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W5d1

W4d3. 1/4 done with 10 k app

Way to go friend.

Thank you everyone. Happy I made it to six months. Always envied people at six months for some reason.

eh aside from wanting to run better a side effect of "having to clear my throat CONSTANTLY" was a factor in me not wanting to do it anymore. it was embarrassing to me. <3

I kind of understand what you are saying. But not really. I know recently after the doctor news on monday I though "fu** a cigarette...that sounds good" and I watched someone light up....and then I realized there was nothing there for me. It stank. sure...they seemed to be having a good time. But I could see through it....I used to look like I wasnt miserable.. I used to look pleasant and like I was having a good time while smoking. You would have been able to tell nothing else other than I was having a good f***** time. And that is the trick it plays and now I can see through it. Does she look miserable? Did I? Absolutely not. because she is...and I was... telling herself lies while she smokes that cigarette. It offers nothing and we know that. miss it? I don't know that I would say that. If I thought it would help me enjoy or fix anything at all I would pick one up right now. But i know that it would not.

yesterday - w4d2

Bye :( I'm keeping the ice cream truck though. Sadness

Thanks guys

Happy for you action

I wish this wasn't easier said than done: “Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.” ― Benjamin Franklin It's more like this: “Don't worry. Worry is useless. I worried anyway” ― John Green

Well they are worried enough to skip the come back in six month thing and go right to biopsy. Throwing the cancer around like that's a possibility so I'm frightened.

way to go!!! You are so awesome Jen!! :)