I signed up as a member of the quit Train on April 7th and was so excited just like that I picked a quit date of April 9th. I did it- I quit smoking. for 13 days.The first week I was in a state of euphoria. The second week not so much I started missing my wicked little friend. I was determined to not buy cigarettes for if I did then I knew that would be the end of it. I have heard that the quitting process can be quite easy and I am reading a book by Alan Carrs the Easy Way. I have to say it did not seem very easy to me. Everyday is a fight to not smoke. This is a fight for my life. I have to win. I have to make this Easy. There were a lot of things that I liked about not smoking. My clothes do not smell, the house does not smell,I can smell things better, my chest stopped hurting, my cough was almost gone. My other half was very proud. Saving money is really awesome. Along with the good stuff it is actually very hard to not think about smoking all day long. Maybe this is the key. I have to figure out how to turn by brain off when it comes to smoking. Just pretend that I have always been a non smoker question my urges to smoke. For some unknown reason after 13 days I had enough. It was a constant feeling of struggling to do what I know is right. Not to smoke. I bummed a cigarette from the neighbor. I actually had 1 cigarette a night for 3 nights when I caved and bought a pack of cigarettes . Anyway before I purchased the pack of cigarettes I picked another quit day April 23rd. I did not quit.
So here I am. I have smoked 5 1/2 packs of cigarettes in 4 and half days. My chest hurts, I can hear my wheezing again, and I have my daytime smokers cough back. I signed on to the board today to make my announcement that I did not quit. That was my only plan. I was not going to do this again. With the help and support of everyone here tomorrow I will not smoke. Tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of my life.