Peachfuzz checking in

[PeachFuzz]

Hello beautiful souls. 

 

As some of you may know I had a 12 year quit and relapsed a few months ago.  Ive got bipolar2 and I was in a manic state. If you know anything about this disorder in the very high state you are not "you". You behave recklessly and you have a devil may care attitude. It's not fun at all. I had never experienced this before. 

 

From my first puff it didn't take long to be back to a packet a day. I couldn't believe this was happening. I was a staunch anti smoking activist!  After three stop starts and feeling beyond frustrated I joined the Quit Train,  and was met with complete love, non judgement and encouragement. I still couldn't do it on my own and reached out for professional help. In that time I learned so much about myself and it gave me time to set a very serious quit date which was the 5th of May.  It wasn't easy. About a week in I started "coming down",  I struggled with depression, and I had to double up my mood stabilizer. Shortly there after I experienced physical and mental burn out. The fact that I had a severe sinus infection didn't help. 

 

Quite often I would just log on here to read posts, send encouragement or play the games to keep my mind off things. 

 

Today it's a month and I feel heaps better. Despite a rough ride, it never occurred to me that smoking might be a solution. 

 

I feel free again. I feel alive. I'm in control of my health. I had to dig deep but it's been worth it. I continue to work on my inner child issues to have a better life.  Not only for me, but for my family too. 

 

If you have read this far, thank you. If you are considering quitting,  I can assure you it's a beautiful gift of love you give yourself and there are special caring members here who will give you all the support you need. 

 

I see you. You are valid. Your life counts. 

 

Namaste. 

 

Have a blessed day xox

 

 

[Gus]

You are awesome @PeachFuzz I’m so thankful that you stayed on the train with us. Best wishes for the future!!!

[PeachFuzz]

Thank you @Gus even though we are miles apart,  you were such a caring friend. Thank you xx

 

Keep it going

[jillar]

Congratulations on one month quit @PeachFuzz and I'm really glad you're feeling better. And I'm glad through it all you stuck to your quit

 

[johnny5]

Congratulations on 1 month smoke free, PeachFuzz. 

 

[Doreensfree]

Congratulations  Sweetheart.....

I'm so happy to share this celebration with you ....good news you are making good progress....

You are a valued member here ...and we are all here to support you on your journey ..

[PeachFuzz]

[Steven Drojensky]

Congratulations to you,   Peach Fuzz!

[Dianne]

I just love this so much PeachFuzz! Thank you for sharing your journey. I so happy for you. Yay this just makes me happy

[Boo]

Congratulations PeachFuzz.  You're doing great.

[Mac#23]

Congratulations on one moth quit. I'm so happy you decided to quit again.

[PeachFuzz]

11 hours ago, Mac#23 said:

Congratulations on one moth quit. I'm so happy you decided to quit again.

Thank you @Mac#23. So am I.  Smoking sucks..

 

The life right out of you xx

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Mee]

Bless you PeachFuzz.  So greatful you were able to find help and have some guidance through this all.  Sounds like you are really on the road to recovery.  Know that you have dear friends here and never be afraid to reach out.  You are one special, awesome lady and I am honored to be a part of your journey.

[PeachFuzz]

2 hours ago, Mee said:

Bless you PeachFuzz.  So greatful you were able to find help and have some guidance through this all.  Sounds like you are really on the road to recovery.  Know that you have dear friends here and never be afraid to reach out.  You are one special, awesome lady and I am honored to be a part of your journey.

Oh dear heart. You have touched me with your kind words. God bless you.

[Lilley]

Congratulations @PeachFuzz Have really loved reading your posts the last few days. Glad you're here 

[Rozuki]

Congrats, @PeachFuzz! Celebrate and reward yourself for this achievement! Carry on..... 

[Angeleek]

Wonderful! Congratulations Peachfuzz on taking your health back, and making it through your first month! I hope you rewarded yourself in a special way. Keep up the great work...you can do it! Nicotine only makes life harder...Hooray for Peachfuzz!

[Reciprocity]

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Edited June 25, 2021 by reciprocity