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I don't know what the **** to do anymore. I can't stop. I have just smoked again out of anger and frustration. I feel like huring myself, punishing myself for screwing up again. After almost 48 hours of not smoking someone pissed me off and instead of hurting them I chose to smoke instead.

Hi I'm Rowland and I'm battling to stop smoking. I've been trying and failing since January. I've tried all sorts of stuff to quit and keep smoking again. Ive been to the easyway clinics, read the book , cold turkey, patches and now I'm on day two of the gum. Is there anyway you can help me?

Still here

I will not smoke! Not one puff ever!

I will not smoke today. NOPE !

Yaaaaay I got a shiny new ticker! Take that you filthy f..king smokes!

NOPETY NOPE NOPE NOPE! I am NOT going to smoke today!

Good day, craved at the start and then forgot completely that i was craving and had a good smoke free day.

Thanks guys! Funny thing, I got so busy at work just after I posted that, that I did not even remember the crave. Forgot about it all day and have not even thought about smoking since! I feel really good! After work I did a 6k run, was a really good one too as I seem to be getting so much better at it! Had a good dinner, and now I am chilling on the couch (sofa). Think I will have some coffee..... Clean and serene from nicotine..... day 4! Done and dusted!

Day 4 and now I feel like a smoke. Not angry, not stressed, not anything, just feel like having a smoke.

I am joining you, I will not smoke today. Off to the sos board now.....

Whoohoo easy peasy right? Thank you Tracey and everybody else who has sent wishes. Baie dankie (Afrikaans for thank you) pronounced " buy-a-donkey" Clean and serene from nicotine, just for today!

Hoo- $#@/'^'- raaah! I did not smoke today! There were a few moments when I thought about smoking, but I know that a thought cant kill me unless I act on it. Just for today I did not act out my thoughts and I am better for it. Clean and serene from nicotine!

Day 3 without a smoke! Yay! Yay! Yay! 3 yays for 3 days.....

I am sooooo enjoying running! Makes me want to go for a run now.....

Count me in dude, I will not smoke today.

I am fed up with feeling shit! I got myself a little journal to keep note of things. I am starting to agree with Mr. Carr..... the nicotine is probably the worst drug around. I am enjoying reading his book so far....

Today I'm clean and serene from nicotine! Just busy at work, but will be checking in at lunchtime....

I will not smoke today

I did not smoke today! A W E S O M E. So far I am thinking Allen Carr should stick to helping people quit smoking and not get involved where he has no experience..... I am trying to be open minded though. On another note..... I am unable to vent properly as I feel like I should not be swearing or cursing online where the public might read it. I am told there is a place around here where I can vent properly, but I need a password....

I ran 6 k's this morning and it was awesome!

I am going to write stuff down, the same way I did when I quit the other stuff.... being online often isnt an option for me. But I will keep coming back when I can to check and post.

I really hope that I do not smoke today. I had 1 yesterday and it did not feel good. So I started to do something symbolic to end my smoking relapse. I decided its time to clean out the ashtray in my car, it has been dirty since I quit in January. And then I purposely searched the property where I live and picked up and threw away all my old stinky cigarette butts. I then searched the house, found and threw away all the lighters and matches. Actually I made a fire and burned them all, it was more fun..... I still feel lucky in some way that I have not been smoking full time again and physically I do not have to endure hectic withdrawals, so I am looking forward to and hoping to enjoy this quit. I bought The Only Way book yesterday and have begun reading it too, damn long book...... but have at least begun relating to Allen Carr from the start. Recovery from smoking will be much easier if I have people to identify with. Being able to identify with people has really helped me stay off heroin and crack for just over 6 years, the difficult part there is everytime I am at NA people are smoking and thats a trigger for me, thing is I absolutely can not stop going to NA as I am very involved there and need meetings to stay clean. Sso there you have it, I am Rowland, I am an addict (in more ways than one), and I want to quit smoking for good.

Ok, heres my update. I was feeling angry when i smoked every time.... I know the dangers of smoking, scare tactics dont work bakon. It didnt help me stop when I was holding my mothers hand when she took her last breath (she died from cancer), she had cancer from smoking. And scare tactics are not going to work now..... Thanks for all the posts, I have just put out the last cigarette.