Hello! Welcome to our little home on the web. It's great here!!! You're gonna love your smoke free self!
I experienced a 2 year relapse after a solid 4 year quit. I was so mad, but fell into the, "I can smoke for one night, then go back to not smoking" trap once. Was very disappointed after I learned that indeed, one night of smoking took me right back to where I was before I quit. Had to quit all over again, which was a little harder the second time around. The first quit was very easy, I was so excited about becoming a non-smoker and happy to be free. The second time it wasn't awful, but I did have a few episodes of intense cravings. It was those moments that I came to the forum and got the support I needed. I have been smoke free for 2.5 years now and am very confident that I will never smoke again. I know how easy it is to slip back into it, and I never want to be a smoker again.
One thing that helped me through intense cravings was to visualize smoking. I would close my eyes are really imagine myself smoking and I would try to remember and really FEEL it, the burn on my lips, the awful taste in my mouth, the smoke burning my eyes, the scratchiness in my throat, the smoke filling my lungs. All the gross, disgusting feelings I hated about smoking. This helped me a lot - reminded me of how badly I wanted to stay quit.
Not sure if anyone else ever did this.
Anyway, welcome!!!! Read a lot, post often, stay close, play games (except the Chicks and Sticks game, that one is boring and dumb, you don't need to play that one).