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Not a saint. Just normal.

n.o.p.e. :party2:

Ride that 7 to One Year Heaven... :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: and two more makes 7...

:vampire: Hell can freeze over... :vampire: it's still.............NOPE!

Swimming, hiking, biking, roller skating, outside training area at the park, shooting hoops, throwing hay, jumping rope, waxing my truck, beating my rugs, full moon walk/jogs, sweeping my porch instead of sitting on my fat butt smoking on my porch...spontaneously dancing in the street, picnics, bird watching, clothes shopping with money saved by not smoking, ice cream, fireworks, making new non-smoking friends, meditating in the sun, decadently sprawling out on a blanket reading, or just gazing up at the blue sky, and breathing in, breathing out, breathing in and breathing out. Smoking ruined, polluted or stole many of these things and I want them ALL back. Bring on Spring and Summer 2015! I'm so ready...

It's the only thing people are doing everywhere like it's normal, and that seems weird. If everywhere I went people were licking chocolate ice cream cones, laughing in groups etc. I could see where I might start to feel like I'm missing out, and would want to try a chocolate ice cream cone. But I can really relate to the stress thing...as I'd say those were my most important smokes. I'm going to have to work hard to fill up my toolbox with many, many tools for dealing with stress.

Get tired just reading about all this exercise. I'm starting day one of month two of quit, and am really going to have to push through the fatigue. My kitchen isn't that big...for roller skating in...you just have to go in tight circles. Just wanted to check in here to set the intention. I want to be honest and say I'm not feeling it (desire to exercise) in my gut...and have an insane fear that my lungs are going to blow up or something if I exercise too much. But I have noticed already that I feel BETTER WHEN I MOVE AROUND. PLEASE, PLEASE don't laugh and make fun...my lungs still feel really burned out...or my chest is really tight or something...

7,000 chemicals riding on the wind...I feel like I can smell the chemicals. This a whole different smell than what I remember from when I was a kid...as I did like the smell of my Dad's pipe tobacco.

Haha. I never thought of the quit as a "thing" until this site. I think the usual way is to think of some(thing) being taken away...the absence of some(thing) special. Of course, this is the thinking of denial...denial of all the stuff smoking is stealing. Once I planted this new thought in my head it immediately took root...because, I guess, healthy thoughts are like that...they expand. I'm pretty happy today. And hope you have yourself a good day! Thanks!

I don't drink anything now but hibiscus tea and espresso, which is too good, but... Care to join me for a group run on a mountain trail? Because that seems like an impossible goal to me - even to run 5 miles - and I've got 11 months to go for it.

Thank you for everything, Markus. I stole "aerie" but I love the idea of climbing up, and the view just gets wider and more beautiful. I've been teary eyed all day.

Yeah, well, I'm still using the binky now and then...but don't tell anyone...haha

Your presence is constant and so reassuring. Thank you so very much.

I'm right behind you and I ain't going anywhere...this journey's getting too good! Thank you!

Thank you for everything! I'm feeling all teary eyed today. You're a doll, PJ!

Thank you for everything.

So right, MQ. I was insane when I came on this site -- insane with the pain of smoking damage -- and insane with the pain of going through the quit's early stages. People are saying cuz I'm a month in the worst is behind me. And I hope so because it was really a hellish month...the worst quit I have EVER experienced -- physically and mentally. I am so glad to be where I am right here, right now. So deeply grateful -- and so thankful to all here.

Thank you, Marti. I think I must have been half insane when I came on this board. Maybe you are remembering it correctly for me. It wasn't an easy quit. I was suffering a lot when I came on. You are an angel. You really helped me to understand I could win every day as long as I put my best self forward. Much love and best wishes, with tears in my eyes. xx Well done you!

I really like this. There's a lot of ways to build exercise into daily life. I'm one month quit. After two weeks I was still getting pretty winded because I was trying to push more exercise than I was ready for. Now at one month I feel so much better...but romping around in the snow and walking was just fine by me...just getting out at dawn was novel! So I really liked this post. Thank you! --- and I really have been roller skating in my kitchen! I do have a big kitchen and it's just fun.

I should never have been a smoker (probably should have chewed tobacco!) because I always hated the smell. When I observe smokers...I have no feelings pro or con. All I think is how glad I am to not be outside in the cold having a smoke...because it's really, really cold here.

Yeah, yeah, I've been thinking about you and your situation a lot. I live in an area where less and less people are smoking, and it's pretty frowned upon. Years ago I did get a job where the interviewer (the boss) smoked, and everyone smoked. I quit after two weeks. Even though I was still smoking, I couldn't stand to be around that much smoking and smoke. I now work in the health care industry, and I haven't seen anyone smoking near a facility for a long time. I kid you not, here you can't smoke within a block of any hospital, or in any public park, and now the library, jail, all municipal buildings...schools or the main outside mall..smoking banned in all these places.

And how about those who say, "Oh yeah sure you're not smoking. wink wink" like you are lying about it. I've also gotten, "You'll never quit...so why try?" and one time someone actually left smokes under my doormat! I know this is my sticky quit because I finally have no friends who smoke, and while I was going through the worst of the new quit turned my phone off in the evening. I keep my distance from anyone who is smoking, and I've stayed close to this board since I found it.

Wow, how true. I thought about this later in the day...how hard it would be --- the new kid on the block...and with everyone else in the smoking clubhouse. Yeah, this would be really hard, and I'm so glad you posted this. Good one!

Okay, so what IS the lido deck?