I hear ya on the abundance of internal anxiousness. Everyone, everything had the potential to piss me off. There were a couple folks on here that I had to block because I couldn't deal with them. I'd get angry every time I logged on which kind of defeated the purposed of a support forum. (bakon and nancy helped talk me off the ledge a few times, ha)
For close to a month, I managed to singe every person in my line of sight; I didn't mean to but patience was limited and my tongue was sharp. Wanting normal is normal. We go from highly capable women to thinking and acting like a snitty 14 year old girl in the locker room (God forgive us). It helped immensely to recognize and shut down that self-producing/self-imposed drama in. it's. tracks! I think that move was my saving grace. Engaging only escalates and it's not worth the anxiety cuz you're not going to smoke anyway. That said, it's ok to be a bit pissy, kicking addiction is consuming..at least for a little while. The uglies are only temporary
I'm glad to read you're still keeping close to the board. I'm glad to read you're not going to smoke anyway.
