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Okay, this is good news, and very reassuring. Thanks.

I loved your post. I read it three times! It was the first post I read coming on this site for the first time today. What a blast! :P :wub: :D

Oh, my goodness. All the way from New Zealand! That's so cool! I am in United States, at the moment buried in snow!

This was a great post. Thanks so much! Before going to sleep has been difficult for me. Tonight am having a small bowl of pasta and a very large glass of cold plain hibiscus tea. I am then going to put my gym bag together and set alarm for 5:30 a.m. so I can hit the gym for an early swim. This is definitely a non smoker life, as I got too lazy for morning swims. You must be very excited about your One Year coming up. Congratulations! It is so, so very inspiring. Thank you for taking the time to support me. It has really helped. You are wise!

Thanks. I might actually be crying over some big things I neglected to cry over as a numbed up smoker. However, I did find myself sobbing while watching, "Saving Mr. Banks" with Tom Hanks who plays Walt Disney. I went to Disneyland in CA as a child, a few years after Walt Disney died, and my mother, who was a nurse, said, "Cigarette smoking killed Walt Disney," and I was so sad and confused. I couldn't understand why Mr. Disney would let cigarettes kill him. I never cry watching movies so it was a shock when I started sobbing while watching this one. Poor Walt Disney, lover of trains, never got on the Quit Train.

Oops. Sorry, am just getting used to this site. Love the Nietzsche quote...it goes right up on my frig. Thanks.

Thanks. This site is full of great peeps! :wub: I'm loving that I found this train!

Wow. Being so new into my final quit, this post has really helped me. I remember how lonely it felt to go back to smoking after a failed quit. The idea of hearing a lonely train whistle hits home. I remember being out on my porch in the middle of the night, smoking that "must-have-right-now-waking-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-to-smoke" cigarette, and hearing a train whistle, and feeling soooooooooooooooooooo lonely. That's what cigarettes do. To me cigarettes are like malignant little narcissists. They want to isolate you so they can suck the life out of you, and convince you that you are too weak to fight back. I an so happy I found this train. I'm NOT getting off, and it's wonderful to experience the care and concern of the members of this site. It feels safe here.

Congratulations on your quit...

I have definitely been obsessing about my lungs. I could just relax and drink more water. You know, nothing's feeling "normal" at this point. Anxiety. Thanks for your comment and support.

Thanks, Ms. 17,812 ciagarettes avoided!!! What a miracle!!!

Thanks so much!

Thanks. I have been feeling emotional and not in control...weird, huh...now that I'm actually on the train! I am going to take your advice, and start enjoying this quit journey a little more...with some sparking cold water.

Just found the right button here, but I replied to you below, before...

Thanks! I was wondering where this little button I needed was!

Thank you, Jackie66 from Scotland!

Nancy, I like your "one puff is too much" --- I have been reminding myself that cigarettes are killers that travel in a pack. This helps me because this was always my downfall. I'd want "just one" -- and I would hide single smokes everywhere in my house and car...because I couldn't bear that thought of not being able to have one puff. Thanks, everyone, about the replies about the coughing/not-coughing thing. On other sites people post that coughing is necessary to clear the lungs. I just got hung up on this.

Thanks. Thanks so much for this information. It seems that some kind of hyper-sensitivity has set in and I am questioning everything...all of a sudden I am so aware of my health...which I obviously wasn't regarding as very important when I smoked. My thought is that maybe I was over-all neglecting my health and now I don't even know what is normal or not normal. I have been worrying about fatigue...but I haven't been exercising so, duh, yeah, I feel sluggish like a slug-a-bug. So it isn't just smoking but general unfit health.

Wow, missing a body part...like phantom limb syndrome. Yeah. That's it. Like one night I woke up and thought I needed to go out on the porch for a smoke, and I was thinking about where I stashed some smokes. I had completely forgotten I quit and it kind of weirded me out. Thanks for your comment.

Nope. :wub:

Hmm, are cilia silly? I was certain mine were dead. First week was such a drag I never want to repeat a quit ever again. Pain. Isolating. Crying. And I am not an emotional person. I guess everything was numb. Gosh, it's all so dramatic. I am sooooooo happy I found this site. Yeah, I need all the good news I can get. Thanks.

I have read repeatedly that smokers cough more after quitting because they are "clearing" out their lungs. I had a bad smoker's cough but it completely vanished within 8 days after I quit smoking. Now, I am not coughing at all. I was smoking l/2 pack daily light cigarettes after lifelong on/off habit...but the point is I was coughing, and in about a week it went away. I had tightness in chest but used a vaporizor running 24/7 -- and have been doing deep breathing. So what's with this information that you have to cough after you quit to clear out your lungs?

There are so many sites out there but the same information gets repeated, and just collecting more and more information is wearying. I think this is a good site because it's a "go to" place to get support, and also to report on one's quit journey.

Eighteen days into quit journey, and feel a little lost. Am in limbo between being a smoker/not-smoker.I have not smoked but I just feel strange not smoking. I feel if I don't start making real lifestyle changes ( i.e. swimming) I will continue to feel lost and tense. The "newness" of quitting has worn off...and I need new activities, and a new tribe...and think I've found one here. Thank you. P.S. I stopped coughing in the first week and by the second I think my cilia were waking up. So that's the good news. :rolleyes:

Thank you, Nancy!