Gabby

I will not smoke no matter how much I want too!!!

Why is it when you stop smoking you have to suddenly face things that maybe your life wasn't as good as you thought. I have lost my sense of humour? I have no patients with friends and family, instead of leaving the conversation half way thru to go and smoke, I have to stand listen to all the dribble they are talking. People annoy me more than they use too. And people don't understand how hard it is to stop smoking and stay stopped. Where has all my energy gone. I have a mountain of things to do and I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I just want to be around people who use to smoke and now how I feel and what I mean. The last thing is now I am fat........never been fat before......could always eat what ever I wanted, never had to worry about exercise. And everybody keeps telling me how much weight I have put on. Like I don't know that. (nothing fits anymore). Just had to put this out in space.

High 5ing you Sarah, on 8 weeks :D

Thank you I will remember to reward myself, sometimes you get so wrapped up in quitting you forget the good things.

NOPE FOR Tuesday 17th

Yay this is the right day for me. As I am one day a head of you guys. Nope for today

Great blog Marti

Yay me one week done and dusted.

I will not smoke today Monday 16th

I must tell you before I go for my walk. I feel way better, just telling how I feel has made it go away.

I am going to take Marti idea and go for a walk. See you guys later. Big eye rolling in my house Marylandquitter.

What a good idea, I'm going to use that.

I wish I could come and have a walk with you today. Keep going Marti your doing so well

Thank you Maryland Quitter going on the pledges did make me feel better, now I have told someone. Lot of eye rolling in the family here she goes again( know what I mean)

I will not puff no matter what happens!!!!!!!!!! On Sunday the 15th

Working on the Mental I think I am mental today. Sunday and not much is happening except in my brain <_<

I am so hanging out today for a cig, my whole being just wants one. Its a big fight with the nicodemon , chatter in my head. I have to keep telling him to clear off. It's just a day I have to fight hard NOPE NOPE NOPE. Feeling pretty battle weary today. This is when I get annoyed that I started again and I put myself in this position AGAIN. All your good ideas have helped me carry the battle on. I am going to stick close to the board this time. Keep busy Gabby, don't let him win. Even the dog knows to stay away from me today.

I failed myself and your guys by going back to smoking. I have stopped again and are on day 5 (yet again). When will I learn, Its so hard to start again. I know I should have done an sos but it was just so stupid what started me off. No excuses I smoked can't take it back. I am beginning to wonder if I can do this. I read all the help I can get and yet I still return to smoking under stress. The last five days has been really hard and I really wondered if I could go through this again. What makes me fail?. 99% of the time I don't want to smoke.

Nope for Tuesday 27 and no nicotine either.

Hi, Well it's day 2 and tomorrow will be day 3 with no nicotine, it's 11 o'clock and nearly time for bed, and boy I am glad today is over. I feel like I have been screaming silently inside today. I just keep thinking one more day and it will be easier ( know the 3rd day is the worse) I just wish I had never smoked at all. And why do I keep putting myself through this. Check in with you guys tomorrow.

MarylandQuitter, can you tell me why I now have the extra google thing on the end of my name thing

I like the smell of fresh smoke, but poo stale is just plain yuk. I to think I smelled like that for 38 years.

And Gabby too!!

OMG tonight is my last lozenge no more nicotine for me, I can feel the panic setting in. I have read Allen Carr's book more than 3 times. This is where things start to go wrong for me.

NOPE Today but my day is Sunday 25th