cpk

Beat those rugs, wipe down those walls, hang those washed curtains out in the sunshine! :sun_bespectacled:

CONGRATS! :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: :angel: :angel: I am so inspired, and thinking how great to be where you are right here, right now...helping yourself, and inspiring others!!! THANK YOU! CONGRATS! THANK YOU! CONGRATS! THANK YOU! CONGRATS!

N :soldier_girl: O :soldier_girl: P :soldier_girl: E

Peace :flirt:

Am I happy to let go of the Shadow? Hell, yes. Can I handle LIFE without smoking? Hell, yes. Can I handle quit? Hell, yes. Alone? Probably not....for now...

"Not to scare you......." Poopy! Addiction = Fear = Addiction = Fear = Cycle of Fear/Addiction thunder and lightning? - I crawl under bed until it passes easy peasy tah Cool Peachy Kicker

:sun_bespectacled: I'm digging it, Master Quitter.

I got no happy memories about smoking. Went to the library today and a lady looking at books next to me stank of cigarette stink. OMG did I go around like that? Smoking's like a shadow that's always there, even if you are not smoking, wherever you go people know, and you know. I'm not feeling so good physically today - went for a walk but cold air irritated my lungs so now am home under a blanket with the vaporizor on because steam heat really helps. But the shadow's gone. The anxiety that was always there when I smoked -- because smoking is anti-life. It's gone. Second month is peaceful so far. What a big surprise!!!

heard today on NPR that President Grant smoked 12 cigars a day died from cancer tumor stuck in his throat they took it out and it's in a museum on east coast (US) on a shelf in the back room in a cigar box radio guy wanted to TOUCH IT EWWW! but museum people said no can't touch like it's sacred medals for all right?

haha, cpk, not ckp...whatever... cpk...today.........it's..................... C.an P.ull-off K.ick-ass quit. Thank you for laughs-a-day, you're insane, and really sweet, most importantly hard-ass kicker. cpk :music: Cool Peachy Kicker

N.O.P.E. :party: Into 2nd month and feeling 199% better.

Happy birthday, and best wishes for the year... :tender:

Seriously, is it possible, after one month and two days, to want to put thoughts about smokes on the ash and crap heap?

is the one tied up with the thought in control. yes. no. but mostly yes brain not weird. it needs dopamine. get something else going on. is pain pleasure pleasure pain? (in bedroom, smoker's section etc) reptile brain confused. executive brain not. get crooked thoughts straight can i write like bakon only wishful thinking can i nope till not a dope yes do i understand why there is both a train and a bus nope goodnite

Got my bakon laugh...my day's complete. :rofl:

Thank you so much for this!

Apologies for this long post... :help: I will probably keep a record and post once weekly. I'm one month one day quit... THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL I AM GOING TO GET FAT BECAUSE OF THIS QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOWEVER...I feel like if I exercise with vigor my lungs are going to blow up or collapse. Sooooo ridiculous and absurd! :wacko: This has NEVER EVER happened to me before but I have a weird fear about the state of my lungs. :help: (I'm not coughing...breathing improves daily. I THINK this fear is psychosomatic, not physical.) Also, my energy levels are so messed up. Most nights I don't so much go to sleep as pass out...literally. My mind is so ready...but whose body do I have??? I'm not going to start daily postings that say, "Vacuumed -- great workout!" or "Walked to the neighborhood library - well done me!" - because that's just lame! I have always been active, but now I see that bit by bit the smoking was stealing my energy, and I was in the addict's state of denial. :( Maybe this doesn't bother other new quitters, but it makes me feel like crying...this loss of my ability to exercise... :girl_sad: I'll post once a week. I'll attempt to do some REAL EXERCISE a few times a week -- and post it... :wink3:

I cut out drinking in 2014 because it automatically killed all my quits. It's just an association I couldn't break. I liked my couple of Guinness a month, but I knew I wanted to quit smoking in 2015. So not drinking hasn't been a big sacrifice. I know now there will be places and times I will be confronted by the addiction and won't be able to control the whole situation, so I will remember that I own authority on this matter!

:wub: I really liked this thread because it shows how you have to keep stepping on the back of the addiction until it's broken. I have quit other things in my life...and once the thing is broken it's dead...even if there are thoughts. But it's odd that even having done it with other things...smoking seems somehow different. Why does smoking get to be so special?????????????????? I sometimes have this fear that in a second I will somehow "forget" I am a nonsmoker. How is it possible to have such an insane fear? (For the record, I don't drink so I'm not talking about being out at a party or something.) I really enjoyed reading this thread. Thanks, all.

SWEET SMELLING MARTI. HEY, YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY FOR YOU!!!!! :wub:

I'm not a down-on-the-homeless. He just happens to be homeless. I AM down on fake veterans. (My brother's a veteran...) The point is, I'm just trying to get a recollection of my mental state as a smoker so I don't forget. That "just one" or "just 2 or 3" is not only about smoking... it's about going back to a place of mental and emotional darkness. I've never known a dog, or a cat, or a child, or a plant that likes the smell of smoking, or a smoker's touch. It's so anti-life. My addict's brain is still alive (I mean, I am one month new) -- but I hate that addict. I need to keep stomping out its evil little existence. Wow, am honored to hear from Marti...5 day smelling oh-so-sweet Marti! YAY!!!!! :wub:

FIVE! THAT NUMBER'S SO ALIVE!!!!! :girl_haha: ONE :give_rose: TWO :i-m_so_happy: THREE :buba: 4 :girl_dance: 5 :victory:

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