Soberjulie

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LB.... If it's a good idea today, it will still be a good idea tomorrow. Don't make any hasty decisions in the heat of the moment

I can slowly see some of that happening already. I sat on my front porch the other night, with a coffee. The only time I used to do that was to smoke. Now I do it to relax and enjoy the sights and sounds of spring. Dug out a beautiful spring coat that was always neglected. Why? Because the pockets were too small to hold my package of cigarettes. :p I'm finding that the only dangerous 'trigger' for me is slipping into a case of the F-its. Where I simply don't care if what I do causes damage to my mind or body....if what I do will un-do the progress I've made... Not caring about my own well being is a dangerous place for this addict to be. Thankfully, I have tools and people to help guard against that :)

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And within 6 weeks you have a rabbit farm I insert a bottle of Pepsi

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I'm ecstatic to be back at work. My whole life has been a quest for an escape from reality :p Hence the booze, drugs, smoking, obsessive reading......anything to get an extended break from real life. My job requires me to escape reality and step into the crazy world of dementia. And I get paid for it. It's a win-win. Bah....exersize tv. I'd rather buy bigger pants :p

I just sent her an email. I hope all is ok.

She wasn't leaving the site....just starting a big job and wouldn't be here as much. Her profile pic is gone too :(

What IS up??? I can't pm her anymore either, and LB and I pm'd pretty much daily!

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Where'd your post go Lil'bug? It just says 'deleted'.

I did bring food! :) But me thinks food is becoming an issue! None of my favorite work clothes fit me yet I ate a huge lunch plus scarfed down 2 donuts because a family member brought them in, fresh and still warm! And the whole time I'm swallowing them without hardly even chewing, I'm thinking "well at least I don't smoke!" Lol

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My routine has gone back to what it looked like before I quit smoking. (I lost my job in Dec, quit smoking in Jan, and now I'm finally back to work) I noticed today during my 30min drive to work that I had a 'spot' where I always lit up. As soon as I reached the outskirts of town and turned on to the county road....my hand reached out to the place my cigarettes would normally be. (The cup holder. Because WHO puts cups there?!) I was amused.....kind of detached and amused by the automatic reaction that my brain and body had without any real awareness on my part. The next 'trigger' (not even sure if that's the right word since I had no desire to smoke, just had an automatic physical reaction) was at break time when I did what I always did at work. Left my unit, took the elevator to the main floor, exited to the left to head towards the parking lot. I was part way through this routine when I snickered at myself and said "silly! Where ya going? The break room is the other way." I'm glad to be back at work but I totally didn't anticipate how strange it would be to notice old behaviours that appear without any reason.....other than addiction :p

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It does not matter what life throws my way today....smoking is not an option.

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I got off easy. Today, because I'm back to work, 80% of my first world people have dementia, Down syndrome or a traumatic brain injury. They are the most lovely people to spend my day with.

-1 Hahaha. Who's has the short twig? C'mon...speak up

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You are a wonderful part of this community! Thanks for being here and congrats!

Congratulations!!