Used to love just sitting and thinking

[Kate18]

I used to love just sitting for a spell and thinking or reading a serious book (psychology, business management, self-improvement, etc). I've been attempting to do that this morning, and even though I'm wearing a patch during the day, I feel a hunger for a cigarette.  I'm fidgety. 

For now and for a while, I can't sit in a comfortable chair and free-think, let my thoughts flow while my mind is in a semi-meditative state. Images and emotions of smoking interfere with thought freedom.

Keeping my mental guard up, pushing away the smoking images and desires takes effort and takes me out of any quiet-mind thinking. 

It's a wee bit annoying. Frustrating.  It's tiring. 

 

[jillar]

Hang in there Kate, what you are going through is totally normal for where you are in your quit. The first month is by far the hardest and especially those first three weeks. So go easy on yourself and I promise it will get better and you will be back to loving just sitting and thinking again  

[Doreensfree]

Be patient Kate ....our bodies have a lot of healing .....

Specially when we have smoked for Decades ...it's used to having all those chemicals every so often ,every day....

It has to undo ...what we have done ....

Be kind to yourself ....quitting is a journey...

[Mee]

Kate,  that is the tussle that goes on in your brain between your addiction and wanting freedom.  You have been through the tough part so keep going forward and don't look back.  

Kate, I really love reading your threads.  You have such a propensity for writing.  Did you ever think of writting a book?  I think there might be a best seller in there some where.

[Kate18]

19 hours ago, Linda Thomas said:

Kate,  that is the tussle that goes on in your brain between your addiction and wanting freedom.  You have been through the tough part so keep going forward and don't look back.  

Kate, I really love reading your threads.  You have such a propensity for writing.  Did you ever think of writting a book?  I think there might be a best seller in there some where.

You're very kind, Linda. My life is not interesting enough for anything about myself, I am not qualified enough at anything to publish as an expert, and my imagination wouldn't be creative enough for a novel. 

If I wrote a book, the only person who would read beyond page one is my mother. And of course, she would be dutifully enraptured with it.