I'm SO pissed off and upset...

[Evelyn]

I've been extremely tired lately, after they did blood-work they found my vitamins D3 is too low which causes several things: extreme tiredness, bad sleeping patterns, muscle pains. 
I got vitamin D3 prescribed for 30 days.

I'm sooooo tired, and it makes me angry and very sad that I can't function in daily life... yes it will inprove but right now I'm so angry at my body.

Luckily for me, my therapist is also ill and called off my appointment of tomorrow So I can take it easy.

The freaking excuses in my head 'Tomorrow is a new month, smoke 1 now...' is very tempting. Can't reach anyone on the phone.

And I'd rather hibernate until my blood-levels are normal again.

Call it the last drop I didn't need.

I know, some would say - there are worse things in the world but this tiredness... i can't escape it, not with coffee or green tea... sleeping goes bad and I'm really feeling bad

[action]

I'm sorry that you are tired Evelyn, but at least the problem has been identified, and you have a prescription to tackle it - so you are on your way to feeling better already, you just have to wait a few days until it kicks in... what you absolutely do not want to do is smoke - if anything it will make you feel even worse!  And you will loose those almost 3 weeks quit!  just because it is October tomorrow, what does that mean?  It's just your inner junkie playing tricks on you - don't let it win, not this time... We believe in you!

[natalie_3]

It breaks my heart that you´re so sad sweety. I understand, I had anemia once and I was tired all the time. Like, taking a shower was a huge accomplishment. It sucks, I know. Have you tried vitamin B complex? It helped me a lot. In the meanwhile patience...and talk to us but you know? smoking will only take oxygen from your body and leave you even more tired. 

Please feel free to PM whenever you need. 

 

 

 -Nat

[Evelyn]

I know when I think rational that a fag won't do anything but I dunno where to take out my emotions.

[natalie_3]

Here! Write down what you feel, even if it doesn´t make sense or whatever. Just get it off your chest. 

[Evelyn]

I just want to go shopping on Thursday BUT I need to walk with a stick and even then it hurts, besides the tiredness. Tomorrow an empty day... and I can't sleep during the day as it will mess up my sleep at night.
I'm just feel captured in my body.
I want to choose not to smoke. I choose not to smoke but  am still crying.

[natalie_3]

Maybe online shopping? It´s quite fun...you get to browse through a ton of things without moving. And let´s not make tomorrow an empty day. Let´s think what you can do. Do you like to read? Watch tv? ...

[Evelyn]

I just feel both sad and angry like my body is failing. Bad hips, walking like a duck and this vitamin that's too low. My therapist was right, there's a legimite reason for my tiredness. 
I'm torn apart between rationalism and sadness, stupid that such a thing can make you so sad, right?

[Evelyn]

Maybe online shopping? It´s quite fun...you get to browse through a ton of things without moving. And let´s not make tomorrow an empty day. Let´s think what you can do. Do you like to read? Watch tv? ...

I did groceries today and feel broken... watching something on Netflix takes concentration I only have for a short time.

 

[natalie_3]

It´s not stupid at all. Not being able to function normally is a legitimate reason to feel frustrated. But you´re on a treatment now and you will feel better. Try distracting yourself and maybe talk to your doctor about what other kind of therapies can help, there are a ton of options, maybe you can find something new.

[Evelyn]

I need to take vitamin D3 for 30 days and he'll check in my blood how high it will be after 30 days. 

I was already taking a high dosis of vitamin pills, with D3. So I'm curious how it got too low. 

This vitamin goes up when you're in the sunlight, and the body makes it self.

 

[natalie_3]

Wow, that´s kind of weird. What do you think of alternative therapies? Sometimes acupuncture and that kind of treatments can help you feel better while the vitamin makes its job

[NeedforSpeedHM]

Sorry you are struggling... but know smoking wont do anything. Please do not smoke.. keep this quit and make it your final one. Its so worth it... and once your body can begin to heal and cleanse you will feel alot better the further you get into your quit.... fight for it... everything will level out, and you will be glad you did it!! I hope your vitamins work and you get less tired... refocus your mind on doing busy things, no  matter if you feel tired or not,, go do something.. it will raise your endorphin's and help! Good Luck and feel better!

[Dentalfloss]

Smoking wont change anything. It may have been smoking that caused it to begin with. Its ok. Be mad. Punch a pillow. Tape a picture of an enemy on the pillow and punch it again. If you think feeling like this is bad, imagine what you'd feel like if you where a cancer victim...

[Evelyn]

Smoking wont change anything. It may have been smoking that caused it to begin with. Its ok. Be mad. Punch a pillow. Tape a picture of an enemy on the pillow and punch it again. If you think feeling like this is bad, imagine what you'd feel like if you where a cancer victim...

 Seen it with my parents, so don't manipulate me...

 

I didn't smoke. Cried on the phone with a friend and made dinner functionally. Am tired but proud about myself.

[Leanna]

 Seen it with my parents, so don't manipulate me...

 

I didn't smoke. Cried on the phone with a friend and made dinner functionally. Am tired but proud about myself.

I don't think her intentions were to manipulate you.

 

It's just the cold, hard truth of smoking. People die from it every day and it is not worth the pain and suffering we put ourselves through.

 

You know all too well smoking will not do anything. That's why you're here, right? If smoking fixed all of your problems, you wouldn't need this place. 

 

We're simply here to help as much as we can. I'm sorry you're sick and feel tired, but you know smoking will not cure anything and will make you feel worse. 

 

Just hang tight. I am happy you didn't smoke. Good for you!

[Evelyn]

I know, and that's why I didn't lite that fag..... not going to either but I had to cry, let my emotions out to get calm again. And I know smoking kills but compairing a cancer patient with my situation isn't fair. I never compair pain or hurt from one person situation to another's thats'like saying you don't a right to feel bad...My emotions just had to get out constructive without a fag. 

It's a learning process :)

I've gotten through several situations where in the past I had lite a fag, but now I don't I come here for an SOS. I'm learning new coping skills... one of them is crying. If I need to cry but put it away I end up doing things I regret... and so I follow the advice of my therapist, call someone to cry on the phone... and that reliefs!

 

[Doreensfree]

Folks only trying to help Evelyn.....everyone Is different....so have different views.........

We can only give you ideas ,ways to help you through the bad times.....but it has to be you in the end......

I know it's hard ,and I know your struggles.....but look how far you have come.....fight everlyn......you can do this.....

Hugs honey xxxxx

[Sazerac]

This,

 

"... after they did blood-work they found my vitamins D3 is too low which causes several things: extreme tiredness, bad sleeping patterns, muscle pains.
I got vitamin D3 prescribed for 30 days.

 

Is GREAT news !

[Evelyn]

Doreen, I'm safe, without a smoke... and will not smoke as I choose not to go downstairs, saying NOPE. It's clear.

I just was on thin ice, earlier so I came here :)

[Evelyn]

This,

 

"... after they did blood-work they found my vitamins D3 is too low which causes several things: extreme tiredness, bad sleeping patterns, muscle pains.

I got vitamin D3 prescribed for 30 days.

 

Is GREAT news !

 

 

There's a cause for my tiredness etc. Yes

[Sazerac]

This, right here,

 

"...after they did blood-work they found my vitamins D3

is too low which causes several things: extreme tiredness, bad sleeping patterns, muscle pains.

I got vitamin D3 prescribed for 30 days."

 

Is GREAT news.

[Fay]

Evelyn, you did great for not lighting up!  (((Evelyn)))

[Doreensfree]

Hey everlyn.....

You have the whole board behind you....I promise....

Sounds like Sally knows a bit of what's happening....and is a light at the end of the tunnel...

I remember when my thyroid stops working....oh my was I all over the place....but medication soon helped...

Hugs xxx

[Leanna]

We all have our struggles. I have bad depression and anxiety. We are here for you Evelyn, every step of the way. I am so happy and proud of all you have accomplished and will continue to accomplish. If you ever need to talk, you know you have us. No one is trying to downplay what you are going through. I know you have been having a rough time and it is completely acceptable and normal to think about smoking. I really hope you continue fighting these battles without resorting back to smoking. I have faith that you will stay quit. I know you can do this.