This is a great thread.
You have given many excuses to smoke, so if you want to smoke, the excuses are all there.
If you don't want to smoke, then don't smoke. If you need a moment, go to the bathroom and take a moment to think. Ask yourself why you want to smoke. Then, if you really want to light up that one smoke, have a virtual one.
Imagine yourself smoking, but instead of "romanticising" the smoke, remember how smoking really feels. This has helped me a lot at times. I "virtually" smoke a cig. I imagine putting the cig in my mouth and lighting it. Immediately, I feel the smoke pass my lips, tongue and mouth. It is hot; it burns my lips, and the taste is foul. It burns my nose. The heat and smoke burn my throat, then fills my chest. So, I try to blow all the smoke out, but I can still feel the heat and smoke in my stomach. It makes me feel a bit nauseous, but I ignore this feeling. I can feel the the chemicals rushing through my veins. The circulation in my hands and feet is off - jumpy, cold. I cough - just lightly for the moment. Then I take another drag and wish so badly that I was a non-smoker.
Then I rejoice, because this was all a memory and imagination. I take a full deep breath of clean, smoke free fresh air - no coughing, no burning, no smell, no addictive nicotine.
I know too that sometimes it is hard to post to the whole Board, so if you need to PM someone, that works too. I'll PM you right now, so you have me in your PM folder. :)
You can totally get through this Soozie!!! :)