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Oh good God, I didn't even think about that. It was on top of the board. So I'm not the brightest lightbulb out there

Sounds like your daughter knows what she's talking about. Isn't it amazing how smart and insightful our little ones are ? Listen to her. She loves you and needs you.

^^^^ Everything she just said...... Hang in there. It will get better.

Oops.

I was thinking about him the other day. I was kinda hoping that him and Jonny were keeping in touch. And he was keeping his quit.

I hope Amy is okay with me telling y'all this...... She is doing good. She is still quitting. She is just internalizing everything (hell week is rough) and she will be back. She is one heck of strong woman. And I really do admire her. She's not giving up. And I like that.

Can someone explain to me the changes that happen with your skin ? I see people saying this but how does it specifically change ?

Today: I noticed that my allergies are not near as bad as when I smoked. My face doesn't hurt. I really like that.

I want to start a thread so that I and other newbies can remind ourselves of the positive things about quitting. Sometimes we get so lost in our junkie thinking and emotions, that we can very quickly lose touch about the good things on a day to day basis. We all know we smell better and all the other benefits like breathing easier and all that stuff...... but what positive thing did we notice TODAY that quitting has brought to us personally. If it's nothing, then it's ok to say "not one thing." And then we will promptly remind you....... Every day we make the pledge to not smoke. Let's remind ourselves daily what that pledge REALLY means.

lmao !!! I'm sorry Jenny...... If it's any consolation, it's not going to happen tomorrow. :rofl:

No it's not. And I have my little orange floaties all aired up and ready to go. I think I might even do some bling bling on them !!!! Gotta keep up with the girly look........ But on the flip side, thank goodness I quit smoking...... I can hold my breath a little longer.

Thank y'all so much. I have to say to Babs, you were so right. I only made the cravings worse by doing the nicotine lozenges. Although I didn't smoke, I have, definitely, taken a step backwards. I fed the monkey. I feel like I poisoned myself all over again. The lozenges are going to have to be thrown away. I can do this without any crutch. I hate cigarettes. I hate what they have done to us. And it breaks my heart to see so many people relapsing. But I do get it. I went from being so happy not smoking to all I could think about was smoking. In a just a matter of hours. I will get back to my happy place again. Just gotta work through my disappointment in myself. And please don't say I shouldn't be disappointed. I need to feel this. This is what is gonna help me next time this happens. IF it happens. And if it does, I will be right back here posting a SOS.

is melting...... This is not good news. We are all going to drown. :(

Amy, that is the biggest lie of them all. How can you NOT be ready to save your own life ? Just jump. We will catch you. You can do this and just don't listen to your brain for awhile. Its a sneaky little bugger. I'm thinking about you all day today and sending you the biggest positive vibes !!!!

Hey y'all, thank you for listening to me. I went to bed shortly after writing that and watched tv until I fell asleep. I havent' smoked. Nor will I. I am not sure why it has hit me like this but I am hoping I didn't screw things up with the lozenges. Babs, what your saying makes sense. I didn't think about it like that. I just knew if I didn't get one or twenty, I was going to be driving to the store. But oddly enough, I kept thinking about Amy. I didn't want to let her down. lol Just yesterday, I was thinking how much I love my non smoking life. I was telling Wesley how I could breathe, there was an incident with the bike and i got really scared something was wrong but it turns out it's just a bent rim, and I was telling him how I couldn't wait until I can get through those days and not be afraid that I have done irreversible damage to myself. I can ride around in the car with ALL the windows up. And then last night, it just kinda body slammed me. I'm not going to smoke....... I guess I'm just not in a really good place right now. I keep thinking I picked the wrong time to quit. But the "right" time never comes. So I'm gonna hang on and just throw myself into work. This will pass.

I had the most amazing weekend. I spent time working with my trainer, went bike riding with my son and his 2 best friends, built a swing that I broke by ramming it into the side of the house 5 minutes after we completed it. No urge to smoke. And now for the last 2-3 hours, I am fighting every urge to go buy a pack of cigarettes and smoke tonight. Quit again later..... that's what I keep saying to myself. I have read, taken 2 showers and just can't seem to shake this. It's like I can't catch my breath. I decided to suck on some Nicotine lozenges. Not sure if that was a mistake or not but I am can't seem to get enough of them. Why is this happening now ? I just want to cry but can't. I feel very uneasy.

Over the past 6 months, I have been playing a fun game with my credit card company. The game finally backfired on me today and led me through the most hilarious moment of my life. Most people would have been embarrassed, but me, I'm a little twisted, so I laughed all the way through it like an ass hole. With any story, there is a setup process. Here is the setup to this story. About 6 months ago, I was making a purchase with my credit card and when I went to sign the electronic signature machine, it was broken. By broken, I mean that when I touched the pen to the machine, it went crazy and didn't look anything like my signature. It looked like a drunk 4 year old signed my name for me. It accepted the signature without any problems. So this really made me wonder what I could do to give my credit card company something to laugh about. I mean, they obviously don't review the signatures since they never called me or declined a purchase. For freaks sake, it could have been a stolen card. I started out modest by signing with a line or an "X". Occasionally I would do last name first. After a couple of months, I became bolder. I wrote goofy crap, drew pictures, etc. Here's a list of some of my favorite signatures over the past few months: I AM NOT KINGPIN I STOLE THIS WALMART SUCKS CALL ME CROTCHY CROTCHINGTON 911 I'M A CRIMINAL THANKS FOR THE STUFF Today at Walmart I went the extra mile. When it came time to sign my name, a thought popped in my head. I should draw a picture. But what picture should I draw? I smirked as something completely juvenile came to me. This is a rough drawing of the signature that I provided: Yes, I know, it's not my best artwork, but I didn't have the time to be elaborate with the drawing. I had to look like I was providing a signature. Right after I hit "OK", there was a pause. The register then said "COMPARE SIGNATURE ON SLIP TO CARD." One thought popped in my head: "OH CRAP !!" It then printed the receipt and there in black and white was my drawing of **** and balls. The lady at the register didn't immediately look at it. She asked for the card. I handed her the card and she flipped it over. Then she brought up the receipt and she smirked, but then took a stern tone and said "These signatures don't match." At this point I was in tears from trying to hold back my laughter. I tried to explain to her why I had done it, but it didn't matter. I probably didn't make sense as I laughed hysterically through the explanation. She then paged the manager and I erupted in laughter. The guy behind me in line got a glimpse of my signature on the receipt and began laughing. The manager comes up and the woman from the register begins whispering to him. I then hear a few words "She drew a penis..." as she holds up the receipt. The manager blurts out a short laugh and then controls it. He turns to me and I'm out of breath from laughing and I'm still giggling like a schoolgirl. Manager: Ma'am, your signature...heh...umm...doesn't match the signature on your card. Me: I know and there is a good reason for that. Manager: (quietly) You drew a penis on my credit card machine. **The guy behind me bursts into laughter.** Me: Yeah, I didn't think this would happen. I've been trying to see how far I could go with my signature before the credit card company did something about it. Manager: I guess you learned your lesson. Me: Yeah, the credit card doesn't accept penis. **The guy behind me now can't stop laughing.** Manager: OK, I'm going to decline the signature and have you sign it again. Me: Fair enough. Manager: This time, really sign it. So I had to sign it again and they wouldn't let me keep my artwork. Those bastards. I had single handedly broken up the monotony of their daily routine and given them something that they will be talking about for years to come and they wouldn't let me keep it. I'm pissed. They will tell their grandchildren about the girl that drew **** and balls as her credit card signature. And they don't have the balls to let me keep it. So I have a plan now. I'm going to get a new credit card and sign the back with my **** and balls drawing. Then I will consistently use that as the signature. That way, if I ever get caught in the same situation, the signatures will match. That will really mess with them.

Well my exciting night is ruined. I have gotten a horrible horrible headache. Going to bed. Good night folks. Have a good weekend.

Are you a romantic person ? When did you realize that you were in love with your wife ? And what was it about her that made you fall in love ? Did you get on one knee when you proposed ?

What's your greatest accomplishment that your the proudest of ? If you could do anything over, what would it be ? What's the one thing about yourself that you like the most ?

I am so freaking excited about tonight. Going to a huge crawfish festival with a slew of friends. I cannot wait......

I like the sewn up ripped area in the back where its obvious you bent over and heard the infamous riiiiiiiiiiiip. Lol And the 2 current holes. Hope your not going commando.........that could be a little tease for the wildlife out there. I can already see it on the news....."Man gets raped by grizzly bear while hiking through the mountains"

Here is one.... I have to go back to work but I will find more later. http://www.webmd.com/smoking-cessation/news/20041027/smoking-cigarettes-affects-brain-like-heroin Please keep going, your doing great. Your already through HELL week.

Evelyn, OMG !!!!! I am so happy to see you here. I am sorry that your so sad..... but your healing. And it's a tough road, but it's so DOABLE !!!! Have you read how cigarettes affect the dopamine/ serotonin receptors and uptake ? If not, please read it. I will try to find the link for you. Your sadness is to be expected. Let it happen. Do NOT hurt yourself though. Go for a walk, take a hot bath, do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself. And please stick close to us. We really do care about you.

Laura, I am so sorry to read this........ I am glad your here and not out there still puffing away. Look at those videos every day, every minute that you can. They are real. And we are not special. That can happen to any one of us. And it has. Some of us have already died those horrible deaths. And truth be told, there are some that will come on here and may still die like that. Let's cut the risk in ourselves for this to happen. You cut the risk of that happening for yourself. It happens every day. Today, doctors will tell many people that they have cancer. Just today, think about all the hospitals out there, all the doctors and how many people will get told TODAY that they are going to die. And tomorrow, the cycle repeats itself. It's sad. But it IS true. I don't ever want that day to come for you. Please quit. You can do this.