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Hey everyone, I'm on day six today. I'm quitting by myself, although I live with three other smokers, including my husband. It's been a challenge, for sure. My family doesn't know I smoke, so I can't reach out to them for support. So I'm looking for an online community that can help me get through the tough parts. So far, it's been manageable. I've been using the patch, as well as gum for the really intense cravings. The patch does a great job of taking away the withdrawal symptoms, while I deal the emotional and habitual side of this nasty addiction. The first few days went really well, surprisingly. It wasn't until yesterday, day 5, that I started getting into a funk. That's what gets me the most... the depression. I'm not a depressed person AT ALL. I tried quitting in March and lasted 8 days before I gave in and smoked again, just so I could feel like my normal happy self again. Now that I know I need to cope with being down in the dumps, I feel more prepared for it this time. But I'm definitely not looking forward to it. So anyways, yesterday I was sad. I felt like I didn't have anything to look forward to. It's like mourning a death. Something you want, but can never have again, so you have to let go and say good-bye. And the weird part is, physically I don't even want a cigarette. The idea of inhaling smoke at this point is not something I want to do. I love the feeling of being able to breathe clearly again. I missed that. But I still have this feeling of loss and of emptiness. So weird. I am staying strong and not giving in. I was even on a group motorcycle ride this weekend, surrounded by bikers who were smoking, and I was drinking, and STILL I didn't smoke. I'm really proud of that. Even though I am resisting, it's still a really difficult thing to do. It takes a lot of energy and effort. And I know this too shall pass and I will move through this cloud of dreariness and the sun will shine on me again. I will feel normal again. I know this. But, until then, I'm hoping you all will help me get there.