Feeling a little vulnerable

[Mee]

I Don't exactly feel like smoking but feeling incredibly sad and vulnerable.  We are still on vacation and my 103 yr. old lady friend that I care for is having heart failure.  They have sent her home with hospice.  I am afraid she will pass before I get home.  I love this lady so much and just expected her to live forever.  She has done so well and this is so sudden.  We have two days before we are home.  I guess I need prayers for what is best.  I Don't know if it will be hard for me if she passes before I get home or better for me.  I do know I will be very broken hearted with her not in my life.  She was one special lady.

[d2e8b8]

Hey Linda, hang in there.  It's a difficult 2 days for sure.

 

I think you did great posting here.

[jillar]

I'm so sorry about your friend Linda, is there anyway for you to get home in time to see her? If not, maybe you can call her and tell her how much she means to you?

[Sazerac]

These few days are going to be hard for you, friend.

You've spoken of this woman before and I know she has been a good friend, a balm for you.  

The world will be a sadder place without her.

 

Plus, you are picking up your parents at the casino for the ride home ?

Oh, brother. Oh dear.

I will be thinking of you and sending all goodness and kindness.

Stay close to the board, Linda.

Your troops are here.

 

[jillar]

Geez, I forgot you have to pick up your folks. Call your loser brother and tell him you have an emergency and he will have to go to pick up your parents

[Mee]

I did call her.  She is very depressed and did not want to talk but I did tell her I love her.  I am not sure if she knows this is her time.  Her niece has kept me informed.  We have to retrieve my mom and dad from the casino.  We are going to tell them we have to go home a day early.  

[Lilly]

Oh Linda my heart goes out to you. I am positive you bring as much love to her life as she does to yours. 

 

I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers x

 

[Mee]

@Sazerac I will keep close I know you are there for me.  The trip home with my parents will be tough.  They do lack empathy and will be upset they have to go home.  

[notsmokinjo]

Can't you just leave them there, indefinitely?

 

I am so sorry for this sudden change in your friends health. I know how special she is to you. 103 is an amazing life. She has seen so much and been a part of so much history. To be 103 and still at home speaks of her character and her support network. I am glad you have spoken with her and hope that you get to visit with her again before her time comes. Her friendship and love is something you will have always, long after she has gone her light will shine on always in your heart.

 

Stay close, we are here, and all my love for the car trip home with the parental units.... still think you should just leave them at the casino.... I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.

 

 

[Whispers]

I'm so sorry linda

[c9jane29]

I lift you and your friend to the Lord, Linda Thomas.

There is strength in numbers and we are here for you!!

Many hugs and many loves and maybe a stick or 2

 

[Rozuki]

I am praying for you, Linda....and your dear friend! 

[Reciprocity]

Wow! This is very unfortunate news. Sorry to hear your friend has taken a sudden turn for the worse health wise. Double whammy having to deal with your overbearing parents on the drive home. I hope you can just tune them out while you remember all the goodness your friend has brought into your life over the years. I'm sure the feeling is mutual with your friend. Let us know how you're doing when you can please. You have an army of quitters here ready and willing to support you. 

[MLMR]

Dear Linda, I am so sorry to hear this. 

 

Glad you take the oldies home early. They probably won't understand anyway but that doesn't matter. But for you I whish you can be with whatever emotion you have, without having to deal with them in ways that are too demanding right now. 

 

Promiss to post whenever you want. That goes for the SOS section as well.  Take care!

[Doreensfree]

Prayers any hugs Linda....

Please have a safe journey home....

You and your friend have been blessed to have a friendship that you have together...

Stay close.....

You have good friends here...who will support you through this journey.....xx

[brand.new.ela]

Oh Linda, I’m so sorry. Words aren’t enough in such situations. You’ve had beautiful friendship, it is something to cherish, even through tears. 

[Sazerac]

Thinking of you, you beautiful and powerful smoke free woman !

[Mee]

@Sazerac I know you are and that you have my back. 

Well the old folks threw a tantrum and refused to go home.  We are leaving Saturday morning to head home.  Needless to say I am very aggravated at them but so much wiser.  

I do believe, with my new found confidence and the support of my quit buds, I have the strength to not allow them to take advantage anymore.  I do count and need to start putting myself first.  

I might need a few good vibes sent my way to get through the drive home and my mom's whining.  

My husband and I had a nice time.  It is amazing how different your life is without the smoking chain around your neck.  

My friend is hanging on.  I almost think she is waiting for me to get home.

Thanks, my dear forum friends, for being there and @c9jane29 for all my lovely sticks.

[jillar]

I'm glad your friend is hanging in there Linda, I sure wish that you had of stood up to your parents and told them to leave now or find their own way home! Once you finally do that you will get such a feeling of pride in standing up for yourself. I just know it

[c9jane29]

33 minutes ago, Linda Thomas said:

I do count and need to start putting myself first.

 

34 minutes ago, Linda Thomas said:

 It is amazing how different your life is without the smoking chain around your neck.  

 

@Linda Thomas sometimes you say things that make me want to cheer!!! 

I love it!

Pissy parents, cold nights, alien smokers listen up: Linda Thomas says NOPE! so get out of her way!

Prayers, friend...

[notsmokinjo]

Sending my prayers Linda.... and you most definitely do count. You are Linda, we hear you roar. How does quitting feel... liberating. 

[Doreensfree]

Prayers coming from Liverpool too Linda...

You arrived to spend time with your special friend.... This is all that mattered...enjoy every moment you can together...

Your uncaring parents...will have to get accustomed to thier new strong daughter...

I'm proud of you...

[Sazerac]

Hope you are home and able to be with your friend.

Please take a lot of time for yourself, Linda, grieve and rejoice over her life.

 

[Lilly]

Thinking of you Linda and hope you are ok. We are all here for you whenever you need us. 

 

It will be a long path but you'll never be walking it alone. 

[Mee]

Well we are home and safe.  It was a long ride home with my parents because they are not happy we won't be taking them back to the casino.  I also told my mom I was going to spend more time giving care to my friend so she can stay in her home till the end.  I do hope to have a little more time with her but realize she is 103.   My mom will just have to count on my brother to help and pay to have her groceries delivered.  

Thanks for all the words of encouragement.  I don't know what I would do without you all.