2 yrs ago, struggling, relapsing. Smoking

[Jryan19982]

To be honest I dont remember my quit date but the moral behind the story is the same... 2 years ago, before my sticky quit I was in trouble.  I was struggling to stay quit, I had some good time under my belt including a good strong quit of half a year.  Then bam out of nowhere a friend came to town... a friend I would smoke with, drink with, get high with... and my hard work went up in smoke.  But before that time I had been trying to quit for a while.  Those who knew me elsewhere knew the history.  It's not a story that is unique as many people could call it their own.  But it was unique to me as is each of your quits.  No matter the similarities the quit is yours.  Grab the bull by the horns and take ownership.  No matter what life throws at you, no matter the struggles smoking is not the answer.

 

That glob in your throat, that nasty taste in your mouth, that smell on your skin, in you car, on your clothes... its all trash.  But my struggles turned to happiness.  Turned to success.  Turned into a high five!!  I got serious... i knew i didnt have much else left in me.  If now, it was likely never.  Would I see my kids go to high school?  College?  Get married?  Have a baby?  Have a life?  Maybe, maybe not but I wasnt about to take that chance.  Would I grow old with the love of my life?  No I wouldn't... I would leave all too soon.  

 

How many questions do you want in your life?  I'd rather have more certainties than questions.  And while nothing is certain I know this... my odds are better.

 

How will you roll the dice?  Id rather do it at the craps table than on the roulette wheels of life.  

Edited March 29, 2018 by Jryan19982

[jillar]

Great post jryan, I'm looking forward to celebrating your two years with you

[PeaceTrain]

Good post, jryan.  A successful quit has so much more to do with mindset than I ever realized.  Being open to seeing the truth about smoking makes all the difference. When you're in the clutches, you have to keep yourself in the dark in order to keep smoking. None of this happens consciously, of course, it's all behind the scenes, where addiction takes hold and hangs on for dear life. 

 

We're all awake now to the truth.  Once that happens, it changes everything.  You can't unlearn- can never think about smoking the same way again

[Mollie1]

Great post  & Great job of “keeping your quit”.  It is so simple to see; yet so hard to do.  Thank goodness for folks who understand.

[Lust4Life]

Great post jryan.  Honest & true.  Congratulations on grabbing the horns & conquering the beast!