I'm sorry.

[...]

I just had dinner with a friend of mine who is not only extremely analytical but he also happens to be a reformed drug addict.. And we talked extensively about addiction.

 

Ok, I get what y'all are saying. He explained alot of things to me and I think he even made me realize where I was going with this train of thought I was on. I have always felt that being addicted to something, being an addict means you don't really have control over it. And I don't like that idea. I feel like I'm on auto pilot now at times, just going through the motions and feeling quite helpless about it. I have no control over my hair being brown, being female (as Sarge stated) hence no control over being an addict. But I do have a choice as to whether I want to be a junkie or a non practicing addict.

 

He also told me that I am trying to find a loop hole. That what I am doing is trying is convince myself that I have so much control over myself, that I can smoke and and control it.

 

I didn't think about it like that and truly wasn't trying to do that. But I think he might have been right. He also reiterated something y'all said. He told me to be more patient. That I'll catch up with myself in due time.

 

So Sarge, ok, I get it. I'm an addict. But I still am going to hold strong that I am a non practicing addict. I really wasn't trying to argue with anyone about it. I was trying to wrap my head around it and just saying I'm one, or trying to prove I am with repeated failed quits wasn't answering my questions.

 

I'm getting my head wrapped around it now.

[BAT]

To me you are just Non Smoking Tiff.  :)

[jimmy]

I agree with wiley your super non smoking tiffany no need to say your sorry  ;) :D

[Still winning]

No need to apologise hun. Part of being real and here is that we get to ask questions and hear the answers. Sometimes it makes sense to us, sometimes not. 

 

That sounds like a great friend you have there. 

 

xx

[action]

You don't need to apologise, for anything :)

 

You are doing really well, and it looks like you just turned yet another corner, which is great! Keep going ;)

[Paul723]

No worries, keep going!

[Nicole Diver]

No need to apologise hun. Part of being real and here is that we get to ask questions and hear the answers. Sometimes it makes sense to us, sometimes not. 

 

That sounds like a great friend you have there. 

 

xx

+1

[babs609]

like everyone else said. +10000

 

The "education" part of quitting is crucial.  If you don't "get it" you will struggle.  'fake it till ya make it" will only take you so far.  So...keep doing what it is that you are doing...which is....not taking a puff TODAY

 

good job!

[Doreensfree]

Your doin just fine tiff......

I was told .....don't over think things......it will drive you mad.....sooo

One day at a time tiff....you won't smoke.....

This how we all are doing it....

Hugs

[ChristaC]

I don't think there is a "one-size-fits-all" approach to quitting smoking (or doing anything, really). Everybody is different... and everybody is at a different point in their lives, Tiff. Why wasn't I ready to quit when was younger? I don't know... I wish I'd quit 20 years ago... or 30... or that I'd never started in the first place, sure! But no sense in looking back, right? What good would it do for me to beat myself up over it?

 

What matters is that I finally, FINALLY managed to do it... because I was, finally, ready. It all just came together... gentle prodding by babs... then getting to know you people... having all the support I needed... and here I am. 

 

Don't despair. And never, EVER, give up! xoxox

[Susana]

Tiffany!!!! :give_heart2:

 

You shouldn´t feel sorry at all, you should feel PROUD OF YOURSELF!

 

You are tackling those issues that may be interfering with your quit. Talking about them. Listening to other people´s views on these issues (people who love you, by the way, and want to see you succeed). Finding ways to strengthen your resolve day by day. Well done you for being honest with yourself!

 

What you did yesterday was amazing. To be so honest with yourself, to explain how you feel and to let us see where the difficulties reside and try and give you ideas on how to sort out these difficulties, was enough reason to feel good. Well done you for tackling difficult issues openly!

 

I don´t know if we helped you or not. Only you know deep down if you have a clearer idea of where you are at after yesterday´s conversation. I hope we did. Also, you may have helped other people too, who may have had the same thoughts and the same doubts but didn´t know how to express them or are not registered here but are reading, or simply were not brave enough to face those thoughts in the first place. Well done you for being so brave!

 

Nothing to be sorry for. Be proud of yourself.

 

I am proud of you. :good:

[bakon]

Damn I missed a fight. Do it again but insult each other's mom too

[ChRiSpY]

Tiff... you are doing something awesome here...but don't let it consume your life.  Keep it in your mind... but don't forget to LIVE!!!  I am not saying that it should be so easy that you don't think about it...cause you will... but stop with the analyzing.  You smoked and it was a stupid decision.. but now you are smarter and getting on with life.  This quitting thing is not rocket science...just don't smoke anymore. 

 

Get busy and keep on keepin on.

[Nancy]

(((Tiffany)))

[sgt.barney]

Damn I missed a fight. Do it again but insult each other's mom too

 

Pork Tenderloin.

 

 

 

Easy Peasy

[bakon]

Kalboussi would be a compliment to sausage

[Susana]

OY!!!! You are highjacking Tiffany´s thread! :acute:

[bakon]

Just redirected it. It was off course from start from reading first 32 responses. Sgt didn't seem to be insulted as he has no feelings.

 

Greasy and sleazy

[Jenny]

You have nothing to apologize for!!!   You posted your feelings and like Christa and others said, we're all different and process things differently.  Only worry about today and keep saying NOPE.  It will be so much better later on.

[El Bandito]

Good work Tiff.

 

You are doing great.