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[Gus]

Geez girl! You scared me when I read, “and took a drag.” Didn’t anyone ever tell you to NOT play with fire?! I’m so glad that you tossed those cigarettes and were able to get through your day smoke free! I hope that you are very proud of yourself You did good!

 

[Reciprocity]

It's not unusual that someone who's relatively newly quit would still have a love/hate relationship with smokes. It takes time to process everything you're experiencing while quitting. 

 

The trick is, now that you're quit, that you continue to process all the realities of just what your relationship with smoking was when you smoked. As smokers we were always in denial about the truth of what smoking was really doing to us and for us. Once quit, that's our opportunity to begin vilifying smoking in the cold light of day!

[jillar]

Wow Bri, what a close call. I agree with everyone else, be proud of yourself for destroying them. That's a HUGE step forward in your quit, especially since you were drinking too 

You have nothing to be but proud of yourself

[robin0212]

Holy Cr*p! My heart skipped a beat when you put that cigarette to your lips!! So proud of you that you didn't light up then threw them away. I agree love/hate is sooo true, and the urge can be so strong around holidays or celebrations and having a few drinks.  Well done getting through this one!

[overcome]

If I was you, I would punch your husband repeatedly!

[MLMR]

I remember doing this during my first quit. Couldnt face leaving cigarettes behind me and so I kept rolling them, smelling them, holding them in my hands as if I was about to light up. Everyone around me smoked at that time, including my bf. It gave me a (false) sense of security I guess and also: power. Because I would NOT light up and I only did it during easy times, wouldnt jeopardize myself. Or so I thought. 
 

Now,  looking back at that I think Its a bizarre thing to do. Im actually a bit ashamed about it, as well. I kept romanticising the smoking lifestyle. Ive pretty much sobered up since then: smoking just means slowly killing yourself. 
 

I hope you stay with us quitters, Brioski. Dont make me catch up!

Edited September 4, 2023 by MLMR

[DenaliBlues]

Bri, your story is proof positive that we are A D D I C T S. We are susceptible. I am glad you did not light up, but the fact that you even put it to your lips means that part of you is still romancing the smoke, yearning for it. Good move to destroy everything. Give yourself a big ol…

 

 

 

 

[Brioski]

LOL I’m so sorry guys to scare you!! Lol it was totally not a scary/critical moment where I was questioning my quit in real time, I wasn’t and I knew I wasn’t gonna light up, but I totally agree w you guys that I still romance the smoke/cig. For sure. But even w that, I knew I wasn’t gonna light up bc I think abt how I feel overall, less problems breathing, potential sickness down the line, etc.  And O, hubs totally took them away and destroyed them immediately he regretted telling me he found them in the first place. It is ok, all is ok lol.  Sorry again for the scare! Lol. I’m gonna re-read stuff today abt romancing the cig. It’s hard, but I know I can work my best at it. 
 

edit: you know what, re-reading all this you guys are kinda right, it being a close call/critical moment. I didn’t realize the gravity of it but that was a big crisis averted

Edited September 4, 2023 by Brioski

[Doreensfree]

Geez B

you sure tested yourself …..phew !

Good for you for staying strong .

 

[QuittingGirl]

I am so glad you didn't take a drag Bri!!!  You are a very strong person and you are doing so great!!!  I still get the urges once in a while too but thankfully they pass.

[Slow progress]

Hi Brioski 

it actually helps me being around a smoker. Although I still get urges, watching the relentless smoking of my husband sorts me out! He wastes so much time just sitting outside smoking - plus his ashtrays and outside bins stink!

 

like you, I miss smoking but I’m never going back to it I don’t think you will either so try not to give it too much headspace…..

you are rocking it and should be proud of your progress x

[tocevoD]

If you've demonised smoking enough in your own brain then it ends up easy to be around people smoking. You end up laughing at the ridiculousness of it all.

 

When you see them running back and forth to their safe haven to have a ciggie.

 

When you see the panic when they can't find their ciggies.

 

The kids laughing at them when they hide away so the kids don't see them having one.

 

I'm only at day 80 but I find myself laughing at the smokers now. 

 

There's a lad in work. When I quit he said he was going on holiday and when he gets back he was going to quit. He's still smoking. 

 

The first fight is with the brain. Win that small battle at the start and you're on your way. You need to demonise the act of smoking.

[intoxicated yoda]

35 minutes ago, tocevoD said:

I'm only at day 80 but I find myself laughing at the smokers now. 

 

 

Day 80 is a great start.  Yes, it's all in the mind.  Subdue the mind and the body has no choice.  Great post tocevoD