I feel like I've been hit by a train - my eyes have been openend

[Evelyn]

So this is what nicotine does to me. When I stop using this addictive stuff, I become sensitive, anxious and still I refuse to take a natural sedative.  Now I know how it keeps me in it's grip. I will ride this train. And though my antipressivant Nortrilen helps dealing a little with the worst withdrawals but after smoking almost a whole pack I could have expected this. I'm an addict, and NOW I understand why I need to pull through, Go straight forward.

 

As long as I keep going in this circle; smoke - quit - smoke I hold an addiction alive. i'm ready to stop this cycles.

 

NOW I've experienced how hard it is to say no - how addictive this junk is. My eyes have gone open.

This stuff forces you to use it and eventually kill you. 

Well, not me 

[El Bandito]

Morning Evelyn! Keep marching!

[action]

That's right Evelyn, there is only one way to kill the addiction... And you know that is to not smoke!

 

You can do this, but let's take it's day at a time :d

[Doreensfree]

Addiction sucks everlyn.....keep going.....you know you can do it....

[Evelyn]

I'm doing everything to pull through - it's hellweek indeed.

[Pippa]

Hey Evelyn- you can do this - each time you get a crave - make sure you pause and remember how bad this addiction is - and how great you will feel when you beat it !

[soul]

Hell week will get you to Freedom.................

 

Stick with it, no matter what! You deserve better than what Nico-Demon has planned for us all if we keep him active.

 

Remember that eternal vigilance is part of staying quit...........................

[Evelyn]

Sorry my English isn't that good - what do you mean by that last sentence?

[Colleen]

Evelyn,

You can do this and we are right behind you.  Reach out if you have even the slightest doubt.  My favorite quote is by Robert Frost, "The best way out is always through".  It means to me that the best way to get through a difficult situation is to hang on and persevere.  If you hang on long enough, eventually you will come through the other side.  

[Evelyn]

I already cried 3 times today, because of the withdrawals. I feel like banging my head and bang it out of it. Which of course is only an example. But who came up with the name hellweek was right!

[ChRiSpY]

You need to get your mind right and stop torturing yourself.  It is hard to watch.

 

Get strong .....read... and get busy.  Get busy doing other stuff... get busy living a life without smoking.  Retrain your brain.

 

Get your mind right!!!

 

Life is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better on the other side.  The payoff is worth it.

 

keep on keepin on... no looking back!!!

[Evelyn]

I am doing what you said :) 

[MarylandQuitter]

Evelyn,

 

When I relapsed I was very mindful of how the cigarettes were making me feel.  I didn't enjoy them.  They didn't taste good, didn't make me feel good, didn't wash away my stress but yet it had gotten to the point at the end of that week that I started to become very concerned.  I felt myself being pulled into the jaws of a re-awakened nicotine addiction eventhough I wasn't enjoying smoking.  I came very, very close to becoming the full-time smoker that I had worked so hard to not be. 

 

The power of this addiction is not to be tempted or played with.  One of these times you're going to find yourself completely overwhelmed with the notion of quitting smoking and this constant relapse/quitting cycle that you've thrown yourself into has to be stopped.  Only you can stop this and not allow yourself to smoke no matter how much your mind is telling you that you want to or should.

 

Your signature says that smoking is not an option and there are no more excuses.  Do you believe this?

[Evelyn]

I try to make statements of them in my mind!

[jimmy]

ev elyn don't give up this fight you can win tell your self I wont smoke no matter what it not easy at  frist but just keep  going make a  list of reasons you wanted to quit  pros of quitting vs cons and read it ever time you get a crave belive in yourself

[ChristaC]

Speaking strictly for myself, it helped me to make this thing between nicodemon and myself strictly personal. I imagined that little sonofabitch beckoning me, whispering in my ear in his raspy, evil voice, blowing his stinking breath in my face, trying to get me to come back over to his side.

 

I can't tell to you many times I told him to go eff himself. There was NO WAY I'd let that little monster win.

 

And I didn't. He only comes once in a while now, and it's easy to blow him off.... :D

[queen greenlover]

Trust me you don't want to live this way-quit for a short time then start to feel good or "in control" then smoke & realize you gave away a good thing you had going for you. Its so hard for those "really free" to explain to those struggling that if you would ONLY stay quit & get use to it how much you would love this new way of life-but each of us has to walk this poth & find out on our own. Sorry I can't help more.

[Melody]

You can do this!! Once you've pushed through this hard stuff it really does get better. Feeling out of sorts is normal at first but it does fade. Stop the cycle hun!!