Is this actually happening....?!

[MLMR]

Tomorrow I'll be celebrating 5 months. And where part of the third and all of the fourth month honestly seemed like they never ended, the past fifth month was one of, uhm... whats it called? Reaping what Ive sown?

 

I think I should start saying it out loud, because I cant go around it anymore, it's too darn obvious: my anxiety attacks are rapidly decreasing in number and in ferocity. Mind this: I came from 2 to 3 HEAVY attacks per week, where time in between was just too little to unwind. They varied from sudden, fullblown 30minute apocalypses, to gradual tension build up, which could last half a day and leave me completely numb. It's been like that for years.

And now... I went down to 1 in two weeks, with bits and pieces of distress in between but totally incomparable to what its been. I believe part of that is because I'm paying so much more attention to what I need, when I need it ('HALT'!). I am really learning to just be with what I feel. And yep, it still s*cks from time to time. And then that's just that.

 

And by the way, while writing this I still have this nagging voice that says something like, 'ahhh just wait... it'll be back soon enough...dont hold your hopes so high!.'. But I know that this isn't incidental. 

 

This is progress for the long run and I am going to be so, so, so sooooo very thankful for having quit and gaining peace of mind. 

 

And... I am growing a super mighty ' I won't' muscle. Applicable on a daily basis, to many non-smoking related things! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[jillar]

Great post MLMR, I'm really happy to read this! You are doing awesome and it's GREAT that your anxiety attacks are getting to be so few and far between  

[Doreensfree]

Great post M...don't look now...the magic has started to happen ...way to go !!!

[Boo]

3 hours ago, MLMR said:

This is progress for the long run and I am going to be so, so, so sooooo very thankful for having quit and gaining peace of mind. 

 

And... I am growing a super mighty ' I won't' muscle. Applicable on a daily basis, to many non-smoking related things! 

 

There are so many unintended benefits associated with quitting smoking.  Making the decision to quit and committing to the process will impact every area of your life.

 

Strength begets strength.  Confidence begets confidence.  And so on...

 

Congratulations on five months smokefree.  Enjoy the many benefits of being a successful quitter.

[Sazerac]

It is amazing the inner trust we build within ourselves by quitting smoking

and the confidence we acquire to slay our demons. 

This trust and strength does not fade and like a muscle gets stronger and stronger with use.

Congratulations M'Life, you have a splendid quit and I am so happy you are reaping rewards of your work.

You Rock.

S

[Paul723]

Some more benefits are coming your way soon.  Seven months from now you will look back at your progress in amazement,