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I vow to not smoke today. No matter what

The little monster inside my head is throwing a temper tantrum. :-( I don't want to smoke and I won't. I guess I just kinda wish it would go take a freaking nap.

Non smokers don't smoke..... I'm a non smoker. So I vow today to not smoke.

You have given yourself the gift of a lifetime. I wish I had quit so long ago. Please never go back. Your so young and you can undo everything smoking has done to you. Never ever go back to poisoning yourself. No. Matter. What.

And Amy, your doing awesome !!! Keep on going.....your gonna love love love your new life. P.s. You have such a beautiful smile.

I started smoking when I was 13. I smoked between one and a half to two packs a day. I was slowly creeping up to 3 packs. If I was stressed, it was nothing for me to smoke 3 packs in one day. Then I would be sick the next day and would "cut down" to my one and a half packs for a day or two. My mother is who got me started. And then when she quit, she wanted me to. But I was in my early 20's then and still thought I was invincible. I never tried to quit until one day, my son's teacher showed him a picture of a smokers lung. He came home and asked me to quit. I told him I wasn't like that, I could quit anytime. He asked me to prove it then. I told him no, I liked to smoke. And when I looked up, he had tears in his eyes. I started my first quit the next day. And it hasn't been an easy ride, but with everyone here being sooooo patient with me, I'm doing it. I hate cigarettes now. I never thought I would ever feel that way. But I do.

I was wondering the same thing. I love to read his posts....... He's so stinking cute. And smart.

I am bookmarking this one.

It is a compound miter saw !! And I plan on building a tree house. I have always wanted one and my son and I are gonna do it this summer.

Calling me weak......ok. Stubborn, hard headed.....ok An addict......that's to the core

This is, by far, the HARDEST one for me to accept. I hate that word being applicable to describe any part of my being. To me, it's a sign of weakness. Something I can't control. And that's not acceptable to me. I went to New Orleans the other day and I could see the junkies sitting on the street. One looked like he had inhaled far too many cans of paint. And I thought, that's not me. I'm not like that AT ALL. I am coming to terms that it could actually be me. Cigarettes are legal. If they weren't , what would I do to get one ? I think I would have done just about anything....... I don't know. I still have a hard time with calling myself an addict.

That is really good.

I did too. Your fighting the fight and you are winning.

I bought myself a miter saw. It's like a chop saw but has different angles. I'm gonna have so much fun with this. I can build things now. I feel like I'm powerful.......

That is freaking awesome !! I envy you. I can't even draw a stick figure.

I vow to not smoke today

Evelyn, I missed it too. Let me know if you come back.....

Evelyn, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time if there is anything I could do it to make it easier on you, I would. Please keep close to the board, keep talking to us and remember, BELIEVE, that smoking doesn't fix anything, it just makes it worse Your body and mind are healing and I know it is hard.... But try to embrace the healing.

Keep going !! Your doing great. What benefits have you felt already ?

You have not logged in for a day. And a day can be a long time when your struggling...... Please check in with us. I get worried easily and I need to hear your doing ok.

+ 1000000 I wouldn't call her a liar. But I would call her an addict in denial. Huge difference.

I saw that today. This lady was telling me how she has quit smoking and how much better she feels and the whole time, she's puffing away on an e-cig. When I pointed out that she is still "smoking", her reply was "well, I gotta die somehow" She has no idea. Not even a clue.

That is awesome !!

Juan, just go with it. Don't fight it. You are doing so good. Do you know how many times you woke up and said "I'm gonna quit today" and didn't make it even one day. You are at a week !!! And your body is healing. Let it process what it's doing and let it heal. Keep going. We have your back on this and you are doing awesome.

I love this !!!