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Thank you. It just seems a little disconcerting. My heart is breaking for her. She's so scared and like all of us try to do..... she thought she was doing everything right. Thank you. Nancy, this was really mean. I didn't post an SOS. I didn't say I was gonna smoke. I didn't even say I was struggling. I got on here and voiced a thought. Kinda a safe place. I can promise you this..... you will never see me on here again. Bye.

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lol Thank you, thank you.

I really do miss her. I sure hope she comes back soon.

Enjoy the peace...... and quiet. It won't be like that long. I expect alot more peeps coming in after the new year.

ha ha..... I still have my goat. His name is Carlo. And he is the bestest goat in the world !!!!

I figured it out !!!! I'm so smart. lol

Is it possible ?

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Sarge..... She had a week quit with nicotine spray and when she decided to "quit cold turkey", so she threw that quit away and she smoked until the next day. She chose not to just put down the spray and quit. Thing is.... we have been telling her not to smoke. And she's smoking away. All I am saying is take a break. You can't force a quit. She's not even trying. She has one day of being upset and off she goes to smoke. Doesn't matter what we say. She's not ready. Does that mean she will never be ready ? No. It doesn't. Just means right now..... she's only torturing herself.

You know Evelyn, I am going to say something that most on here may not agree with. But I feel it needs to be said. You need to continue smoking. Don't quit. I don't say this cause I have given up on you. I say this because I don't think you WANT to quit. I do believe you want to want to. And there is a huge difference. Take some more time smoking. But in that time, with every cigarette you smoke, tell yourself how much you don't like them. Notice the little things it does to you. When you get tired so easily..... remember that's from that cigarette you smoked. When you cough, know it's because you are poisoning your lungs. When your fingertips and toes are cold, remind yourself how smoking affects your circulation. And when you get tired of all the crap that you're doing to yourself..... really really tired..... then try again. But choose a time when you KNOW your heart and soul are in it. But forcing a quit is only accomplishing your affirmation that it's ok to relapse. Resulting in self torture. I want you to stick around here. You do have friends here. That care about you immensely. And when the time is yours, claim it. And we will be here rooting for you. But I don't believe the time is now.

Doreen........ Please let her know I think about her. And wish her very well.

Evelyn, I was there a few days ago. I love that you're angry. The thing is.......quitting smoking isn't what is making you feel like this. Smoking is what makes you feel like this. You smoke and the feeling goes away. for a while. But it's that smoke that will eventually cause you to feel like this again until you smoke another. You can choose to be a prisoner to it. Or not. Like Sarge said, go run. Run your little butt off. Do anything but smoke. Remember, it's your brain and you have complete control over it. Teach it something today. Teach it that it can live without smoking.

I miss her.

NO. No, Evelyn, you did NOT do the right thing. You bought a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. You did NOT post an SOS. You did NOT talk about why you were wanting to go buy a pack. You did NOTHING to retrain your brain to NOT go buy that pack. The thing is Evelyn, you don't get kudos for buying a pack and then returning them. You get kudos for posting and then NOT buying them. Retrain your brain Evelyn. It's YOUR freaking brain.

I would have killed him...... lol Or rocked his world !!! Not sure which.

Awesome advice. I am planning on doing just that very very soon.