Amy

Nope for today. Happy Easter!

NOPE for me as well for today

Yes it is the new normal that I am struggling with..in time I am sure I will be comfortable for now not so much. Great metaphor...

Hi Action, I have to agree it easy most of the time and hard occasionally .. it is the occasion that I have to get myself through which is really tough. I can not smoke for 10 days and then all of a sudden decide that I have to have a cigarette? (I did not) but it is definitely crazy- I know this will time and I really appreciate that all of you were here for me.

just had to say

oh no..no farting aloud very stinky worse then ever like did something die up there?

I will make it through no smoking for me today

Hi Sarah, It makes perfect sense Trust me :)

I am normally pretty in control- calm cool and collective unless it is PMS which it is not. I really feel like numbnuts right now. But you know what I have decided this is okay.

NOPE again I will not smoke today

Okay the neighbor is not home yet- since I have been watching out the window I called him. Only to see If he wanted me to go feed the dogs and let them out since it is already 7 pm here. Did not ask for a smoke- will not. I am not going there.

I think I will be signed on until I am ready to go to bed- this is okay as long as I don't smoke.

everything is under control now how can that be???

Sounds like unexpected pleasure enjoy :)

wow feeling better right now a little more relaxed no more need to smoke

Can't sit in the bathtub- the other half would think I am really crazy since we have a hot tub.. any way this is hard hard hard very hard..........but I am doing it. I wish Iamdoingit were around since we are quit buddies- but he is MIA.. I guess that is besides the point and I am rambling. I can do this and I will I am not smoking. Thank you everyone for all of the help it was much needed. PS Sorry...

Wow I just can't believe how emotional this is. NOPE for today. Thank you all so much- I don't think I need the neighbor to be home. 4-5 more hours that is all I have to do for today. I am doing this. I have to say I have motion sickness- I can't go on a roller coaster without feeling ill.. This is a roller coaster one moment I am on top of the world next moment I'm crying really? Tomorrow is 11 days I cannot give this up. I will be strong.

I am not going to do it- I am breathing in and out.. and I will deal.. I have 10 days I don't want waste that. My lungs don't hurt. I don't smell like an ashtray.. Thanks for being there! May sign back on later but hopefully not meaning I got this...

I am feeling like I wish the neighbor would get home- feeling like if I had just one cigarette that I would feel better

Suebedoo no can do.. my Aunt passed from lung cancer my Mom is on her way there- it is devastating. I know. I am realizing at this moment why I (crap) am a non smoker it would be so much easier just to continue the way I was.

gooblydygoop? dklsjksfdjgiotdjdofmad its perfect Thanks Jackie! :)

LOL on some of these for some reason I can't do a quote response Thanks needed to laugh :)

Not smoking I have no cigarettes and the neighbor didn't get home yet.. didn't want the other half to see me crying I am not sure he would understand - maybe he would I don't know I just always have to be strong. I think I can never ask for help so.. I went outside for a short walk in the yard. I love my own response to my SOS this is why I cried. This seems so easy most of the time but then there is the few moments when it is really difficult.

okay crying now going outside for a few minutes will be back

Thanks Nancy sitting here ready to cry - I am going to go outside with the dog and take a few breathes..