My Name is Jillar

[jillar]

And I'm a nicotine addict. This was the hardest realization for me to have to admit but once I did my quit got so much easier.

Most of us associate addiction with drugs or alcohol but never smoking. Which is ironic because there are 1000's of chemicals in just one cigarette. Chemicals meant to keep us addicted. I owe my success first of all to myself for having the good sense to reach out to others who had or were going through the same journey. I also owe it to the support given by fellow quitters who would tell me when I was thinking junkie thoughts. Thoughts like "why can those people smoke but I cant" or "I'll wait until ______to quit".  Excuses given by drug addicts to continue doing what they're doing and my drug was nicotine. 

There's no shame in admitting it for me now, five plus years quit. I think the sooner you accept that you are the better off you'll be. And the easier your quit will be.

[Gus]

Amen, Sista! I will never forget the moment I faced the ugly truth of my addiction head on and called myself exactly what I am. A nicotine addict. I wept for hours!  

[Kris]

Dear Jillar,

I agree with everything you have said.  I no longer feel bad or less than because I was an addict.  I am doing everything I can to get better.  I do not have friends or family that understand my struggle or how hard it is.  Here, I have people who know what the heartache and mental battle we face everyday.  I quit because of medical reasons, which were bound to come sooner or later.  We just keep telling ourselves we are okay when it is far from the truth. I hope long after this young people will come here and see that someday this will happen, stop now, live a long healthy and happy life for you, your children and friends.

K

[Gus]

2 minutes ago, Kris said:

I hope long after this young people will come here and see that someday this will happen, stop now, live a long healthy and happy life for you, your children and friends.

So true Kris! I think that it is the one thing that binds everyone here together: the desire that everything and any little bit we document will one day be the one thing that helps a future quitter keep their quit and/or help someone through a particularly rough patch.

[d2e8b8]

What a lovely post @jillar.  Hope it helps someone reach out for help and overcome their addiction.

 

We have all benefitted from that help here in some way.  I always thought I could quit anytime (for all of the 40 years I smoked) and actually never could until I joined a forum and found people 'like me' who were going through the same withdrawal process and shared their experiences which of course totally resonated.

 

It's totally cool to share your experiences - we've all been there.  I do miss a post that listed the first days and weeks of quitting in a really humorous way - yes, it was funny and was absolutely spot on.

[jillar]

9 hours ago, d2e8b8 said:

I do miss a post that listed the first days and weeks of quitting in a really humorous way - yes, it was funny and was absolutely spot on.

I loved that thread too d2 and tried to get it off qsmb but some of the threads weren't archived by the wayback machine and that unfortunately was one of them

[Doreensfree]

Great Post Jillar.....

Once my addict brain admitted this ....it all made sense ....

I wasn't a lady who liked a cigerette for all the reasons I thought ....I was a addict 

Who was addicted to Nicotine .

[AceWhite]

Nicotine invades our minds and makes us think crazy dumb thoughts when it comes to quitting 

An opponent to be respected for sure, and one I never want to face again, although I am mightier