Do you want to quit? I did. So, I did.

[Lust4Life]

Hi there newbies and lurkers!  This is Lust4Life (aka L4L, Lust, Lusty, Lusty One ...) coming at you live from the SE USA.    If you are reading this you are interested in quitting,  have recently quit, or you're just hanging around.  Or, you're an old pharte with a grand quit and just could not help but click on the catchy title.  

 

Quitting smoking sucked.  It really did for me in the beginning.  The physical part at least.   Then mental part soon followed.  Once upon a time I loved smoking.  College and immediate post- College years, going out to clubs, for cocktails etc, Then, I hated smoking.  I hated that I was a smoker.  Some folks out there are on the opposite end.  I know some folks loved smoking and everything about it.  The ritual was comforting.   Tap the pack down.  Unwind the cellophane.  Take the first.  Flick the lighter.  Inhale and quiet the scream of addiction. 

 

The ritual is comforting to the addict.  Roll the sleeve up.  Tighten the tourniquet. Tap the vein.  Take the piercing injection. Plunge the syringe. Release the tourniquet  and quiet the scream of addiction. 

 

One is legal.  The other is not.  One can result in instant death.  They other settles in for the long haul before taking your life.  Either way - you're dead because of addiction.

 

June 2016 I thought I quit.  I stopped having my cigs w coffee.  I stopped having my cigs after work.  I stopped having my cigs on the weekends.  I stopped smoking.  

 

What did you do? 

 

July 4 2016 I went out and had that one innocent cigarette.  You know the one.  That one.  That one cig after a quit that tastes like ass and makes you thankful you quit until you light up another one that doesn't taste quite like ass but maybe a chafed inner thigh. Yep.  Yuck.

 

Have you tasted that filth?

 

Early Sept 2016 - We had a great  family vacation.  I was still smoking.  I missed out.  My mind focused more on planning the perfect time to leave for smoke breaks rather than the vacation.

 

How much have you missed? 

 

Then it clicked.  

 

It HAS to CLICK in your BRAIN or it won't work.

 

That CLICK must happen.  

 

It CLICKED.  It clicked and I knew it was time.

 

Cold turkey time. For me, do what works for you.. 

 

I knew it would suck.  Straight up suck.  It sucked.  So hard. 

 

I became a grumpy bitch that ate too much. 

 

Then it stopped sucking so much.  

 

My thoughts resumed to regular scheduled programming, not smoking thoughts. 

 

The weight staring coming off.  

 

I celebrated my 2 year smobriety anny this week.

 

I WANTED to quit. 

 

So, I did.

 

Do you? 

 

--The End

 

 

Edited September 29, 2018 by Lust4Life

[c9jane29]

 

38 minutes ago, Lust4Life said:

I WANTED to quit. 

 

So, I did.

Amen!!

[jillar]

My quit sucked too as you know Lust so thank you for this great post. Proves that even us who have a harder quit succeed as long as we believe we can  

[notsmokinjo]

Thank you @Lust4Life absolutely brilliant post.

[Sazerac]

@Lust4Life,

 

Thank you for this post.  It is really great.

I love how you embraced the suck.  

That is what got me through too, I knew it might be gnarly.  It was.  Nothing to do but power through and come out on the other side.

 

Thanks for quitting Lusty one and for all your posts.  They certainly resonate with me and I know many, many others.

 

[Nancy]

Wonderful post and so true!!

[Lust4Life]

28 minutes ago, pottanramu said:

haha nice post , this is right now sucking a lot for me , few hours away from cigarette and nothing to kill some time .

Youtube makes me more high or very depressed , its either good music or full of strange accidents

 

I wish i could do something else right now

@pottanramu Clear out a junk drawer. Take a nap. Do a crossword puzzle. Head over to the games section and play a few—they really helped distract me in my early quit.  Read some older, pinned posts on this site. They offer great motivation.  Read up on addiction; what it does to the brain.  If able, run around your house screaming expletives, waving clasped fists in the air . The angst will fade. It will eventually go away-as long as you don’t smoke. 

 

Please post SOS if you’re about to smoke. 

 

If you smoke, you’re back to the very beginning and that’s a crappy place to land. 

 

 

Edited September 29, 2018 by Lust4Life

[Joe7]

Great post Lust!