nicodemon tells you, people who are weeks or months away from cigarettes do NOT suffer constant cravings. It just does NOT happen!! A few may romance cigarettes and continue to "want to smoke" but that is NOTHING like the craves we experience during the first few days. 

 

Hang tough, Geri. You can do this! Keep posting here and whining and screaming and crying. That's OK. That's good. Just don't smoke!! 

[MarylandQuitter]

Don't stop now!  This is normal and it will pass.  You have to force yourself to think about something else and not about what you "think you're missing out on" because soon you shall see that it was all literally a smokescreen.  Drinks lots of water, go for walks or read a book.  It take confidence and courage to quit smoking and you have this along with a desire to quit.  Don't stop now and you'll never have to go through this again!

 

Check out our Documentary Section as it's a great way to pass time and keep you focused.  Have you ever seen all the chemicals that are in cigarettes?  Check out the Benefits Of Quitting Timetable.  This helped me a lot to get the courage to quit and once I committed to quitting, it kept me motivated.

 

The Fallacy Of Good Cigarettes

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WDTzfD_Vi4

 

 

Related resources:

The fallacy of "good cigarettes"
http://ffn.yuku.com/topic/11348

Related Videos:

Fixating on a cigarette
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZLJ_...
"I want one"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHvi6...
I smoke because I like smoking
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCkt_...
Just think of something else
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXJib...
Playlists of "The consequences of smoking" illustrating the damages caused by all of the good and bad cigarettes you ever smoked.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list...

[jess]

Geri hang in there! I'm just a little over 3 weeks. It gets better.there will be ups and downs but it gets better For me smoking cannot be an option cannot go back to day one..fight through it girl... read the posts wat h the videos go to bed early do whatever to get through that next minute! QT and the members got me to 3 weeks and we will get you there. This is your time. You got this!

[MarylandQuitter]

Every Quit Is Different

Video discusses how it is impossible to determine with any certainty what kind of withdrawals or problems a person may encounter when quitting because every quit is different.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYHkaGt-YhE