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You crack me up !!!!

I once dated a guy for 2 months that told me he had been married once. He had 2 children. Come to find out he had been married 4 times. And his last wife was only 17 when they married. 2 years before I was dating him and the marriage only lasted 1 year. He was 43 when they married. Needless to say I never went out with him again. Although I had an issue with him being married 4 times but that was nothing to him lying and him marrying a child. There's alot of weirdos out there. And sometimes we run across them..... but don't give up. Your one person closer to Mr. Right.

I kinda like.........."the short bus" Or if your have a masculinity complex, you could always call it "the Crusher" "Black Dahlia" "Black Widow" "Big Black Bitch" Or is you are wanting something more gentle.... "Destiny"

I once had a big white fuzzy rabbit named Fred. He was such a cool rabbit.

It will eventually happen in the US but the companies are already targeting other countries, especially ones they can manipulate with money and politics. It's really sad. I met a woman the other day that had never smoked a cigarette in her life. But she has lung cancer and emphysema. Her cancer is directly related to smoking. Her husband smoked and she was a secretary with 2 other women in her office and they both smoked in the office. Her home and work life was bombarded with cigarette smoke. And now she's dieing. Even as a non smoker, cigarettes affected her in every way. To the point that it is costing her her life. Yeah, they need to be held accountable. Even if they never pay, at least, someone out there is saying----> this is YOUR fault. Their actions are being brought out into the light and one day, they won't be able to hide anymore.

And something else Evelyn..... helping others reinforces your quit. Stick around and help others too. You might be surprised at how much you REALLY do want to do this.

Evelyn, you will not do what you don't want to do. Find that little morsel in your mind that keeps telling you that you want to be a non smoker and continuously bring it to the forefront. And then teach a guinea pig how to dance. You know the drill. You can do this. But only you can do it and only if you truly want it.

It was that horrible queen !! and so we all circled around her and asked..... "how did you get untied ?" and she responded with.........

This is amazing. I wonder how far this will really go....... http://news.msn.com/us/fla-jury-slams-rj-reynolds-with-dollar236b-in-damages

Jay, take as much time as you need on the patch. This is not just about nicotine addiction. Smoking is a lifestyle for us, a coping mechanism, a DEEPLY INGRAINED internal belief system that cigarettes do something positive for us. It takes time. We are not just quitting smoking, we are literally changing how we function on a day to day process, how we cope with things and learning that all we knew about smoking is a complete lie. If you need to do the whole series, then do it. This is YOUR quit and if standing on your head helps, then by all means, stand on your head. Many many people have been successful using the patch. What works for one person may not be the best solution for another. This is yours to own and protect. And no matter what you do, how you do it or how long it takes, we will ALWAYS have your back. I'm really really glad your here

and 01 is so easy peasy that I don't remember what a cigarette looks like and 10 is handcuff my ass to the bed, I'm on my way out to smoke......... Thursday was a 7-8, yesterday was a freaking 15 !! But today, it's like a 2-3. I still had to chase the dog across a wet pasture this morning but this time, I wasn't near as angry. And work, we'll it's just work. I'm feeling better. Thanks y'all so much !!!! I don't know that I would have been able to say I've made it to day 36 if it hadn't been for y'all.

Susana, I am so freaking proud of you. You keep going. You deserve this and so much more. Now is the time that you give it to yourself.

I agree with Bakon. Take this time during the easy part and educate yourself on the dangers of smoking, how to maintain a quit and how to combat the lies that smoking has convinced you of. It's all about education and reprogramming the brain. Stay close to the board.....we love to hear from you. It's all a mindset and you seem to have an awesome one. And your right, it does keep you accountable. I truly think that's what saved me yesterday. Welcome to QT !!! And I'm glad to be taking this journey with you. You CAN DO IT !!!!

I really do hope she comes back. She is truly an asset to this board. I wonder if she's with Scott.........

"Scottinpa is mine !! Back off bitches !!!" So we tackled her to the ground and.......

I miss you. :(

I have made it home after passing one store after another. And each time I thought about pulling in, I would reinforce the idea that I am a non smoker. I don't need anything from that store. Today has admittedly been a white knuckling kind of day. It's been an every 10 minute SNOT day. But I'm home. And I even thought about getting drunk. But I decided against that too cause I was too weirded out that I might go to my weakest link (the neighbor) and bum that infamous "just one" smoke and ruin everything. Instead, I sent my little guy to one of his friends and I'm just going to lose myself in tv tonight. I think I'm going to go into work tomorrow to keep me busy and preoccupied. We are short of staff and they can use the help. That's my plan. While we were on vacation, I took the kids to a water park. Every time we go to one, I buy this waterproof little case to store my cigarettes in so they don't get wet. Well we walk in and I head straight to the counter and tell the lady what I want. She rings me up and about that time, my daughter comes in and asks me what I'm doing. I tell her and she says to me...... "why do you need to get one of those ?" I started to tell her why and for the life of me, I started stuttering...... I couldn't think of why I needed it. My daughter busted out laughing. She thought it was the funniest thing..... she starts telling EVERYONE that I was buying it cause that is what I'm used to doing so that my smokes don't get wet. But that I don't smoke anymore !!!! I just left the store and didn't buy it. And my daughter was laughing her ass off. The whole point of that is..... I'm still struggling on internalizing this whole not smoking lifestyle. I can't even begin to tell you all the thoughts that have been invading my innocent little brain today. It's been relentless but I don't want to smoke. And I'm still holding on to that. Thanks everyone. I read each and every post on here and I cannot begin to tell y'all how much I needed to hear what y'all said. Tomorrow is going to be a new day. And I will make it to tomorrow. As a matter of fact, tomorrow will be 36 days !!!! I have only made it to 36 days one other time and I ended up smoking on that day. So tomorrow I will be making history. lol

I just left the office. I don't know what is going on but I am full of emotions today. It started when I woke up. The first thing I thought about was a cigarette and that seems to have set the precedent for my day. So I'm gonna change it. I'm gonna go work with patients today and spend some time with their families. They love it when the head honcho comes to see them. Makes them feel important (and they are) but it also keeps me grounded. A much needed dose of reality. Beacon, you nailed it. Things are really making me mad that didn't use to. I used to just smile and walk away. Now I just see my self becoming very hostile. Right now, this minute, I'm not going to smoke. Can't say it's not because I don't want to. But because I know that as soon as I do, I will want to quit again. Or maybe not. I might enjoy it so much that I will never want to quit again. But either way, the track I'm on now is the best. I guess my heart just isn't in it right now. I can't wait till I can retire. I only have 23 years, one month and 3 days to go. Then I can relax and maybe enjoy this ride called life. Stress without smoking seems weird. Unnatural.

I know that y'all have given me support the last 2 days and I hate to ask for even more. I'm sorry. But I'm angry and I don't even know why !!! I had a really good vacation. It was so nice to sit back and relax and now I'm back to running my ass off. We are so freaking busy all the blessed time. It never stops !!!! I'm sick of it. I'm gonna be working late tonight and I don't want to. And I just had to chase the dog across a wet pasture. I hate this stupid stupid dog. I don't even know what's going on anymore. I just know that I used to be able to unwind with a cigarette. I could sit down and relax. And now that I'm not smoking, I'm running my damn ass off and not enjoying it one freaking bit. I just don't know if this is what I want anymore. But then again, I also know that is junkie thinking. It just won't leave my head. I was happy 2 days ago. What the freak happened ?????????? So here it is. My first SOS. How pathetic is that ?

Cher, I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs my friend.

Do you remember when you were pregnant and women would always tell you about the God awful stories of their labor ? Like somehow we wanted to hear all that knowing our own labor is just around the corner. I never have been able to understand why we do this to others. And then you go into labor and none of those horrible stories happen....... Your in labor Babs. It's all gonna be ok.

Thanks y'all. I appreciate all the logic reasoning. I need to hear it. I am really shocked at how this has made a complete turn. I was so happy about me quitting just a few days ago and now I seem to not even care anymore. I guess the "foreverness" is hitting me. I'm not excited about quitting anymore. I'm even questioning whether this is something I really wanna do. I'm tired of living my life revolved around not smoking. To me, it's the same thing as living it revolved around smoking. What's the freaking difference ? It's still a cigarette. Or not. But I also know, through this last year of a lot of learning, that this is just a phase. And I'm gonna wait it out. I know that I will be so much happier once I get through this stage. I'm just out of sorts. I'll get better.

and feeling really sad. I miss my dad. Next to my children, he is like the charm of my life. We have always been so close and every time I leave him, I wonder if this will be our last vacation together. He's getting up in age, and I can just see him getting older. And I don't want to smoke. But then again I do. It's like part of me says what am I doing this for? We all are gonna die eventually. And then part of me says I don't want to have to quit again and I know this will pass. I just miss him. I hate leaving him. And I know it's me being sad. We did have a really good time though. And back to the grindstone tomorrow.