Evelyn, can I ask you something. I may be confused but I am understanding that you are changing your patch several times a day. Is that correct ?
The thing with patches is that you are getting a steady dose over a 24 hour period. Changing the patch does not increase it. Please don't put more than one patch on a day. It's to be changed every day around the same time.
If you are having cravings.......there is only one thing to do. Wait it out. I am like you as I have a hard time dealing with strong craves and I freak out also. And then smoke. With the patch, your crave can be managed mentally because your nicotine levels are staying constant.
Do whatever you can to just push through it. I am on the patch now too. I can't do cold turkey and I will stay on the patch for the whole time that it is ordered. And when I have a crave, I'm on the phone calling someone, getting on here and reading or beating the hell out of some poor stranger. All 3 take my mind off of it until it passes.
You can do this. Remember all the negative things about smoking. When you see someone smoking, think about what they are REALLY doing to their body.
Drink cold water through a straw helps too. With the hand/ mouth association that we do with smoking. But it's much healthier