sometimes you have to let things go I normally do not say anything but I feel I have to now.......sometimes things are seen where there is nothing to see or things are made into something they are not. It is a matter of perspective and a lot of times nobody really knows what the others perspective might be especially when it might be kind of cryptic. NO ONE here is an outsider I should know I felt like an outsider in another forum because I didnt post as much as others did or for some other reason maybe the forum was too big for its britches IDK. I came here and even though I might not post much NO ONE has ever made me feel like an outsider like I wasnt apart of the forum.......no one can MAKE you feel anything really it is up to you to determine how you feel. You are still fresh in your quit emotions might be riding high but sometimes you might need to take a breathe and look at things from a different perspective to see if what is upsetting you is truly worth being upset about. I try not to be too serious about everything...I see horrible things at work people who die young from something or other life is what you make it and take what you want and leave the rest. Peace and hugs to everyone and everybody.