I Smoked Today

[rowlyd]

I have smoked 5 smokes since the 4th of April, 2 of them were today. The problems I had before I smoked are still there.... Smoking did not take them away, now I have another problem. SMOKING!!! The obsession to smoke again has returned.

 

I would rather not smoke again and thats why I am posting here, I screwed up my quit and I would like to get help or suggestions from anyone.

[rowlyd]

So .....I just walked down to the shop and bought a big slab of chocolate and had a big glass of coke and I plan to not smoke for the remainder of this day. When I wake up in the morning I will start again....

[MarylandQuitter]

I just got done running and saw this post on my phone once I got off the treadmill.  Sorry for my delay.

 

You must be firm in your decision to not smoke again.  There can be no wavering or giving in.  Stay after your quit with a vengeance so strong that nothing can break it.

 

The most basic suggestion is to toss your smokes into the trash and get your mind straight that you're going to quit and stay quit, no matter how bad you think you want to smoke. 

 

Suggestions to do without delay:

 

1.  Start your own thread in the quit smoking section to chronicle your quit.  Start today, right now.  All your thoughts, struggles and triumphs should be recorded here.  In addition to your own thread, you can also start your own blog if you'd like in our blog section.

 

2.  Go to the Daily Nope Pledge board and post NOPE for today and pledge each and every day.

 

3.  Post as S.O.S. before you smoke

 

4.  Read the newbie database and watch the smoking documentaries which are pinned right below the newbie database

 

5.  Post in your thread at least once per day and as often as you want.  There are no limits here.

 

6.  Stay involved with the this support group, even if it's playing some of the games in the social section to keep your mind busy.

 

There are two things about relapses that remain constant. Relapses are always planned and they are always avoidable. We're all just one puff away from living the rest of our lives as smokers.  Quit now before you find yourself 10 years down the road and wishing you would have just quit back in 2014.

Around five days into my one week relapse, although I didn't enjoy one single puff, I could feel myself being sucked back into a full fledged addiction of 30-40 cigarettes per day. This scared the hell out of me because I wasn't enjoying smoking yet my body and my mind STILL WANTED TO SMOKE and I could feel the addiction pulling me in a direction that I didn't want to go. That was scary. When I faced how powerful this addiction is, especially when I knew I wasn't enjoying it, scared me more than the thought of dying a smoker. I felt it's power and I never want to test my strength against it again.

The good news is that you're a non-smoker the instant you put out your last cigarette.

[MarylandQuitter]

So .....I just walked down to the shop and bought a big slab of chocolate and had a big glass of coke and I plan to not smoke for the remainder of this day. When I wake up in the morning I will start again....

 

No, you're already a non-smoker since you already put out your last cigarette.  You don't need to start something that's already underway.  Tomorrow, you will pledge NOPE in the daily pledge board just as you will today before you go to sleep.  :)

[action]

I'm really sorry to hear this Rowley (and for my delay in replying).

 

My main piece of advice to you is going to be to stay close to the board. I have seen you post SOSs in the past and then we don't hear from you again until the next time. It looks like this time it was too late :(

 

I have found that interacting with the members here helps reinforce my quit immensely.

 

Are you in a position to spend time online and read and post?!

 

Glad you are quit again too.

[rowlyd]

Hi there and thank you very much for your replies. I am not in a position to reamain online for long periods of time during the week due to my occupation. But, I am going to follow whats been suggested here starting now.

[rowlyd]

Where is the quit smoking section to start my thread?

[Colleen]

Rowly,

I am so sorry you smoked, but really glad you are wanting to start your quit again.  I've noticed you do well in your quit when posting and reading on the board.  There has to be a plan.  Telling yourself you are going to quit and that's all there is to it, isn't working for you.  So, how about figuring out just what will work for you?  Come to the board on a regular basis, even if it's just to pledge NOPE each morning before work.  What are your triggers?  What caused you to relapse?  Do you need information on this addiction?  Understanding why and how you want to smoke is half the battle.  

[El Bandito]

Hey Rowly.

 

The Quit Smoking Discussion area is probably the place to start a thread.

 

You might want to think about a blog too. There is a blog tab at the top of the screen.

 

Why did you smoke?

 

You sound like you don't want to, yet you did. I'm not trying to be funny, but if you can understand why you wanted to smoke, then you can understand how to take that desire away.

[Colleen]

Where is the quit smoking section to start my thread?

http://www.quittrain.com/forum/2-quit-smoking-discussions/

[JackiMac]

Hi Rowly so sorry to see that you smoked, but you recognised the smoking for what it was ADDICTION, you now have to deal with that and be tough with the addiction, commit everyday to not smoking, just that one day, I also find that coming here even if its just for 30 mins each day really helps with my mindset, i've been have tough craves over the last week or so where I think I could really really have a cigarette but at the end of the day thats all it is a THOUGHT, do not give it the time of day or flames to grow, close your mind to it and remember why you quit smoking in the first place, to lead to a happier healthier you.  

[Petra]

So sorry Rowly!!!!

 

This happened to me.  I can tell you that while it may be a little tough to get back on the quit train after relapsing, it can be done!!!   You need to make the decision to never smoke again and do WHATEVER it takes to make sure that you don't put things in your mouth and light them on fire!

[Doreensfree]

This addiction sucks.....

Get back up....stay as close as you can to the board,daily pledge......

You can do it.....

Never stick anything in your mouth,and set fire to it.....

[Pippa]

Hey Rowly - sorry to hear you smoked but good to see you back and glad you have re-entered the non smoking world ! Remember we are here to support you - so before you even think about smoking again - make sure you post here and ask for help - welcome back !

[Nicole Diver]

Allen Carr audible was a saving grace for me when I first quit. It helped me understand I wasn't missing out on anything.

[Tink]

you jumped back on so I guess I dont get to whoop your butt!!!

[rowlyd]

Thank you everyone for replying and not getting angry with me for messing up! The support you are giving me is awesome! Thank you again.

[Melody]

Glad to hear things are looking up! I am going to agree with having a plan as well. My plan was to get healthy so I threw myself into different workouts and preparing healthy meals. I spend so much more time with this and hardly think about smoking now. Do you have a hobby that can help take your mind away from smoking and other outside stressors?

[queen greenlover]

I have smoked 5 smokes since the 4th of April, 2 of them were today. The problems I had before I smoked are still there.... Smoking did not take them away, now I have another problem. SMOKING!!! The obsession to smoke again has returned.

 

I would rather not smoke again and thats why I am posting here, I screwed up my quit and I would like to get help or suggestions from anyone.

Sorry you felt the need to see what would happen if you smoked-NOW you know and you realize NOT to do it again right?

[charlie12]

Hi, Rowlid. I understand you, believe me! Quitting smoking is not always a straight way for everyone.

I've been almost nine years without smoking but I must confess that at the beginning I had some temptations and even a few restarts. Fortunately those restarts lasted only one day. I managed to quit again the very next day  because of the strong frame of mind I decided to have. I was very stubborn with the idea of not wanting to be a smoker again and with the idea of being a non-smoker. So after a mistake like this I thought "what is stronger? The false pleasure of smoking, with all those disadvantages, or the pain of being a smoker? Do you want to back again to that misery?".
The downside was that I had to start again with the process of nicotine withdrawal with that itch... but fortunately it seemed to be quite a bit lesser than when I smoked. Don't get discouraged by this little slip up! Have your big goal on mind, don't punish yourself for this and the next time you'll have a temptation, think on the consequences. Never think such thing as "one puff can't harm, one cigarrete...". They can, you now know it.

 

Nevertheless, you can quit!

[bakon]

What's the update? Thread little old now. Want to quit and need motivation, live with someone going through chemo. Just one week. Then pray you never need to.

[El Bandito]

What's the update? Thread little old now. Want to quit and need motivation, live with someone going through chemo. Just one week. Then pray you never need to.

 

This.

[rowlyd]

The update is nova good one. The reason I haven't posted is because I have been smoking occasionally. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stay stopped.

[El Bandito]

I'm sorry to hear that Rowly. Clearly you can stop, your attempts have proved that. The issue must therefore be mental. You believe that by not smoking, you are giving something up.

 

Allen Carr did write a follow up to EasyWay, called OnlyWay. Worth a try?

[Tink]

The update is nova good one. The reason I haven't posted is because I have been smoking occasionally. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stay stopped.

you say occasionally Rowly why not write down when you have one:

 

where you where

how you were feeling before

were you hungry, sad, mad, thirsty, drinking etc?

 

maybe if you make a complete log of whats going on around you and in your head at the time - a pattern will emerge and you could do something about it

 

I dont know what else really to suggest and dont know if this would work - but maybe worth a shot

 

I so want you to quit as I know you can do it - but it really is you that needs to want to quit my friend x