Facing it

[MLMR]

Hello. I hate coming back here - but I know I need it. Been smoking on and off for four years now, what a waste of health and confidence. Back at square one I guess. Can’t stand the fact that quitting seems this hard AGAIN. 
 

So, buckle up and go. Today is a good day for it. I dont really have a plan, other than going through it moment by moment. Millions of people did it, I did it myself, so… yeah . 
 

Resolve. Resolve. Resolve. I will have faith, even when I dont. Each crappy moment will be followed by better times. Embrace the suck and grow a beautiful baby quit. I got this in me. 
 

27-08, 14:00. Day one -> no turning back. 

[DenaliBlues]

Hi there, @MLMR.
 

Today is a GREAT day to break free! And this is the place to do it… a place where people understand how hard it is to quit smoking and can help you navigate all the wily tricks this addiction will try to play on you.

 

Saddle up, stick close to your “why,” post here often, (re)read as much as you can about addiction, and have faith that IT GETS BETTER. 

 

 

Edited August 27, 2023 by DenaliBlues

[overcome]

Great decision @MLMR the battle will be tough at first, but get better with time.

All then best you can do it! 

[jillar]

Welcome back @MLMR, sorry to read you relapsed

You've got a great group of fellow 2023 quitters along with you as well as the rest of us so lets get that forever quit!

[Reciprocity]

Sorry to hear you relapsed MLMR but glad you've decided that was a mistake and are ready to tackle quitting once again.

 

You know the drill so lets get going on your forever quit! It may not be easy but you know the benefits of quitting and have now chosen those over the slavery of addiction. Wise choice!

[MLMR]

Thanks all. Glad I came here. Feels like there’s a bit of weight off my shoulders. It will be water and tea tonight. I want to make this work. 

[Reciprocity]

4 minutes ago, MLMR said:

Thanks all. Glad I came here. Feels like there’s a bit of weight off my shoulders. It will be water and tea tonight. I want to make this work. 

Your commitment will be tested along the way ... we all know that but we also know you will find a way to do it! There's everything to gain and nothing you're leaving behind is of any value to your future.

[Doreensfree]

Im sorry to hear the nicotine monster has been back in your life .

Dust down ..

Re read all the stuff here ..fresh your mind ..

You can do it ...

[Gus]

I’m glad that you’ve decided to come back and join us on this journey of being smoke free. This train runs on fresh air. So stay close and let us help you have a forever quit. We want you to succeed!

 

[Brioski]

You’re very strong mlmr for posting that/coming back. We’ll help each other all of us along the way.

[MLMR]

Thanks Gus and Brioski. 
 

The first 24 hours are coming in sight- pfieww. I have sheep in my head, but I am also very restless. Perfect day to go and see Oppenheimer. 

[Gus]

Ohhhh, niiice. 

[MLMR]

Movie: fantastic.  
Mood: good. Took a long walk, now cooking. Had two hours where I was about to climb the walls, but went better once i decided to keep myself occupied. No room for doubt - basta. 

[DenaliBlues]

Congrats on a good launch to your quit! I, too, found that keeping busy and distracted was essential for the first few weeks… I definitely needed a channel for all that antsy energy. But the tasks had to be pretty simple due to brain fog, LOL. Lotsa small chores around the house!

[Reciprocity]

Yes! Keeping yourself busy and mentally occupied with anything will help keep those thoughts of smoking in check, especially in early days.

The old saying "An idle mind is the Devil's workshop" certainly applies to the early days of quitting smoking.

[Doreensfree]

Jigsaws.

I did lots of them  !

[Paul723]

Past you had a lot of good insights for current you.  If you get in trouble, you can follow the breadcrumb trail you left to safety.

[MLMR]

Ahhh. Third day. Breath in breath out. I want to get through -> only one way, forward. Ahhhhh!!!! NOPE

[Doreensfree]

No nicotine in your system now 

Its all you fighting the Nico Monster.

Your stronger than him .!!

[Brioski]

It really does suck in the beginning sorry mlmr.  you’re doing so well gf  

[DenaliBlues]

You are breaking free of a terrible bondage. It may feel sad and panicky now, like you are losing a limb. But that is an illusion, just your addiction putting up a fuss. The pain is temporary, it will pass, sweet freedom awaits on the other side. You are gaining so much. Keep smoking off the table and lean into the hundreds of other things you can do with this moment, then the next. The moments add up. You can do this.

 

Edited August 30, 2023 by DenaliBlues

[MLMR]

Thanks! Day 3 done. Not easy but certainly doable. Proud for not giving in. More air already, no stench. Glad I came back here. 

[Gus]

3 hours ago, MLMR said:

Glad I came back here. 

We are glad that you knew where you could come and that you came!

[MLMR]

Gus, atm there’s only one thing that needs to come… sleep!! I forgot about these awfull hours awake. Brrr. Hope they wont last too long. 

[Gus]

Yeah, the sleeplessness was the pits. I have no idea how I functioned during this time, but it seems I was curled up under blankets crying for a few weeks anyhow. Thankfully I wasn’t employed at the time. This too shall pass and brighter days are coming!