My Day 1 Poem

[Still winning]

At the behest of someone else, apparently this may help someone better here. If it can show someone you can still be a bit crazy and make it almost 6 months...well then it's worth me being nervy about putting it out in the real world. Taken from my blog today. xx

 

I keep a journal and I was just browsing for day 1 thoughts and feelings as someone asked for ideas and found the poem/motivational writing I made myself to read by candlelight looking for additional strength, I sat and wrote it the first evening. I will never forget how I felt, a mixture of emotions both sad for what I thought I was giving up and how would I cope and utter exhileration that I might actually make it.

Manic,
Panic,
I can't breath!
Raging,
pacing,
Inside I seeth.
Smiling, 
laughing,
Can't quite believe!
Nice People,
Steep hill,
I can achieve!!

This time, this place, is where I see,
I could always do this, I can be free.
I'm scared and happy, kill or cure,
I'll give it all to come out pure.
Live for today, not tomorrow
Only forwards, no failure sorrow.
I can, I will, I shout out loud
I own my body, I will be proud!

It was fun to find it and apparently I jumped from foot to foot literally shouting nope - I wonder why the neighbours look at me strangely nowadays haha.  :) 

[Nancy]

Oh, Marti...that describes the feelings so accurately.  Beautiful!

[Tink]

fantastic marti why nervous it was brilliant :)

[Doreensfree]

Marti.....brilliant writing ......and spot on......well done.....

[action]

I love this Marti!

 

Thank you!!

[SanDar]

Well done Marti! Loved it :)

[Pippa]

Thanks Marti - loved it !

[Gabby]

Loved it!!!

[beacon]

This is great. I admire all of the creativity I see here on the train. The above is another example :)

[Devil Doll]

I love it Marti, this is awesome. 

[Leanna]

Love it Marti!

 

You should be very proud. Your poem is such an accurate account of how one can feel during their quit. 

[Chrysalis]

Marti, thank you for posting this here. As I said on your blog, you really captured the "Day 1" experience in a few well-chosen words. It's great for all of us to look back and be reminded how awful we felt in the beginning and how good we feel now. Your poem is a great example of and tribute to this journey we all share. 

[El Bandito]

Nutter.

 

 

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