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MQ, simply put.....he hasn't internalized everything yet. I do know for me quitting is not an action, but a process. I will even go so far as to say relapsing is ok. And I know I'm fixing to get my ass chewed for saying this but just listen to me....... We smoked. Call it addiction or habit or whatever but it is something that we ingrained in ourselves as a life necessity. It's not just a cigarette. It's a friend, a coping mechanism, an escape, etc, etc, etc. There is something in him that wants to quit or he wouldn't keep coming back. I know cause I've been there. So have you (I think) and when I was On the board and y'all were telling me all the things I needed to hear....I could hear but I couldn't believe. It takes time. And one day, it clicks. He's getting there. And we will see him again. Doesn't matter why he relapsed. What matters will be when HE starts to see what we are saying as the truth. When he starts to internalize his quit, then the reasons for relapsing will be important.

Dancer !!!! I'm do glad to see you here. I wonder about you a lot. And your quit !!! That's awesome. Please stick with it. And post here first if you feel like giving up. We will talk you out of it. Lol

I never doubted you. Your doing great !!!!

No, it's ok. He is getting closer and closer. I did exactly what he is doing for over a year. One day he'll get tired of quitting and he'll quit for good. What would be a shame is if he NEVER came back. Every time he does come back though, he is getting one step closer to freedom. He knows what he wants to do and he'll get there. I firmly believe that.

Congratulations on being a GRANDMA !!!! And the coolest thing about it is your grand baby never has to see his grandma sucking on a death stick. You can rewrite your family history right here. Right now. Hope you stick around. You can do this.

This thread makes me smile. Keep going, your doing great !!!

DD, that's exactly what I keep reminding myself. I don't want to have to do this again. That it's a process and I just gotta go through it. Like being pregnant. And labor. It does help knowing that I'm not the only one that has felt this.

I'm so glad to hear that this is normal. I was wondering why I'm doing this. It's like I'm in week one again, not with the physical aspect of it, but the mental. My thinking is all fuzzy, I'm depressed, I want to sleep all the time and I "feel" like I want to smoke. I, honestly, thought I was past this part. I just can't seem to get motivated to do anything. I know this will pass. And I will surely be one happy camper when it does. It sure doesn't make quitting easy.

HAT, I love it when your here. I hope you truly do stick around this time. And stick to this quit. You have so much to offer yourself and that little girl of yours.

Susana, the thing that I held onto yesterday was that I didn't want to undo what accomplishments I have done thus far. Keep on going. Somewhere, sometime, this will all be worth it.

This last weekend was awesome. I did yard work, exercised, went to baseball games and had a few minor craves. Nothing I couldn't handle. Then yesterday hits and it's one crave after another. I'm not even sure I would call em craves but more my mind telling me to smoke. I don't get it. I'm more than 6 weeks in and I'm still wanting to smoke ? Granted it's not hell week or even heck week. But is it too much to ask to just go on with life without having to think about it ? I'm being patient. Not something I'm really good at. But I'm doing it. I know somewhere down the line, this will get better. It just kinda sucks. Sometimes I think this has got to be the hardest thing I've ever done. But I'm still climbing that rope..........

I'm not there yet. Getting there and looking forward to the day that I am there. But definitely not there yet. I still miss smoking. Don't misunderstand me...... I don't miss the smoke, the cigarettes, the having to go outside to smoke, the being tired all the time, etc, etc, etc...... But I do miss the relaxing part of it. I miss the feeling of it. The inhalation/ exhalation aspect of it. But I am NOT smoking and hopefully will find alternatives to those feelings. LIke breathing in FRESH air and having more time on my hands to find relaxing things to do. There had to have been a complete transformation in your thought processes re smoking prior to you quitting. Otherwise, I don't know how you could have done that. Most people, I think, would have the transformation after quitting. That is reinforced with time.

I seriously think the temptation would be too much for me. I have a hard time now with my weakest link living right down the street...... I can't even imagine in the same home. I still say your a stronger person than I think I could ever be.

It's an Echo. 20 inch. Orange with a black blade. I am probably gonna take it to the little machine shop that we have in town tomorrow. I don't even know how to clean a carburator. Heck, I don't even know where it's at. lol It's taken time to learn. Last year, I couldn't figure out why my tree wasn't falling over (I swear I even think I saw it shaking its leg) and come to find out I had the chain on backwards and was doing nothing more than giving the tree a back massage. But now, I am pretty darn good at cutting things up. When I can get it to start.....

Action, come out, come out wherever you are !!! We misses you.

I don't know how you do it. I don't think there's any way in hell I could have ever quit with a smoker in the house. You and a few others on here have smokers in the house. I have the UTMOST respect for anyone that can pull that off. That's commendable.

Hey Joe, I did enough yard work today for the both of us !!!! Does that make you feel better ?

I just spent the better half of today de mosquitoing my yard. And my yard is huge. Then I go mow the back pasture, attempt to cut down a tree with chain saw that will not start (do chainsaws have carburetors ? I might need to get it cleaned) and clean up a kitchen. And now I go back outside and what do I see ???? A freakin mosquito !!!!! Now I'm wondering if the bottle is broken and I just spent the better half of today watering my yard. Uggghhh !!!!!! It's times like this I wish I wasn't so single. But on the good side....my son and I are starting the couch to 5K tonight. Thank you Joe for that. I like that a lot.

I have never had a smokers cough. I don't know why. I just couldn't breathe. And I have noticed that breathing is a rather important necessecity for life.

Congratulations !!! You are making the BEST decision of your life. Saving your life. Keep on going. And don't look back. It may get a little bumpy but that"s ok. We are all here to keep you grounded.

Joe, I did the color run a couple of months back and we LOVED it !!!! I am preparing to do the Glow run next. I like that app "couch to 3K" I downloaded it onto my phone and my son and I are going to utilize it. Thanks for putting that out there. I had never heard of it. If you get a chance, look around for another 3K if you can't do the color run. They always have little marathons out here where I live, they might have em there too. It's not a race and it's amazing motivation to keep running. I have yet to run a full one but I'm working on it.

Hiya Vic !!!! Welcome to the QT !!! So how are you doing today ? I am glad to hear you have decided to take your life back. It"s an amazing feeling, isn't it ? Is that a gas mask for your avatar ?

Susana, you freaking ROCK !!!! You are so doing this. You are seriously a lot stronger than you even know. I'm so glad your here.