comrade simba

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Annoying is my new word for this quit. Like the sound of a tv droning through cheap apartment walls punctuated by telemarketers.

Ev - did you get you meds and head back up to speed yet? If you haven't would you just put this no smoking idea off the table - everybody in this place may feel the need to fling sparkles and feel good glitter around but you just came off a suicide attempt and the last thing in the world you need is this up and down quit/smoke/quit/smoke/quit/smoke soul crushing merry go round. Jesus H Christ - Things are NOT okay. It IS a big deal. This isn't pattycake.

I sought escape. Dope did it, booze did it, and after I quit those all I had left was the cigarette. Now everything is 24/7 with no respite. Not that that's a bad thing - I'm just not used to it.

We could stir some shit up on the board so she'd be constantly checking it...

Re: the bolded, It won't be any particular fault of MQ or for that matter any particular group within the dynamic when that inevitably comes to pass. The hierarchical template is the same so it can't do anything but evolve into whats in its coding. Sociology is way less complex than normally imagined. Even benevolent dictatorships eventually crumble, and the masses are to programmed to never give anarchist principles any room to operate in the aftermath of collapse. Our culture likes to pin its flaws on a particular individuals but that's just a red herring. Culpable does not equal blame.

Got a buck says it takes way less than a year for the real addicts to finally throw their hands up in the air and walk away from the White Robe-ists. All that's left be playin' that same old chord over and over again. At three months I'm going to go hang out full time with Jimmy.

It costs nothing to say I'll never smoke again. Hell, at that price I'll take a dozen.

Heading off for a couple hours of Taekwondo.

Rob - that is the perfect place to be in when planting a turnip patch. I envy you.

Often. what one doesn't say is as telling as what you do say.

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My fingers aren't as bony and my face isn't as gaunt anymore. Can't get my damn pants on but hey... y'know? It's mostly warm enough to put on the Tarzan loincloth anyway, bwahahaha.

I simply stopped cutting mine.

Yesterday I went back and forth about this and finally self censored what I really wanted to say. Yeah, I refrained from saying light up and have at it - get the med issue dealt with and then worry about smoking. It can take years for a smoking related illness to jump up and say Gotcha!, whereas you can bleed out in the bathtub in fifteen minutes. (Edit...) Somebody will still be around when you get centered again.

Okay fine y'all win. In the event of an incoming planet killer asteroid I won't smoke. I'll just have a few beers and then slam smack.

If he doesn't show up to the party soon I'm tapping into the cake. Good job on a year, Craig.

Amy, you said: "I just wish this would go away." Oh yeah, I hear ya there. The void, vacuum, crave, whatever you want to call it is annoying as hell for me fairly frequently. It's like some pesky and persistent telemarketer robot that just will not stop calling three or four times a day. It is said the instances fade in intensity and reduce in frequency, so okay, anytime it wants to get a move on it's fine by me!

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Planet killing asteroid with a trajectory of direct impact spotted. Grid killing EMP - smoke em if ya got em 'cuz they won't be making them anymore. Any offer greater than 5 thousand cash to smoke a pack. Any request involving pitols and backs of heads to me or mine. Nope - I'm no zealot!

100 likes in 24 hours? Seek help. :lol:

*bump* And the Coke machine spits out a thousand monkeys banging on typewriters I insert a dozen Roach Motels

you get a herd of squealing pigs I insert a Kurt Vonnegut novel

No one has mentioned coughing up a good half a cup of lung goop during the morning's first half hour smoking ritual. To hell with gross... let's talk about fear. The fear that came with looking at the goop for blood.

It's just been a long series of five minute episodes of not smoking for the past couple months. Hey, if I gotta deal with the hassle fifteen maybe twenty minutes a day well okay. Could be worse. As a matter of fact, the first week was a lot worse. This last week has been periodically irritating.