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There's a guy on here and on his signature, he has "I know I'm never going to smoke again. I don't know how I know this, I just do."

Juan, when you first started smoking, you had to train yourself to like it. That first cigarette made you choke, feel dizzy and you probably couldn't finish it all the way. Then you smoked again and again and again until you learned how to enjoy it. You basically told your brain all the lies that smoking tells you. It may have started out as "this is cool" or "this relaxes me" what ever it may have been that you said to convince yourself that you liked to smoke. You have to do the same thing to learn how to not smoke. It's an uncomfortable feeling. You just have to keep telling yourself, retraining your brain on why smoking is so bad for you. What it really does to you. This takes time. Just like it took for you to enjoy smoking. The longer you go without it, the more your brain will catch on. Keep on going. Your getting there. It's just baby steps at this point.

We are all going to quit one day. What we have to decide is if it's gonna be when we are above ground or 6 ft under.

I posted on it today. If we post on it, it brings it up higher. I will keep posting on it. It does help. There are probably people stalking that site also. You never know who's listening so keep on talking.

Thanks y'all !!! And Julie, that was the best comeback EVER !! I love it

I'm not gonna smoke. I just needed to vent. Thanks y'all. I don't feel comfy. But there's a saying that a dear friend told me......the only way off this roller coaster is to keep riding it.

I will be one of those newbies that will turn into a long term quitter. So please tell John to sit back and smile. Its coming.

Evelyn, today is isn't easy for me either. I am begging you not to give up. Please. Your only going to want to quit again and you'll have to go through this all over again. Let's keep on keeping on. Deal ?

I am having a hard day today. Everything I needed for today I left in my other car. And I can't go back and get it. So I feel very disorganized. And it seems like my brain won't process ANYTHING. One of the nurses here was consulting with me and the whole time I'm thinking "will you shut the freak up !!!" I want to be left alone. Hearing people talk is like someone running their fingernails down a chalkboard. I just want to shut em up. I don't want to smoke. But I don't want to feel like this. I'm not going to smoke. I just keep thinking how much better I would feel.......it's that just one thought again. But I can't do just one. So I keep visualizing my lungs healing. That's what I am focusing on. I am happy. Happy that I'm not a smoker anymore. I just have to keep saying that. Until my brain and body get it. Someone said to me once "your an experienced quitter". No I'm not. I'm an experienced failure. This time let's really get some experience at quitting and stay quit. Go through this. Do whatever it takes, but go through it.

I just saw this. That is freaking awesome !!!! Have I told you how proud I am of you. Your doing so good.

Evelyn, can you take a bubble bath ? Or go get a massage ? Something, anything to relax you while rewarding yourself too ? Your doing so good. And you never want to go through this again, right ? Well, the only way off this roller coaster is to stay on. It will end. Just keep going ......

I'm thinking about y'all. Please let us know how your doing. I want this so bad for us. Please reach out to us, that is why we are here. And believe it or not, but helping you helps us too. You are very much needed here.

I thought about this thread today many times. I will write it out. lol I just need to get the battle down a little more. This is a good thread......

Y'all are right. My friend/ neighbor is insecure about me quitting. She made several comments about how she would like to quit but how much she enjoys it and how hard it is for her to quit. She quit for one month once and she said that she was so unhappy. She's a weak spot for me. I am going to limit my time with her for a while. Until I am alot stronger. Like maybe in a year or so.........I love her to death but she is echoing the junkie thoughts in my head. And it ends up making them stronger. The cool thing is Puffy was there too and she has quit so she was talking about how you have to really want it to succeed. It was like the devil on my shoulder (my neighbor) and the angel on the other shoulder (Puffy) were having a conversation in real life. And as we left, Puffy looks at my neighbor and says "Dont' give her any cigarettes". I love Puffy. She's my angel.

I am so glad your here. I absolutely love reading your posts !!! You have so much to offer.......

I am just going to indulge. The whole day went so good, I was feeling really good. And then a couple of hours ago, one little thing set me off and I have been craving a cigarette since. So what am I going to do to get through this ?????? I am going to go get me some stuffed mushrooms. :)

It's very simple. Don't Put Things In Your Mouth And Set Them On Fire. Just DON'T smoke. Do anything but not smoke

I'm so proud of you !!!! You just did the most AWESOMEST thing Evelyn. You recognized your weakness and you took care of yourself. Your amazing. Your gonna be just fine. Keep on going. We are all right here holding your hand.

My smoking masks my anxiety. I never even knew I had anxiety. I always just thought I was hyper. I agree. Go to the doc. Get some help. There are things out there that can help you that don't give you lung cancer or emphysema. And know we are here for you. Every step of the way.

Evelyn, when you smoke.....it's not "blowing your quit". It's giving up on yourself. It's giving up on your life. Take care of yourself. You deserve it. I am not sure what's going on with your therapy but I do know that you do have the right to love yourself. You deserves that. And killing yourself is abuse. Break the cycle. Please. No more "I almost". Say proudly "I didn't !!"

I vow to not smoke today. It's gonna be a good day

Keep on going !!! Your gonna be soooo happy the more days you get behind you. You CAN do this !!!! And we are ALL here for you.

Thank you El Bandito.......

I am working on my mindset. I am not going to lie or pretend......yes, I still believe somewhere that smoking offers me something. I feel somewhat sad and confused without it. So everytime I think a thought about it like that, I am trying to redirect my thoughts into how harmful they really are. It's taking time for my heart to catch up, if that makes any sense. I have never allowed myself to finish this process out. I keep smoking instead. I am going to start reading Allen Carr's book again tomorrow. And I am going to devote time every day to read it Over and over and over again until it sinks in. It really is like leaving a relationship that you know isn't going to work but you still care about the person. It makes one sad but you know it has to be done. Please don't misunderstand me. I am not mourning at all. I am determined. But it's still a process (for me) that I have to work through.