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Your blood sugar may be low. Can you eat something sweet for me?

Yeah, it's a horrible feeling. I know. But listen to this..... I know it sounds crazy. But your body is actually healing right now. If you can just bear through it, I promise you it will get better. But if you choose to smoke, you will be back at day one. And neither one of us want that, now do we ?

Natttalliiee !!!! I'm so hoping you fell asleep....... I'm still here. Let's talk.

I'm here. What's going on ? Please don't go away. I will talk all night if you need to. Sorry no one answered but there is someone here now and all I'm asking is that you talk to me.

Nat, you still here ? Talk to me.... please. Dont' smoke.

I'm not going anywhere. Sometimes though it's nice not thinking about not smoking/ smoking every minute of every day. If that makes any sense. Susana's post in the SOS came just at the right time on the right day. I knew exactly how she felt and I read what y'all wrote and it helped me. Its' been 2 freaking months. It gets frustrating having to deal with it 24/7. And of course, I have wondered what the freak is wrong with me. I shouldn't be having any struggling this late in the game. But truth be told..... I really do like not smoking. Not to say, there aren't times I miss it. But overall, I like the way I feel. I feel so much better. And I am hell bent this time on NOT relapsing. There. Your in my loop. Kinda dizzy feeling, isn't it ?

I'm right here. still smoke free. been really really busy and having a hard time with my quit. Seems like I hit 2 months and went "whew, I did it. Now I can smoke." I hate sounding like the negative nilly all the time. So I'm trying to get my thinking right. Thanks MQ for checking up on me though. I'm still going on with my quit.

Lace, I'm not sure what tomorrow entails at times. But I do know I have control over today. Just one day at a time. The fight does get exhausting, I know it does. So sometimes I just quit fighting and surrender to it. I tell myself.....ok, I would like to smoke. But this time, I'm not going to smoke. I'm not gonna do it today. And then I try to find something healthy to do.....even if it's just eating a banana. It will get easier. I promise. You just gotta have faith and believe. I hope your feeling better today. Please stick close to us today. We don't want you straying off into wonderland....... Wonderland isn't the best place to be when one's feeling weak.

Hey Roland and welcome aboard !!!! The journey to a smoke free life can be one of the most rewarding decisions you ever make. I'm glad to see you here. Hold on tight and let us know how we can help.

I know how you feel Chrispy. I'm in tears. And he hasn't even started yet. Today I'm registering him and he had to take pictures and I just busted out crying. I'm just not ready for him to grow up.

I find myself analyzing the shit out of people when I see them smoking. I watch them intensely. Almost to the point of creeping them out. But it's interesting to visualize them inhaling, watching them relax, how they exhale it only to repeat the whole process over and over again. And then they just flick it off their fingers cause now they are fulfilled. But what if....... What if you told them that was gonna be their last cigarette ? I wonder how they would treat it then. I'm sure they would inhale more deeply, keep it in longer, puff it down to the butt. You would be able to see their fear rising. The anxiety. Or they could just punch you in the face. Either way, it's nice to know. You can walk away and not think twice about it. They aren't there yet. I ask people all the time....."have you ever thought about quitting ?" It's amazing the excuses I hear.

I have never made it to 2 months before. This is pretty darn cool. And if I can do 2 months, then I can definitely do 4. All it is now is just rinse and repeat.

You will NEVER see me post about a relapse again. Cause that day isn't gonna happen. Besides I don't like getting my arse kicked. Spanked maybe, but definitely not kicked. lol

Harder than heroin, they say...... I wouldn't know. I've never been jacked up on heroin. Smokers die every day. So do non smokers. But they don't smell as bad in the casket. Good job Joe !!! And alternate arms. Puts less strain on one side of your back.

LMAO !!!!!!!

Doreen, have you ever met a couple and you can physically feel the love between them ? They may be standing 10 feet from each other but you can feel it. That's you. And what you are to this board. We may never lay eyes on you, may never see your face..... but each one of us can feel your tender heart. Your kind soul. How much you care about each and every one of us. You are such a blessing to us. I can only imagine what a blessing you are to your family. We are so lucky to have you. You are truly the epitome of inspiration. Thank you.

I have a friend, y'all may have heard me talk about her. I call her Puffy on here. Well she started to quit smoking back in December. She would smoke one here and there but for the most part, she had quit. Now she has gone about 4 months completely smoke free. But today, she had a tough day at work. And she posted that she reeeeaaalllly wanted to smoke on Facebook. Of course, I responded and told her not to. But about an hour later, she called me and confessed. She gave in and smoked half a cig. And she talked about how nasty it tasted. I wonder if she woke the beast back up. The next few days are gonna be interesting. But in all of this...... it made my committment that much stronger. I don't judge her. But listening to her talk about how much she didn't like it....... I asked her if it helped her. She said for about 5 minutes. That 5 minutes isnt worth the chance of a full fledged relapse. I'm so happy I'm doing this. I feel so good. And I actually have grown to love my quit.

You sound very important to have "followers". I tried following someone once. Followed them for days. Until I got arrested for stalking. That kinda hurt my feelings. So I quit following em. Anyways, welcome to the quit train !!! I think you will like it here.

I have never understood how people can put on two faces. To the public eye, he was so funny, so charismatic and seemed to just embrace life. And on the inside, he's in the darkest hole anyone can imagine. I never can quite understand that. When I'm sad, geez, I'm screaming it....I'M SAD !!!! to everyone and anyone that will listen. But I also do the same when I'm happy. My heart goes out to his family. His children, his wife. She made the comment that she lost her best friend. How powerless they must feel. To finally realize the depth of his depression. And knowing there is no way to fix it now. I wish mental illness was taken more seriously. It truly is an illness. Just like diabetes, HTN or any other physical disease process and really needs to be recognized as such. He was a great man. Made many people laugh. Some until they cried. It's very unfortunate he didn't quite grasp how dearly he was loved. Even by those who never met him personally. May you forever rest in peace Robin.

Bakon, you just made my night !!! I am so happy to hear this.

Not silly at all. Human.

Nancy, I'm sending you some big hugs right now. I know how rough that can be. Please know your not alone. We can help even if it's just by listening. Please take some time for you. Make yourself a priority just one day or even half a day each week and keep it all about you. Love you !!!!

I'm confused. Is she in remission ?