REMINDER: I’m An Addict

[Gus]

Severe engine issues revealed today and I was having trouble coping. Out of nowhere or maybe that somewhere in the mind that tells you that you can’t cope, that there is some nameless something you need to get through this and then just as quickly it’s gone and your left thinking or maybe yelling it aloud in a rage, “I KNOW WHAT I NEEDED!” The addict is always there. It’ll show up when you least expect it to. It enrages me. Leaving me feeling weak and less than. But I am NOT! I’ve been kicking nicotine to the curb for almost three years and I will not release it from the chains that had me bound. The chains that I worked so hard to bind it with. I can’t and I will not. It’s why I still hang around here. Y’all helped me so much and still do. Almost everyday I get some kind of help here. Oh, well after some deep breathing and grounding myself I have gone on about my day. Without that crutch I used to have to carry around with me. It’s good to breathe freely! 

[jillar]

Well done @Gus, you came across a trigger that you hadn't dealt with before and kicked it to the curb! The good thing about triggers this far into your quit as you saw was how quickly it passed  

[Doreensfree]

Well done Gus ..

we will have thoughts … but it’s how you react to that thought that counts …

You know it would have changed a thing  xx

[overcome]

Way to go @Gus you rock!!!

You are a great reminder to us following, that we cannot be complacent.

Well done, very happy for you! 

 

Oh and just fyi, you're still wearing your Christmas avatar

 

 

[intoxicated yoda]

@Gusthat's how you do it.  So glad you kept that awesome quit going.  

[Brioski]

Omg that’s crazy!!! That enrages me knowing it enraged you .  I’m so so proud of you for overcoming that and telling us abt it…we think there’s like this huge difference between a smoker and a nonsmoker but we’re the same person we always were and part of that is an addict. So twisted tho to irk you this far in. You did good gf

[DenaliBlues]

Way to go, Gus! We’ll always be addicts, but we don’t have to give in to the old ways. Freedom is worth protecting!

[Gus]

7 hours ago, overcome said:

 

Oh and just fyi, you're still wearing your Christmas avatar

LOL Thanks! I meant to change it for Valentines and then forgot about it again. 

[Christian99]

I really appreciate and admire your post.  At more than 20 years quit, I try never to forget that I'm a smoking addict.  A small part of me (I hope!) will always have extraordinary fear of the addiction (and the initial puff that would reactivate it).  That's not to say that it negatively impacts me (in fact, the exact opposite is true, as my smoke free status is a source of enormous pride), but I remain vigilant regarding the enormous power of this addiction. 

 

Thank you for posting this, and I'm wishing you the very best--

 

Christian99

22+ Years Quit